Hi everyone,
Mummy2chloe and JBM thanks for your support.
Only 4 more sleeps now till my blood test, though my period is actually due in 2 days. The bloating continued to subside (I lost 500grams each day for 4 days in a row but then didn't have access to a scale to check after that). By last Wednesday I felt more normal but then I also felt kinda empty and that made me feel a bit depressed (like I know the embryos are gone)... I'm hoping it was just that the bloating had subsided and I am pregnant.
It was nice to enjoy warmer weather in Qld but then more stress when I returned home and found lots of problems - like a friend who had kindly fed my horses while I was away has caused problems between me and a neighbour as she climbed through their fence and wrecked it and they now want me to move my horses out (they had let me borrow their paddock as my place has no grass to speak of at the moment). I'm very upset about it (as are my neighbours as they only had the new fence built 6 months ago at a cost of $2000). I just hope I can atleast repair the friendship with my neighbours because living in the country you really do need to stay on your neighours good side.
I also had a run in with my immediate boss yesterday and I am so over working there... my contract expires at the end of the year and I'm hoping I'm pregnant because then I will just take some time out until the bub is born rather than try to find a new job for just a few months. If I'm not pregnant and have to wait to try again with the frozen embryos then it will be more difficult to justify to myself not working for a while next year. I currently teach at TAFE (0.5 position so 2 and a half days a week) and the course I teach is supposedly under review as possibly closing down as it doesn't generate enough profit. I have been fighting hard on behalf of my students to ensure they are all given every chance to finish their studies (as most study part-time they aren't due to finish until 2013 and I don't think it's fair if the course closes and they can't finish what they started - no other TAFE in Victoria offers the course in the flexible delievery style that we do so my students would be unable to successfully complete it with any of the 3 other institutes.) My students are the most amazing group of people - mostly mature aged women who juggle jobs and families and study and are so very supportive of each other and I have really enjoyed being their teacher for the past 2 and a bit years.
One of my students knows I'm going through IVF (she had her daughter through it) and she has been a great support to me as well.
But my managers have no comprehension of the human side of it... or the lengths so many of these women have gone to in order to study (many travel between 4 and 7 hours return to attend our weekend workshops), some have health issues, many have struggled against amazing odds to get to where they are (including 1 losing her husband in an acccident when her sons were only 2 and 4 years old) and yet they want to complete their qualifications and realise their dreams. I find them inspiring but the managers are just crushing me and I know I need to get out soon before I have nothing left to give my students.
So crashing back to earth on Saturday wasn't so nice. I'm back off to Brisbane today for a conference which work have reluctantly agreed to because it is part of our accreditation that a teacher of our course (I am the only one) must attend this conference or the course will lose it's accreditation. Not that I want to go as it is always so boring... but atleast it will be nice to get out of the cold and also to talk to others in my field who can relate to my concerns for my students. I get back late Tuesday night and then my period is due Wednesday... so fingers crossed I don't get it!
How is everyone else doing?
Lori

