Yeah, I light a candle when I also feel the need but sometimes I'm afraid to starting thinking about her.
I write in a journal of how I'm feeling as well but I find when I do that I start to break down and then I feel like I can't handle it.
I can then feel the pain, every time I let loose and then it just like encourages me to bottle it up again.
I prefer to do a memory box.
I think it will suite me well with the locked away sort of thing happening.
I'm more tempted to just go out and buy the thing I would have gotten for her when she was born and whatnot and just create a little memory box I can keep by my bed like I have now but a better one so to speak.
Either way, I don't want the pain anymore but I know it will always be with me and that's what scares me the most sometimes.
*Bree-Ana*
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