Anyone here 42 and over -and successful ??

Just had to make the big """200""" post hahaha...see im actually smiling, and it feels great!Im throwing all my positive vibes around.....grab them quick!!

yes i will grab some thanks ,i dont know what my chart is doing AF is due wednesday.

Hi everyone, MrsK I'm really sorry that you have lost your beautiful miracle baby. Both yourself and your husband have done nothing worry, so please don't blame yourselves. Coping is very difficult, I would recommend that you both see a counsellor and let yourself grieve. I had one child after my 3 MC and she was 10 years old at the time, I really felt that there was no way that I was going to have another successful preg and the devastation I felt was huge. There seemed to be preg women/ new babies everywhere, I would find myself crying in shopping centres, judgeing peoples worthiness of motherhood and feeling guilty at the same time. I talked to lots of people and got a lot of responses that really hurt me. It really seems to be a taboo subject talking about preg before 12 weeks you just don't do it. The best thing I have ever done is jump on here, I wish I had done it earlier, you get to say things that the outside world does'nt want to hear or just does'nt understand. It is early days and I don't want to hurt you, but is it worth putting your name back on the IVF list who knows how long it may take before your turn comes along. Amongst my grieveing the desire to become preg again was huge. Please take care of yourself. Loads of :hugs:Pam.

Hi everyone, I have been offline for 2 days with the wild weather we have been having we have had no power. I jumped on late last night had nearly finished my catch-up and promptly got booted offline, so here is my essay again,shortend just a little.
Chelle great news!!! I really hope you get some answers. I hope this new doc is right about my hormone levels, it nearly sounds to good to be true although I have for a while now wondered and asked loads of ? about it myself. Could this be a problem for you now?
Satya, nice to hear from you and good luck, it is really amazing that when help comes your way how positive it makes you feel. This is the time when you will get preg, relaxed not watching and reading something into everything.
Betty good luck I hope af does'nt turn up on Wednesday and your sore throat is'nt a cold starting. I am so freaked out about getting sick these days I will go to amazing lengths to avoid it, so please don't sneeze on me.:lol:
Lissie I'm more excited about your cycle than my own. I hope your US shows you 4 eggies at least. Time seems to be going in slow motion, I'm finding it hard to wait for the next installment.
Thanks Jen positive stories always most welcome.
Jo you are a wealth of information it always amazing me. I was temping charting for 6 months and it was stressing me to the max, when I stopped and just watched my cycle I fell prg next cycle. At least lap will show if endo is back, if you make it:bluedust:

I had my US on Wednesday and I knew I was going to O beforehand it was really hard missing a cycle and I had really good CM I actually had a little cry* the opportunity wasted thing*. But it is best to wait and get the help and I hope Mac doc is right. US was good showed I released at 1 eggie maybe 2. Lining was 7.5mm thick and from another angle 13mm not sure about the discrepency, but the operator said it was good. Then it was of for the HyCoSy, I really had myself worked up about it, some of the stories I read the girls had compared it to labour, worst pain they had ever felt etc. So DH was forced to take a day off work to hold my hand, as it turns out he was'nt even allowed to be there. I asked the doc's nursing staff heaps of ? got given tissues ready for a big cry and for me it turned out to be uncomfortable a bit pap smearish and a couple of seconds of pain when he injected to much dye at once. Everything is good no blocked tubes, uterus nice smooth triangle, so nothing standing in the way there. So off to see Mac on Monday for DH :sperm:results and the next move, which should be them taking my cycle over the following Monday or thereabouts. DH is secretly worried it is him now, he made some comment about swimming backwards, but I'm sure his results will be good and he will be back to feeling studley in no time. What is a good result? So needless to say I am starting to feel excited, but I am also worried it is toooo good to be true. If you got a bad result from the tests at least you would have a reason. Anyway have to go serves me right for jumping on now little miss 2 has just helped herself to weetbix and they are everywhere and master 3 has no idea how she got them. See ya Pam.

Oh Pam , that all sounds very positive....I was thinking about what you said, maybe I do have a hormone problem...something I should mention...Ah delightful children!I too had my cry(well loads of tears) round the O time, missed opportunity and all that, but next month maybe....have to be in the right frame of mind to handle everything that comes with TTC, and I felt I wasnt there just yet.....
Lissie, how you doing, good luck for today!!!
Off to do the papers with my girls!!
luv to everyone

Mrs K- I'm still avoiding the baby aisle after 6 m/c, the first m/c was triplets and they died one by one over a week. I thought I'd be OK and then had another m/c. Then 3 kids - then 4 more m/c over the last 3 years and I am doubting I will ever get there now. My DH doesn't doubt at all but we will be successful and I am clinging to hope because what else is there?

I'm revising the sometimes angry feelings I have had for DH as he has been so calm and positive through all this while I'm disintegrating. He is holding me up and supporting me a lot of the time. I was shocked when he didn't help me as I was haemaorrhaging last year after one particularly bad m/c but he has been excellent since Jan this year.

I feel like screaming when I hear pg women complain and be unhappy with their pg, it hurts so much as I'd give anything to be in their shoes.Hopefully I'll still be a walking miracle but part of me is just hoping to accept that this may be it and get over it somehow but I'm not a quitter so keep ttc. I feel so powerless, m/c are totally beyond your control and my poor body is just not cooperating... As a funny irony, I should avoid all threads on forums DUE 1995, 1996, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007. The due date for my last m/c is next week.

