No worries Blossom.
Anger is a very natural part of grief. I grieved for 2 years over the child that I dreamed of having with the love of my life. It was very hard changing the dream. Even when I was pregnant I still 'wished' that we had not had to go down this path, and was angry that it had happened to us. Alot of it was fear of the unknown. Most of all I feared that I would somehow reject this innocent child because I would not feel connected to him. Boy, was I wrong! Love really does have a way of ironing out alot of the bumps. This shared journey tested
DH and I to the max and I am sure will continue to do so as our child grows. Communication (even if its yelling at each other from time to time) is vital.
Back to the business end, my only experience has been with Canberra Fertility Centre and they were great re: donor issues. There is no waiting list for either a local donor or o/s. So long as there are vials for the donor you have chosen available (Xytex's website is great and tells you which donors have vials available) you pretty much can get them in straight away.
Regards
V