missing ryder

[ryders_mummy]

hey girls,
i am very nervous as on the 25th of this month i see the doctor to get the results from the postmortem, and on the 1st of October (9 days away) is ryders EDD. for some reason i am really scared.. atm i am really stressed,, what if it was me that did something wrong to ryder and thats y she passed?? how am i going to cope if i am the one to blame?

but i guess it will put a little bit of closure to my pain and suffering.
i really want to start trying for another bub, and we sort of have( i no thats hard to understand)but im thinking it was a bad idea.. my period is almost 2 weeks late and what if there is something wrong with me and i cant carry past 28 weeks?? am i doing the wrong thing.....
is there a chance it could happen again. i really dont no if i can go through this pain again,
i also cant bring my self to see a canceler.. i no i need to speak to someone but telling my story and blabbing on about my feelings to someone that doesnt no what im feeling wont understand??

please if any one is up for a chat please add me to msn

cassie_moore69er@hotmail.com

[littlelara]

Hi Cassie,
I don't have any wisdom to impart, but I didn't want you to feel like you were alone
I'm sure it was nothing that you did, but the post mortem will probably help allay your fears more than anything I could say.
And if it were something you'd done (which I SO doubt) you would know for the next pg, right? If there were some reason you couldn't carry to term then there would be precautions you could take that could help, like a stitch in the cervix or whatever.
I hope you get closure, RIP little Ryder

[mako]

Hi Cassie
I just wanted to send you an enormous sweety. I'm sure you didn't "DO" anything to your baby girl Ryder. I hope you get some answers on Thursday. Please take care of yourself and be open about your feelings. I know it can be hard but please know that we are here for you on BB to offer you support huni