Loula's Little Man Is Here!

Thank you everyone. It has been a long day. William is now off cpap but will need to remain in till at least Thursday. He is still in the top bay which is so strange to see as he is huge compared with all the small premmies he is such a boof today he came out of the crib and the staff are amazing in the NICU nothing like where we have been in SCN. We are encouraged to touch, feed, change nappirs where as before staff were not communication anything to us. I have four mw in our family. Two have come over to help and they were disgusted. One change my bed linin for the first time today since I was admitted. Yesterday my mum helped me with my first shower. It seems if your baby is not with you then you don't need staff ???? One then came in and asked me where my baby was? Ummmmm in NICU since your pred didn't take any notice of him and he needed assistance to breath with a machine!!!! The peads and all staff are amazing where he is cared for now. I can put up with the crap I'm getting now that I I believe he is safe.

I will need to go home without him which I am avoiding to think of right now.

Tonight is about is all getting well needed rest. He fed again this evening and was wide awake for the first time for both mummy and daddy it was a very special time. I hate leaving him and feel more relaxed in NICU than on my ward

I know he's not going to be with you when you go home :hug: but being at home might be better for you instead of being stuck on a mat ward without him ITMS? Soon your milk should come in and the pumping will be easier but you are doing a wonderful job so far, you really are. Maybe once you are home it might be a good idea to get an LC to help you with the feeding as well.

Oh Loula :hug: Lots of love to you and your little man. Get strong soon William xo

As hard as it will be to go home without him being in a loving environment and your own bed will give you more strength to get through it.

It has just hit me. I am an absolute wreak! I'm starting to have a panic attack I'm here alone my dh is not here my mum is not here I can't go home my baby is not with me I am stressed worried and not in any control. I've had no sleep and feel no need to sleep

Deep breath. Deep breath. Drugs are playing with my mind

:hug: Hang in there Loula, you are doing such an amazing job so far.
And you are in control - of making sure they do everything possible for your little man, and you are doing a damn fine job of it so far. So keep calm hun and rest, you need it. xox :hug:

Please try and get some rest, you need to look after yourself for when William is ready to come home.

Loukas, you poor thing :hug: I hope you are sleeping now... You might not feel like you need the rest but you do.

Thinking of you and little William every day.

Big hugs.

Yay my milk is in. I just got 10ml off the pump. They are increasing his feeds by 3ml each time. He had already had a feed this morning so I jumped on the pump. Finally Someone came and offered some help!!! I've already had my cry today.

TODAY WILL BE A GOOD DAY. More breathing.

Just going to call again and see how he is doing today

I'm glad things are looking a little brighter this morning. You are both in my thoughts.

Yay for milk!! And for increasing his feeds too.

What did the hosp say this morning?

That's awesome news honey! Well done! I had DS1 at Monash in SCN. Hugs and thinking of you.

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I guess 2 hrs sleep for me is a start. I can hear the other babies cry but have yet to hear my own little ones as he is still too weak. Time to express again. At least I am able to do that well. But William is only allow fluid from a medi tube all synthic. Will he take my milk again?

My throat is still sore from the general and a reminder I never saw him enter the world. Is any of this real?

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:( oh honey...I know exactly how your feeling. :pray: that things make a turn for the better VERY soon. Try remembering that you have to stay positive and ignore the ********s around you atm (medical staff) and im going to echo Lu...eat and keep your fluids up.
Let me know if you need anyhting honey :hug:

YEAH for your milk coming in, and today will be a better day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Rest up and keep well!! You are in my thoughts always XXOO

Lou, can you ask whether it's possible to stay in the hospital as a boarder rather than a patient? It was an option for us, but they found it possible to keep me in as a patient for the whole time Sam was in SCN because we were struggling to get my milk to come in and trying to establish breastfeeding. It may not be an option, but it would be worth asking.

BW

Loula, congratulations on the arrival of William.
I'm sorry to hear of all that you have been through, that's juat awful :(
Keep strong & I hope you have your little man home with you soon :hug:

Huge hugs Lou, so glad William is improving and yay for your milk coming in. I can understand why he looks like such a boof in NICU, in the photo I got of him he looks so chubby and gorgeous!!

Glad to hear things are looking better....

