Ahhh Blue Im sorry! I definately understand. If you need anything please email me cnkaeser@hotmail.com
Cazz
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Ahhh Blue Im sorry! I definately understand. If you need anything please email me cnkaeser@hotmail.com
Cazz
Blue & Cazz, sorry it isn't your month, maybe we can make it a double whammy next time! Rest up.
Racheal, good luck on your testing, will keep an eye out for your results.
Sue, hope you get lots of info together for your appointment & feel good about it. And hope there are lots of guys out there donating.
Amanda, will definately be keeping an eye out for more of your poem. It is soooo hard emotionally that I think it helps to see it out on paper & relate to it.
Humphrey, glad MIL is gone, time to get down to the serious baby making/cooking.
Keen & Ali, cheers to a new start again, hope for success.
Had my Oestrogen shot today, have to have another tomorrow, have to go to the clinic to get them done so bit of a pain on Fathers Day but am going to make a family picnic out of it for DH. Nurse sat with me & we went through my results so far explaining benefit/reason for HRT FET. Feel a bit more knowledgeable now. ET will probably be Monday week
Take care & hope everyone's weekends are enjoyable.
Blue - I was so sad to hear your news, you must be feeling so cheated. :grouphug:
Good to hear you're giving it another go Sue - don't let it beat you!
Zap - good luck with the testing. I know how you feel, I'm a sucker for the early POAS.
Had another U/S and BT. Gee, you think they could at least heat that gel for me on a cold Saturday morning. My lining is good (9mm) and oestrogen levels good. Another BT tomorrow and hopefully the last. We're going to be pretty close together Tam!
Hope everyone one else is enjoying their weekend and give your soon to be fathers a big hug tomorrow.
Tam - why did they say you were on a HRT FET? I've been wondering why I'm on a natural cycle.
Humphrey, was wondering what day embies you have & how many you put back, mine are blasts & will have 1 put back.
Nurse said I am HRT FET because my hormone levels have been borderline throughout all my previous attempts. Though my lining is ok, 8mm, my oestrogen is low and then in my leuteal phase my levels have been a bit iffy as well (I had to have both oestrogen & projesterone support for a few cycles), so I guess it's a case of taking total charge of every aspect.
So I need a second oestrogen booster tomorrow & then BT & scan on Monday to see how it's all going.
And to think I felt like I was doing nothing!!!!! Not now, lol.
hi all i did the test last night :bfn:
I did the test again this morning :bfn:
The :af: must be on her way this tue or wed.
Oh well back to the drawing board.
Take Care
Racheal
Don't forget, they've been known to be wrong before.
Hang in there Racheal.
Sue
Hi and thanks everyone for your thoughts and support. Sue - I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to upset you. (Although I also get teary when I hear bad news on this forum so I understand!). I loved your reaction though - it summed it up beautifully!! (tee hee!) I think I'm okay with it? I've had my cry. I was holding out for a miracle but I think the chances are very slim. But, who knows. Maybe some work experience kid mucked up the test... Anyway, its all a learning process. Next time I'll be more prepared.
Has anyone heard from Trish? I miss you sweetie and hope you're taking care of yourself.
Rach - dont give up hope sweetie. Its only early days yet. Nasty sticks are known to be wrong!
Good luck Tam and Humph!! I'm so excited for you!
have a pleasant valley sunday all,
love
Blue
Blue, sorry to upset ME? You're a wally.
So, where to from here (after you do the mourn/storm thing properly)?
Sue
He he Sue - yes, I should be more sensitive! Where to? The IVF dr said to have another BT on Wednesday but I have a path referral slip thing from my GP - I might go have a BT tomorrow. (Whats another needle?) I still have more embies in the freezer so next cycle will likely be another HRT FET. Was thinking of taking a few months off to a) give the old body a rest from all the drugs; b) lose a bit of weight; c) concentrate on school; d) give the bank balance a rest.. but I might be better off financially (given I've already gone over the medicare threshold) to keep trying? Just thoughts. I guess health of mind body and spirit are more important than the financial side. But I havent discussed it with DH yet. But am sure that he'll say to do what I think is best and support whatever I decide.
