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Hi girls
Keen - How are you going in your 2ww. Are you feeling confident? I'm keeping everything crossed for you xxxxxxxx
I had my trigger at 7.10pm tonight, for pickup on Monday morning. We have to be at the hospital at 7.15am!!!! It actually worked out well though as it is DH and my anniversary tomorrow so we decided we would check into a hotel for the sunday night therefore not needing to get up so early (we live about 1 & 1/2 from city.)
My precious DD has got a chest infection (again). Poor little fing can't stop coughing, she's on antibiotics so I'm hoping it will clear up quickly, it's soooooooooooo horrible when they're sick.
I hope everyone is doing really well and I'll talk to you soon.
Lots of love
Ali xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Ali, I'm sure everything will go well with the EPU. Those early mornings are killers but you've definately found a way to make it better. Hope you enjoy your nice evening together too.
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Happy Anniversary \:D/ Ali & Mr Babytrail :flower:
enjoy your day and goodluck for tomorrow Ali
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Hope everything goes well tomorrow Ali! Good idea about getting the hotel room. And hope your DD feels better soon!
Hi everyone!
Back to books
Cheers,
H
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Hi girls
Good luck with your EPU tomorrow Ali :crossfingers:
Kel, hope to see a :bfp: posted by you tomorrow.
Hope you're all doing well.
Sue
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Ali - not doing too badly for the 2ww. First week has gone by pretty quickly. Am not haing any pg symptoms though this time, no sore bbs, no peeing every ten minutes, etc, etc. Not feeling hugely confident, but doing my damndest to get rid of that negative feeling.
Very exciting about you having your pickup on monday - Bummer though about the time!! But at least you get to stay in a hotel for the night :) . Hope DD gets better soon. Is terrible when they're little and suffering and there's no more you can do for them. Give her a big BB hug from me!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY by the way!
Fingers crossed for your donning a graduation cap tomorrow Kel!
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend!
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Sorry for the MIA the last few days guys. Today marks 8 years 11 months TTC for us and it was also the EDD of my third pregnancy/miscarriage! so its been a sad week leading up to it and I have not felt much like posting.
Hope everyone else is going okay1
Cazz
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Big hugs to you right now Cazz....
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:hug: from me too It is always hard when we remember our greatest joy at being pregnant turns to our deepest sorrow
hope this cycle is the one for you
Go Keen
Hi Sue
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Kel - GOOD LUCK for today's results! I got the graduation gown ready for you :crossfingers:
Trish - Ive added you to the new roll call for November ( [-o< this is your turn)
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Cazz- Sorry to hear it has been such a hard week for you. I find it hard enough to sit back and realise we have been ttc for almost 18months. My thoughts are with you.
Kelly- What time do you get your results???
to everyone else take care
Racheal
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not too long until the end of your 2ww Racheal! Fingers crossed for you too.
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I think I am out again this month.
I had a big temp dive this morning below the coverline. I was so hopeful that it was my turn this month.
Oh well onwards and upwards
Racheal
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Keen - can you change me to Nov OPU too - I'll just miss out out this month. Hope your TWW is not dragging too much.
Kel- I'm rubbing my fertility stone madly for you today honey. Go you good thing.
Rach - it aint over yet sweetie! Hang in there - I've saved some rubbing for you.
Cazz- I'm sorry to hear you've been down , look after yourself - feel free to vent all your fustrations to us
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goodluck Kelly -hope there is lots of babybliss at your house tonight
You too Keen and Racheal
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All done, Humphrey! :)
Good luck everyone!!
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:bfn:
And my heart is broken again.
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I'm so sorry Kelly, life is so cruel. Big hugs to you :smt058
Love Ali xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Hi girls
Just a quick one to let you know I'm back from my EPU adn got 16 eggies this time. Am extremely sore and will be going back to bed shortly. All going well I will have transfer on Wed.
