This time Im doing it. Really.

thinking of you hon.

just seeing how you're doing hun xx

Hoping today has been a good start to the week for you :hug:

Mm im alive. Today was a little better.
I was supposed to get a phonecall from the counsellor at the old refuge. She didnt call. Im feeling very alone and abandoned. That is 3 people in one week from the same organisation who have promised to call and havent. It has just solidified in my mind that I cant trust anyone to be there when I need them. So stupid. I actually thought they gave a ****.

No advice but I'm sending hugs. You are in my thoughts xo

Thinking of you hun, I'm sorry you're been left feeling so alone and unsupported xx

:hug: Give it another try tomorrow. They may've had something urgent come up x

If you want someone to talk to, PM me here and I can PM you my mobile number and email address.. I will always happily answer emails and phone calls (though lemme know it's you that calls first) xxx

We're here. I'm here. You know I'm always up at stupid hours boobin' the little guy. I might not have anything intelligent to say but I promise to be supportive, and witty of course :)

I'm sorry it's been crap for you lately. I wish I lived closer so I could keep you company.

Thanks girls.
I spoke to one of the ladies from R1 (refuge number 1 lol) today. She said that my case worker has had the last couple of days off and the counsellor was away yesterday. So feeling ok now. I was trying to tell myself they were just busy but my irational brain wouldnt let me believe it. I asked about how the phone system works (I ring and they get an email to call me) so I'm ok with that now and sussed out the email situation. So now that I know what im doing I'm ok. Its the unknown that sets off my anxiety. I was scared to call because I didnt know what to expect.

Was she any help?

Glad they've put your mind at ease. Even if only a little bit.

Are things improving where you are at all?

A little. Last couple of days have been better. I think im getting use to the state of the place and the staff. Still feeling constantly anxious and nauseas. Managed a shower this morning.

I have an appointment with a solicitor this morning. Very nervous but Im sure it will go fine.

She was checking that the new refuge are doing everything they should be - housing dept forms, legal aid stuff etc. Shes so lovely. I really miss seeing them. Its nice to still be able to talk to them but its just not the same as being with them.

It doesnt help that DD has been teething. I think it may have popped through overnight though as she is much happier this morning and I can feel something scratching my boob while feeding. :)

Good luck this morning with the solicitor. If you get a chance, let us know how you go :hug:

I can't believe your dd is teething already - time is flying past so quickly! It only feels like a few weeks since she was born! How's your ds going?

It was just a few weeks lol shes 13weeks now. Way too little to be teething :(

Hes ok. Hes still asking to go "home" and if xx (friends or staff from R1) is coming here too. He has regressed a lot in toilet training. Having lots of accidents during the day and last night was the first night in a week he hasnt wet the bed. Behaviour.. is getting better. Lol he is being very difficult and defiant. At least im managing to stay calmish now.

Really proud of you

Thanks hun. Meeting with the solicitor went well. I wont say more in case theres spies :ninja: haha but she was very helpful. :)

Good news about the solicitor. You're being so strong.