Thats enough about me. Are you back at work yet? Hope you're taking it easy anyway.
Cheers
blue
Blue, it's hard to know which way to jump, I know. Hey, maybe there's still a chance?
I'm a big believer in peace of mind being the most valuable thing you can have. Also in giving the body a rest not to mention your emotions. But, emotionally, you'll still be "trying" naturally anyway!!! Whether you know it or not. Summer's always a good incentive to lose weight, I found out my swimmers talk the other day. They said "you've got the body of a 43 year old". Ouch. I don't know how old you are but I can tell you, I used to be a rake. Hit 35 and I got hips. But, at least I got bbs too. Hit 40 and everything started to head south. Now I'm starting to get bye bye arms. You know the ones, you wave and after you stop, the underneath part of your arms are still waving bye bye. School, I am lost there??? Money, don't rush into anything for that reason if you don't feel right in your mind/body/heart about it. Mind you, I used to have gaps of a year - that's tooooooo long. You're lucky you've got frosties. For some women, those cycles are more successful because they're bodies aren't pumped full of drugs. How knows? There's no rhyme or reason to it - I know that much.
Me, yep, back at work tomorrow. Will be good to get back into the "real" world and put things into perspective. Had a lovely Father's Day, cooked for my parents. It was raining here on the CC - the BBQ idea had to be canned. Then I did 2 hours ironing with Norah J, Eva C and Madeleine P. Blaring music with good words - fantastic therapy.
Oooops - that's a bit long - sorry folks.
Take care Blue and give yourself time to catch up with yourself.
Sue
Sue - My bathers/swimmers talk too. They say, "get away from me fatty - you're not fitting in here!!" hehehehe
I know what you mean about getting a sense of normality at work. One reason I havent told anyone at work about my IVF is that I wanted a place to not have to deal with it. Sorry - I've not expressed myself properly, I hope you get what I mean. About school - I'm studying at uni part time. I get lost there too!! tee hee
Glad you had a nice day with your folks - pitty its a rotten day where you are. A pitty about the ironing too - I hate ironing!!
Thanks for your advice. I'll meditate/sleep/think on it.
Speaking of work, I'd best go get my stuff ready!!
take care,
blue
xx
Blue - I'm so sorry, I guess your BB name sums up how you must be feeling at the moment. Life is just so cruel sometimes. I'm thinking of you & praying for it to have just been some kind of lab error xxxxxxxx
I'm still waiting on AF, studpid Bl%&y witch, just when I want her to show up on time she keeps me waiting.....................
Hope everyone else has had a lovely weekend.
Love
Ali xxxxxxxx
Grr.... ovaries are not coming to the party so it's another BT tomorrow. At my initial appointment I remember the nurse saying "you'd be very unlucky to have 4 BT before they pick O". Good ol' unlucky me!
Tam - I only have one embie left (blast) so if it survives the thaw, it's on it's own. It is 2 years old now so there's a good chance I won't even make it to transfer. But if I do and it sticks, it will be my DS fraternal bro/sis - cute!
Hi Guys well officially in the TWW. Using pessaries again what fun!! I am doing three weeks of night duty so hoping the wierd hours will help me "forget" the TWW (yeh right!!). I had quite significant pain this time after the insemm.
Dr told me if this doesn't work then he's a banana.. have lined up a big monkey to eat him just in case!!
Thanks to all for the well wishes
Blue so sorry about your BT result, still [-o< it was work experience related error!!
Blue,
I'm so sorry to read your news. I hope you're taking it easy on yourself.
love
sushee
Sushee - How are you & precious bub going?
Ali xxxxxxxxx
Ali,
all in all, I think we are both as good as can be expected. I'm a little less neurotic with each passing day, if you can believe that! I knicker-check a little less everyday, and am not as scared of every little twinge. Lol!
