Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception Nov-Dec 2012

Thanks KBudgie :)

One of my friends was LTTTC and is pregnant with a 'miracle' baby--- and is due April 2013, when I would have been due with my first miscarriage.
I have tried to explain my feelings to her-- but she didn't want to hear it.
Thinks that if you 'want' it enough, it will happen.
It's great that she got her happy ending, but some of us are still waiting-- and it's a little bit fresh for me still.
I feel like I can't open up to these pregnant friends, especially those with such pity in there faces.
I know it's hard for people to understand LTTTC, AC and MC........
Feeling very isolated IRL.

I hate the pity too Emma. I hate the asking how things are going too. They ask in such a way that its got a double meaning. I wish people would just ask if I want them to ask me stuff or want to talk about it - that shows they really care about my headspace rather than being curious about my journey for themselves.

I text my mum yesterday to cancel dinner last night. Then she called me last night and asked me what's wrong. I was silent and then said I didn't want to talk about it so she said "bad news?" I forcefully said "yes mum that's why I text you" and she just said "oh okay okay. See you tomorrow." And hung up. Not even a "so sorry". Hmpf. I know she doesn't know how to respond and I know she doesn't know how I will react and she is sad too. But the over interest and then lack if involvement at the crunch time sucks.

I guess I'm lucky most of my pregnant friends I don't see often and only have to deal with Facebook updates. Those that do know are usually pretty understanding. But mostly I do suck it up and put on a brave face. I want to skip Christmas this year. It will be the first time I see my sister in law looking pregnant. She was due a month before me.

:goodluck: Thursday 20th December 2012 :goodluck:


Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Myturn - taking a break
Blossom - taking a break until Feb/Mar
Rosemarry006 - ???
Emerald Star - ???
Wishanddream - CD10
Emma - CD11
Jo_white - CD11
Sarah4Kurt - CD12
Beau30 - CD14
Juniper - CD14
Nic - CD22
Faye* - CD24
Me4ever - CD30
Treenie86 - CD33


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-8)
Rai - CD14 2dpo
N2L - CD38 10dp5dt
Kerbear - CD55 14dp2dt
Curtysgirl - CD33 21dpo ?????


Got Their BFP in December :confetti:
kbudgie - 6/12: +beta!!
Miloro - 14/12: hcg 218 @14dpo!!

Im out officially. Bfn on BT today. Taking a break for a while to recoup. But will drop in and be stalking you all.

thankyou for all your support. It is appreciated immensely.

Still keen to have a Melbourne meet up in January if anyone is interested SE Melbourne somewhere perhaps??

I'm so sorry Myturn :( TTC sucks :( Sending you big hugs...

AFm looks like I'll be day 1 tomorrow, was still hopeful today, had been feeling a bit nauseous, who knows what that would have been from. :$ Don't know what I'll do now, kinda want to start another FET, but on the other hand don't mind waiting till next month. The only thing is if I do it now that it won't be with acupuncture and would be a bit nervous about that. I have another night to decide... Hope you girls are alright, hugs for you as well!

I am so sorry too myturn. This journey we have to take definitely sux!

Emma - I definitely feel the same way as you about pregnant friends and Xmas. My husbands cousin has just announced she's pregnant so that's gonna be the talk of the day. I'm actually worried ill burst into tears as have done that a few times lately when people have asked me about how everything is going. That's actually why we aren't telling anyone we are doing another fet now.

Me4ever - I started going to the same accupuncture place as you about 6 weeks ago. They are going to open for a few sessions from the 2nd so you may be in luck. Give them a call & discuss it. I have had 2 sessions prior to transfer but won't have one transfer day.

Off for bt & scan now. Fingers crossed this lining of mine has got to the right thickness today and then I can have a date for transfer.

Have a great Friday everyone

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Im out officially. Bfn on BT today. Taking a break for a while to recoup. But will drop in and be stalking you all.

thankyou for all your support. It is appreciated immensely.

Still keen to have a Melbourne meet up in January if anyone is interested SE Melbourne somewhere perhaps??