I'm supposed to be O but temps are not going down and there is no CM, I'm as dry as can be and BD hurts. May also be a hormone problem? I hope there is something that can be fixed.

Great that you are getting a lap, Satya. Mine is 19th July. Chelle- hope the clinic can help you SOON.Pam, you sound in great shape.

Hi :hello:
Satya - good to hear from you i was wondering where you were - good luck with the up coming lap - and your ivf journey.
Pam - glad to hear everything sounds so positive for you.
Chelle - i grabbed a few of those positive vibes you sent out - thanks!
Jo- your hubby sounds great - you are a strong lady - its gonna work you know.
Jen - thanks for the inspirational stories - they really do help heaps - lifts you up a little.
Betty - i have never done a chart as always ivf (no choice) i would not even know where to start - good luck with it betty .
Me - feeling really very down - haven't stop crying all day. Boss rang and gave me the day off. Went for BT and ultrasound this morning and really disappointed with my results. At this stage i only have 3 viable follies to work with they are 22, 17 and 15mm each theres another 3 at 12mm and the rest rang from 8-10mm. Well they should be around 18mm is best for mature egg - so not looking to good, as not every follicle will hold and egg so i may only get 1 or 3 or none. One more night of injections, then trigger shot on Sat evening then egg pick up mondays morning 9-930am. I just can't stop the tears today, anyway i guess im counting my chickens before they hatch so to speak and should just wait and see what happens on Monday - just starting to feel i will never be a mum and that just kills me. Sending you all so much luck and :bluedust:

Oh Lissie :hugs: I am still feeling very positive for you- even healthy young women have poor IVF results initially and go on to have success.

Sometimes I think I know too much, the obsession just takes over and my mood varies depending on the temp chart or saliva test...

A lot can still change over the w/end..:pray:
Jo

O lissie, sending all the luck and positive baby vibes right back at you sweetie!!! You are doing so well! You will have and hold a baby! I just know it. Prayers are for YOU and your precious follies...grow little ones grow!! hugs to you

:hugs:Lissie I feel really sad for you, I will have everything crossed for you tonight and I hope your egg pick on Monday goes well. I'II be hoping that you get as many as possible. Thinking of you hugs and best wishes. Pam.

:hello: girls,
Thanks for the support - i really need it now. Headspace still not so good but feeling a little stronger today but still breaking down in tears at stupid things, must be all the hormones in me right now i don't know - all i know is a want a baby (family) more than anything, but i am telling myself at the same time that i will not die if my dreams don't come true and i have a wonderful husband which is something alot of people don't have. I am grateful for everything i have but a baby would be such a bonus. Trying to keep positive but finding it such a struggle this time - anyhow off to hospital tomorrow morning should have egg p/u around 10am so will let you all know how it goes.
Hope you are all well - i know im not much help to any of you right now - and i am truly sorry for that. Talk tomorrow.

good luck for tomorrow lassie. tested yesterday bfn ,might test again tomorrow.
pam what day of your cycle did you get your scan on your lining, mine was day 22 and mine was 5mm bit thin.

Hi Lissie - I hope everything goes perfectly for you tomorrow.

Hi girls, hope evryones doing well today!!!
Betty my US was day 12 approx 2 days post O, just remember that every day your lining thins so is yours was a week post O its probablly not bad. See ya later today for Lissie's result.:goodluck::grouphug:

Hi Girls:hello:,
Feeling much more positive - got 5 eggies :clap:- Doc said that was great and that for my age its looking good he even said he thought my ovaries where like that of a young woman - i said " I'm still young what are you talking about!" He is such a lovely man - best egg pick up i have ever had not too painful only this time the local hurt the most but he put it up as far as he could go and spent ages putting little holes in me with local - seemed to do the trick , although now i am really feeling it - tummy pretty tender and sore okay if i don't stand up straight and walk around - will know tomorrow about fertilization results, lab says 3 eggs look nice and mature and of good quality the other two are so so , but they where going to give the so so ones a few more hours before icsi to see if they improve ( did not know that was possible). So hopeing and praying that at least 3 do well now - if i only have a couple left they will transfer on day 3 however if i have more than two they see if they can make to day 5/blastie and then transfer. I am starting to get a little excited but don't want to - you guys know what i mean. Anyway just wanted to say thanks for the well wishes - you girls are so great - full of hope and inspiration just when you need it - sorry to be such a downer the last few days - hey but i guess we all have turns at that!
Anyway so how is everyone doing?
Betty sorry about bfn - did you test again?
MrsK - how are you feeling today - still pretty raw i imagine - thinking of you.
Jo - you where right - things did change over the weekend - thanks for being sooo positive.
Satya, Pam & Chelle hi and thanks for the positive thoughts.
This is such a great group of woman:grouphug: & :bluedust:

lissie wow what a journey for you very exciting, i will be praying for you.

Congratulations:clap::dance:All that worry and what a good result, sounds like you may have some snowbubs waiting for your second bubby. We'll keep on with the positive thoughts seeing as they are working so well. Be excited it sounds very hopefull, I'm assuming BINL count was good. This is your month I'm sure:pray::happyforyou::bluedust:Hugs from me.