I have to admit to feeling very much like I straddle the pg forum and this forum, as I identify still with so much of what you all are going through. The heartache and feelings of 'when will it happen to me?' are still fresh to me, not something I will easily forget, and is something I strongly empathise with.
This does not mean I don't realise how lucky I am and how much I'm enjoying every little thing (even the m/s), but I still feel the kinship with all of you, and pray and hope that 'when will it happen to me?' for all of you will be sooner than you expect.
love
sushee
Here, here, Sushee!
Sushee
I'm so glad it is all going well for you, it's so understandable to be a bit paranoid, after all it's been such a long hard road for you to get to this point.
Don't for one minute feel like you can't jump in with this forum still, as you would understand for previous pg girls, it really gives us hope here.
I'm just sitting around waiting for AF to arrive at mo so I can start another cycle, a clomid, fsh & antagonist cycle, much more like your flare I imagine.
Anyway, take care of yourselves.
Love
Ali xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
That was really such a beautiful post to read Sushee.
I have been for a BT and will get results this arvo to see if the puregon is doing its job and to what extent. Its feeling a bit like a never ending process at the moment. Is that because its down reg (and it took 2 weeks of synarel to be ready for puregon)? Pain in the bum!
hi girls
Well feel a little sorry for myself today. poas again this morning and one again :bfn: so af is on her way and that explains my moods.
I am getting so sick of this month after month when is it going to be my turn??
DH has go away to work this week just as well as i know i am going to be hell on earth to live with.
Every month i talk myself into thinking this is it this is the month but all i find is dissapointment.
Sorry to bring you all down i am just really sad today.
Racheal
Racheal, no probs on the downer, we all are probably thinking the same!
Shez, yah on getting to the TWW, hope to join you soon. Yuk on the pessaries, I got mine today too.
Had BT & scan. Lining is up to 9-10mm so that's fine, just have to wait for BT results to see if E2 is up from having the Primogin shots. Son't really want to have any more if I can help it, it would probably mean having to go back in to the clinic.
Take care
BT results must have been ok (I should start asking for numbers) - anyway, I am to stay on the same dose and go in for my first scan this Thursday. How exciting!
I am so frustrated though because everytime I need something like this, or someone to watch DS while I have something done, DH always has something on at work. Every single time. I feel like I am doing this on my own. As I just said to him - heaven forbid if he has work on the day he needs to give a sperm sample for the IUI. It sucks. May as well do the whole thing on my own. He is being reduced to just a sperm donator at the moment. He says he can't help it, its work, but I end up feeling totally alone and unsupported as a result. Really upset by this, but what can I do?? :(
Babybliss - It can be such a hard time on relationship, can't it. I know exactly how you feel and to be honest I really don't think there is much else you can do other than tell him how you are feeling or maybe go and see one of the IVF counsellors together and you may be able to get your point across a bit better that way.
Sorry I couldn't be of more help, but no that you're not alone in the way you are feeling. You can be sure if the males were going thru what we go thru there would be no IVF babies.
Thinking of you
Ali xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
=D> =D> =D> Yay for my ovaries!!! ET scheduled for Saturday and starting oogy woogy pessaries on Wednesday night - yummo!
Racheal - you are entitled to feel down, it's just not supposed to be this hard!!!!! Feel free to blubber away here - I think we all do at least once a month.
Babybliss - I know exactly how you feel. My DH had the nerve to complain about me making too much noise when I had to get up at 5.45am this morning for another BT. Considering this is the 4th morning I've had to do this and I'm a walking zombie as I'm suffering from a head cold as well - I could have done with a little more support. Now he's happy that ET is Saturday so it doesn't interfere with his work (unlike me who has to take the day off work Sat). But just when I'm fed up with him he does something really nice to give me a break - last night he had to cook his own fathers day dinner as I was stuffed. I dunno what to do - I let him know it when I'm peeved & he sucks up to me for a while. So I guess you need to let it out, otherwise it stews inside and your body doesn't need any more stress.