:hug: Loula
Congrats on the milk! I'm so sorry you aren't being cared for well enough. Hugs for your little boy

I'm thinking of you hun and hoping that things get easier soon :hug: It's great news about your milk hun.

Loula - thinking of you and William. A friend recently had a baby at Jessie Mac and they needed to leave him in hospital when she went home. It was hard, but they got through it and their little man came home about 10 days after birth and they're all doing well. You guys will pull through too :hug:

Then, when this is over, you can lay some slapdown on the idiots that haven't been looking after you.

Oh Loula :hug: just saw this thread today. I'll be thinking of you and William and sending lots of *get well* vibes his way! Now don't you worry about not feeling in control and all that... it's your hormones talking! MAssive hormonal shifts are going on right now and leaves even the best of us feeling like total wreaks by day three (post birth). I'm so happy for you about your milk supply and that William feeds like a machine LOL when he is alert! That is such a positive! I really think the main thing now is for you to rest and eat because when it comes time to take William home doing those things might not be so straight-forward ;) I can't wait to update your avvy and put William in your arms.... until then know that we are all thinking of you here in BB as you and William's own personal cheersquad! :bluecheer:

Lou, can I just start with a huge congratulations on the arrival of your much wanted miracle.

I just wanted to leave some hope with you. Samwys passed meconium inutero aswell. I thinkfully had a much more alert MW who the moment she noticed the staining in the waters broke them to try and evacuate the meco and was extremely attentive to Samwys and his APGAR tests when he was born. He unfortuantely had aspirated some meco and it damaged his lung tissue causing his right lung to collapse. He spent some time in NICU in a pure oxygen tank with more tubes and iv's than I care to remember.

He is turning 8 in January. Absolute ox that boy! Strong muscle built buddy. He is so healthy you would never ever pick his poor start.

I know it is so hard to watch now, but it is transient. Once its all taken care of, its gone. Take care of your little man, and yes, talk to him, hold his little hand. Spend every minute you can with him. Babies need their mummies. We comfort them and give them strength.

Thinking of you all!

Congrats on the pumping efforts, Lou. I hope little William's recovery is quick. :hug:

Sometimes we speak too soon lol cause if I don't laugh I don't know what I will do. (I wouldn't have said that an hr ago) but William is now off all extra fluid other than a bottle top up after me feeding. And his blood work is finally going in the right direction no one can take my happiness of that feeling away from me now. The other stuff merh!

Yay, good work mum!

Wow, fantastic efforts William and of course mumma!!! Go Loula's milk lol!!! Good stuff guys, so happy to read this.

:hug: Keep up the good work!!!

Yippee!!!! So glad to hear that you are on top of the world, as you should be! Gotta love those happy hormones hey, they just need to be allowed to do their job :D You're doing so fabulously well Lou :hug:

wonderful news hun xx

fantastic news Lou!

That's great Hun!!!

Awesome news lou!!! You gotta love the awesome power of mummy's milk!!

Yayy for William and your breastmilk, you can deal with everything else later now that he is getting stronger.

Well done to you and William hun. You are both doing a fantastic job, and I'm so glad you are seeing better results already :hug:

Fabulous news Lou, I have only just caught up on this thread, I am so sorry for the experience that you have had :hug:

I hope your little man is in your arms very soon, thinking of you and having been on the rollercoaster before I can completely understand what you are going through :comfort:
Take care and thinking of you and your precious little man xxoo

Lou, firstly I just want to send a big congratulations that your baby boy is finally here. :leap:

I've been away since Wednesday so have only just caught up on all your news. I am shocked at the rollercoaster you have been on since William's arrival and particularly all the crap from staff you have had to put up with.

I am so happy that you have been able to feed him and he seems to be improving. At the end of the day, that's the most important thing. Looking forward to more positive updates and for him to be home soon with his mummy and daddy where he belongs :D

Oh how cool to read that things are getting so much better.
Yay, yay, yay.
:hug:

Another woohoo for Will! He is now on demand feeds and we are both loving it

:leap: Oh WOW!! That is a massive step forward!!! :hug:

Oh that is so fantastic Lou, I have tears in my eyes!!!!! Do you know when he will be able to go home with you?