Hi girls,
Sorry I have been MIA. Just not in the mood to post much at the moment. Have been having up and down days. A few down days actually, so I don't feel like doing much of anything!
I have had another friday and saturday night on my own. Over feeling so lonely. I had a meltdown again this morning, so
DH took the kids out to buy a birthday gift for a bday we have to go to tomorrow arvo. I hate that it takes for me to meltdown like that before he gets that I'm stressed out. I just had a bath and slept for a while before they came home. I will be going back to the doctor next week to get a referral to a psycologist or something. Tried the eating well, exercise, witamins thing and although it might have helped a bit. it's not enough.
The kids are well (this week!) Lily has just gotten over another double ear infection. More antibiotics and ear drops. Poor baby. She's being very trying too. I think alot of the time she's bored. I try to do stuff with her, but she's wanting me to be with her all the itme and I just can't. Besides the fact that I can't because of my own state of mind, I can't because I have other things I have to do too. And Liam to look after as well. She's throwing tanties alot and screaming and whinging soooo much. I have smacked her a few times, although I am so so trying not to, but I just lose my patience and when I'm telling her not to push Liam for the 1000th time that day and it doesn't work....well I'm sure you guys know what I mean.
Liam is teething and is a bit coughy with a runny nose and the stinkiest poos ever! He also has a nappy rash I just can't get rid of no matter what I do. But he usually gets it when he's teething. (Seriously any doctor which says that teething doesn't cause kids to get sick is an idiot!) He's a menace too, into absolutely everything he can find. He's stuffed the computer a few times cause he climbs on the table and bashes the keyboard. I now have to put the dining table chairs into the kitchen which is gated off so he can't get them. Such a PITA! He's at the stage where he will pull everything out of drawers and cupboards too, so the kids room is constantly messy with clean clothes and nappies which they have pulled out of the drawers and cupboards. I've stopped going off a them and packing them away now. I leave it till they are in bed and go in then!
Trying to eat well and exercise, not only for my mental health, but I really need to lose weight too. I'm over being so fat. But because I am such an emotional eater, it is proving difficult to keep on track! The exercise is easy, going for a walk on my own is good me time, but the eating, well....lets just say I have just devoured a chocolate bar, and still haven't had lunch
Kris, I saw on FB that you're having another little man, congrats hun!! You're going to be the queen amongst a brood of princes!! And I love the name you've chosen too! I hope you're feeling well.
Jen, how are you doing? How's bubba? When are you due, mustn't be too long now?? How's the toilet training going? We've had a few hot days lately have you been letting him run naked?! I let mine go naked now. They do it themselves and I'm sick of dressing and redressing them. Even Liam has learnt to take off his pants and nappy. Lil helps him with his shirt....such a good big sister...
Mel, How are you and the girls?
Dis Mel, how are you doing the last time I remember you were haveing a tough week....
Kaz, haven't heard from you for a while, how's Pip?
Ok gotta go, Lil's going to the toilet on her own....that means toilet paper and tooth paste everywhere......