Miss you Keen and Trish, hope you are both well.
Yay for Humph's ovaries!! Good luck for Saturday!! Am hoping and wishing and praying and rubbing my dog's foot (dont have a rabbit) for you!!
=D> \:D/ =D>
Yah for you Humphrey, for Saturday ET.
blue, you crack me up, I'd have to rub my cats feet.
Kelly, I know the feeling exactly, everything you've said plus more.
And Ali, you're right about there being no IVF babies if men had to do it.
Take care
Sushee, I think it's great you still stick your head in. Don't leave us!!! Glad all is going well for you and hope the ms will ease soon.
Hey Blue, how are you??
I went back to the "real" world today (work).
Got heaps to do here so no time for any other personals atm. Hope you're all well :)
Love
Sue
Hello lovely ladies :wave:
thank you all for your wonderful support the past 1.5 weeks :grouphug:
I have been reading and reading but still trying to catch up where you are all at
I am back - waiting for Ovulation and [-o< my last little snowbub survives the thaw for another FET -day 7 now - bloodtests start Wednesday
also going natural means we can b'd and hoping o from L side where my tube is - b*ugger O was right side last month
Blue- I am so sorry it breaks my heart for your pain.I just don't know what to say -there aren't enough words to comfort you after such good start I hope it is all a mistake too :hug: It is so unfair
Cazz - I am so sorry you still have to wait it out -thinking of you
Humphrey - I so understand how much it is a pain getting up early for round trip to hospital but worth it when we focus on prize ahead
Keen - thinking of you too -love the book idea hope Af comes quick for you so get on with FET
Shez -goodluck now you are in 2ww
Sheree - you are forever an inpsiration -hope Clomid pulls off a miracle for you -a la natural
Ali - goodluck with this antagonist cycle - you are so positive
welcome Amanda -goodluck with AIH -
Ann -how are you going ?
Anney - any news with your cycle ?
Bee - any news with your BT on 2nd ? I have wondered how you were doing -you have been quiet too
Kelly - goodluck with next bloodtest tomorrow
Racheal - don't give up - Melbo had BFN and got a BFP Thinking fo you during this cr*ap time of waiting for news :hug:
Chris - have you popped back in -not long now till your special day and birthday -thinking of you for yesterday & today
Leisa - yay almost starting the trip of a lifetime
Welcome Gillian - hope you don't get too comfy - and IUI is a success for this cycle
Janee - how are you - have you been lurking or away waiting ?
Mel 09 - hope you get answers and your own BFP soon
Ness -how is stimming going - not sure if you posted but how are follicles goinf only a week to go before OPU
Sue - thinking of you and all your decisions to amke and FS to quiz -hope you find out what you need to
Tam - hope E2 comes up nicely and you are ready for FET
Nola - are you joining us soon ? you msut be starting soon
Angelique - have you found us in here yet ?
Angel thanks for updating us all - you are a true angel
if I missed anyone I am sorry but I will be back later to catch up more
Shazz, Mel, Shell , Sushee and of course Tiff, Jo, Amy,Tam & Gabby- hi and thinking of you all and your precious bubs
there a has been a great run of success hope it keeps on rolling -
BRING IT ON
So good to have you back Trish. Hope you're getting along ok.
You're amazing, keeping track of everything like that.
:crossfingers: for you this cycle
Big hug :hug:
Love
Sue
Hi Trish!! Good to see you! How are you doing? Your positive attitude is such an inspiration.
Hi Sue - I'm doing okay. I ended up doing the BT today and the numbers have fallen even further (40) so I guess I'll be hanging around in here for a little while longer - if you'll have me! 8-[
How was work? Hope it wasn't too taxing on you!
I'll be rubbing my dogs feet for everyone!!
love
blue
:bluestick: :bluestick:
Sorry Blue, I was really hoping they'd stuffed up with their results.
