My scar says ..... 'Hey fat lardy stomach quit leaning all over me!' ;)
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My scar says ..... 'Hey fat lardy stomach quit leaning all over me!' ;)
Mine is pretty much invisible - you have to look for it to see it and most of the time I don't notice it or think about it.
So it doesn't say anything much. I didn't fail. The system didn't fail. My gorgeous baby was born safely without serious injury to himself or to me.
Six years ago my scar was bitter sweet, disappointing but essential, I felt glad and blessed I was smart enough to listen to my body and my baby and know that was her safe way out.
Two years ago they cut that scar out and both my girls now share one scar
I love that they share it.
Between my two girls I had major surgery making VBAC impossible medically impossible so my scars remind me there is a purpose for c-sections and my two beautiful girls are proof of that.
I am about to meet my next OB who is supposedly a CS master so expect a very pretty scar in 8 months.
my scar says,
inspite of planning for a home water birth,
inspite of labouring for 29 hours in the pool, inspite of trying so hard to deliver naturally, at home,
Bandl's Ring happened to my uterus during labour,
and it cannot be diagnosed or acted on, without a c-section,
so the decision to do an emergency c-section (in a hospital with bright lights, many complete strangers, with "lost" hospital records, without my midwife who flew interstate on the day),
made it possible for the medical people to realise Bandl's Ring was occurring,
and to do the things they had to do to react immed and save both our lives.
It was very traumatic, painful,
made recovery take many many months,
it was not easy being an invalid, when you need to look after your nb simultaneously
i could not even stand up long enough to bathe my own child, for the first year.
But she is alive, and i am alive.
i still cannot bring myself to look at the scar (six years later).
i had one chance to get it right, and i blew it.
Some people said to me after "what did you expect, you left it too late". like i CHOSE to have my one and only child, at that age.