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Sorry to hear myturn...

:goodluck: Friday 21st December 2012 :goodluck:


Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Myturn - taking a break
Blossom - taking a break until Feb/Mar
Rosemarry006 - ???
Emerald Star - ???
Me4ever - CD1
N2L - CD2
Wishanddream - CD11
Emma - CD12
Jo_white - CD12
Sarah4Kurt - CD13
Beau30 - CD15
Juniper - CD15
Nic - CD23
Faye* - CD25
Treenie86 - CD34


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-8)
Rai - CD15 3dpo
Kerbear - CD56 15dp2dt
Curtysgirl - CD34 22dpo ?????


Got Their BFP in December :confetti:
kbudgie - 6/12: +beta!!
Miloro - 14/12: hcg 218 @14dpo!!

I'm so sorry, ladies. I was hoping we'd get some Christmas miracles. :grouphug:

Thanks Juniper. You do a great job on the list and I am sure I speak for everyone when I say we really appreciate it.

Can I please be changed to CD2 . I am not sure what I am doing from here (if anything) but I may as well stay on the list for now. I have a review appt with the FS on Jan 17.

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I am not sure what I am doing from here (if anything)

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Ah, you can join me in limbo then... NFI what I'm doing...

Yes, I agree with N2L, thanks for keeping on top of the list Juniper! Great job.

I'm day 1 today, don't mind if it gets changed on the list tomorrow! Decided not to go with a cycle this month, thanks for the reply Beau! X-mas and New year's and having my parents here at the moment is already stressful enough ;)

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Ah, you can join me in limbo then... NFI what I'm doing...

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Me three :)

but I'm feeling okay today so that's a good thing I guess xox

I am so sorry n2l.

Juniper I agree with the other girls - you do an amazing job with the list. Thanks

Well finally I got to take my trigger this afternoon & transfer will be Thursday! My lining was 8 so they were happy with that. My body listened to me & held off over Xmas but now it needs to listen to me & turn the snow baby into a BFP.

Juniper I agree with all you do a great job and are on top of the list every day, I know we all appreciate it.

Beau yay for your body listening and I hope you get your bfp, good luck with transfer xo

Beau, GL on Thursday! Glad to hear your body cooperated!

Kerbear, keeping my FX for you on Monday. :goodluck:

Thanks ladies for your encouragement. I'm such a perfectionist, so I don't always feel like I'm on top of it, so it's good to know I'm meeting the group's expectations.

So, I got an almost +opk late last night (but digi was negative) and a slightly darker opk today (didn't use another digi), so expecting to O tomorrow morning. Problem with that is that AF is then due 5 January, which is the anniversary of finding out about our mm/c (OB appt was 5 Jan, d&c was 9 Jan). The EDD from that mm/c also ended up being CD1 back in July. AF has a wicked sense of humour...

:goodluck: Saturday 22nd December 2012 :goodluck:


Waiting for EPU/O/IUI/FET or just something to happen!
Myturn - taking a break
Blossom - taking a break until Feb/Mar
Rosemarry006 - ???
Emerald Star - ???
Me4ever - CD2
N2L - CD3
Wishanddream - CD12
Emma - CD13
Jo_white - CD13
Sarah4Kurt - CD14
Beau30 - CD16
Juniper - CD16
Nic - CD24
Faye* - CD26
Treenie86 - CD35


Waiting for Transfer


Hanging out in the TWW (Stalk them here....https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ek-Wait-2012-8)
Rai - CD16 4dpo
Kerbear - CD57 16dp2dt
Curtysgirl - CD35 23dpo ?????


Got Their BFP in December :confetti:
kbudgie - 6/12: +beta!!
Miloro - 14/12: hcg 218 @14dpo!!

Starting ivf treatment in less than a month! Im not sure how to feel about it.people that i have told say to me," you must be excited." and i say yes but i am also weiry and they hav this disappointed look on their face.i guess they just dont understand unless they have been in our shoes.