Work, yep, a good distraction I suppose. Hmmmm.
Yep, hang around, we may be able to cycle together again!!! I'll be armed with more info thanks to the girls in here. Will go in there on Thursday with my little list and see what happens! Just have to get the pronunciations right... Lucky I don't have to say proggynova.
Love
Sue
Me too Sue. Had a picture in my mind of the boss yelling at some pimply little nerdy high school work experience kid... Oh well. I think I knew in my heart what the result was going to be, I just didn't want to give up.
LoL - you just want to say it though dont you - proggynova!! tee hee
cheers
blue
hiya baby amore and all the ladies out there
Well not long now until i pop that first provera tablet.. I am getting very anxious.. it almost feels like a tide coming in a rising higher. The closer i get to starting the IVF the more anxious I am getting.. I couldn't sleep last night, IVF dreams and the fact that my 'restless leg syndrome' is so out of control with my anxiety.
I had the weirdest dream.. I was sitting in the day surgery of Sydney IVF and all the other ladies in there were all succesful in their pregnancies and they were all wearing wedding dresses #-o I hadn't been succesful.. so get this.. this is where it gets really weird... my IVF doctor stitched the embryo into my womb to make it stick????? I think i seriously need my head read???
My husband who works in sydney, rang today to say that he had picked up the 'baby juice' ... the lucrin ampules... oh i had to have a laugh.. no matter how nervous i am he still tries to make me laugh God Bless him...
Good luck ladies and Angelique .. any news ... I am dying to know???
Baby dust all round..
Love Firemansgirl (Leisa)
Trish - So glad to have you back on deck. May this precious little snowbub make all your dreams come true, god knows you deserve it! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxx
Blue- I'm so sooooo sorry. Take care of yourself xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Can't believe the stupid witch still hasn't flown in.......what's the go? Has anyone else had a long cycle after a stim cycle?
Ali xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hiya ali
2 of my girlfriends had long cycles after stim.. 35 and 40? I guess your bits go through alot and they are trying to sort themselves out???
Leis x
Hi Leis
Thanks for that info.......... you know what the worst thing is, when I have mentioned it to a couple of people they are like "Maybe you're pregnant". Not matter how many times I've told them that there is absolutely no chance for us naturally, they just can't seem to get it thru their thick skulls.
Sorry for whinge..................
Ali xxxxxxx
Ali, my last cycle was my 'inbetween' IVF & FET and it went an extra 1/2 week, so hopefully you don't have to hold out too much longer.
Trish, you are a superstar poster, good to see you back on again & got through your difficult week.
Looks like there are a few of us in/coming to TWW.
Leisa, what a dream, wait til you actually start, they keep going.
My scan today showed 9-10mm lining and my E2 was up over 3000 so it's all go for Sunday FET, starting pessaries tomorrow in prep for it.
Have organised for my mum to be with DD so DH can come in with me, didn't get to do it last time. Have to try to make it feel like he's done/involved in it somewhere along the track.
Take care
Ali -mine was a week longer (just enough for my hopes to rise) but I had pregnyl injections that could have affected it too. Hope she comes soon. So frustrating when people say things like that. Whinge away we are here for each others gripes.
Blue - you are doing it tough and I am thinking of you - your have such a postive attitude too - remember we are here if you need down time :hug:.
Tam - E2 levels are really good -goodluck how many snowbubs do you have ? Glad your DH is going along.
Leisa I had really crazy dreams too - once that I or my sister had puppies - bit blurry it was so long ago :smt102 anymore.
Another last week included dreaming last week I got BFP - found out by accident looking a computer screen which said 3 DPO - BFP when I was -3 DPO ](*,) . Now I hope it was foretelling my future.
Cute DH Leis - love that name 'Baby juice' .... better for Stims though -have to remember that one
:gossip: Go and look in due in May Belly buddies for Angelique's news