Hope everyone is doing well & I'll BBL
Love
Ali xxxxxxxxxxxx
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So sorry Kelly, :hug: . It just plain sux. Those damn bruises too.
Love
Sue
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Gee Ali, 16 eggs? Wow! =D>
Good luck for Wednesday.
Love
Sue
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Oh Kelly I am so sorry! :hug:
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Kelly, sorry for the result, never good to hear it.
Take care of yourself.
Ali, well done on the EPU, take care of you.
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Kel Sorry for the negative result hopefully you get the positive next time take care of yourself and hugs to you
Ali Wow 16 good egs thats great good luck for transfer and a BFP in 2 weeks
Keen Keep hoping for that positive for your bubs in a week
Good Luck to everyone else wating on Pick up, Transfer or Bloods
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Kell - so very sorry and hugs from me too......
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Thanks all. Very frustrated. I feel like an IVF patient but without the worst bits - the rest of my protocol is as cautious and drawn out - including an enforced cycle off. I didnt realise that would be the case so I felt really annoyed about that, so now I cant go again til November. Its always so heartbreaking and always hurts so damn much, never gets easier. Hate it so much. Its a battle between the pain of constant investment and disappointment and the pain of the thought of not having another child.
Good luck all, I am just going to take some time to readjust my head and find some positives and change my outlook. Im getting very bitter.
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So sorry Kell - :hug: I know the waiting to try again s*cks too
Ali - wonderful result and all the best for fertilisation and ET - what day are your embies going to be ?
I hate the BCP - I had break thru bleeding and some cramping today - not bad enough to take anything but annoying. Does anyone else have this problem ?
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Aw Kel, sweetie Im SO very sorry to hear your news. Anmd it just doesnt get any easier does it? The enforced cycle off also makes things very very difficult. Like we dont have to wait enough? Am truly hoping this is the last time we see you post those three horrible letters.
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Ali - that is great news about your eggs. Nice big take. Be sure to look after yourself. I found OPU to be painful too (in fact probably more so that a lap).
Everything crossed for a wonderful big bunch of strong fertilised ones. Are they taking them to blast stage?
Trish - havent been on it for SO many years can hardly remember, but I do think I did occassionally have spotting at unusual times.... :-k
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Keen
I haven't taken it myself for 13-14 yrs except for last stim cycle - but I vaguely remember having spotting and (Sorry TMI) - huge clots why I was eager to stop and start TTC.
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Im sure its probably because your body just so isnt used to it.... You havent been having big clots this time have you? Any cramping along with the spotting?
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Keen
No clots thank goodness :-s - I had slight cramping - nothing to complain about though - I was just aware of it . I had on/off spotting last stim cycle but I don't remember it so early last time. Will see what happens today and will ring clinic if need be.
How are you feeling today ?
Where is everybody - hope you have a nice rest of the week (short for some)
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Hi all
Hope you're all well - have been off line for the last week or so - after our latest failed attempt I took some time off to go and visit my Mum and sister - they always make me feel better.
Found out that friends of ours who have been TTC for about 6 months are pregnant...they just found out that the hubby has low sperm and thought it was all bad but then found a BFP the next day...part of me is really happy for them but the other part is frustrated that they can conceive so easily (they thought it had taken a long time...aargghh) with low sperm and yet we have nothing wrong ("unexplained infertility") and can't sort it out...she also wants me to share the joy of her pregnancy with her (and I am really happy for them) but how can I make her understand that, emotionally, I'm not equipped to handle her journey when I'm heartbroken that it's not me...
Does that make any sense at all? Am I just being a selfish cow?
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Kell,
I'm so sorry to hear of your result. I can fully understand how frustrating the whole process is.
I always thought that if I knew that, say, by my 10th cycle, I would definitely be pg, it would have been easier for me to carry on. I would know from the outset how much money it would cost, how much time would be involved, how much emotion I had to invest, and most importantly, that all that work and pain and stress would actually lead to the achievement of my dream to have a baby.
I likened it to studying for exams. I always felt like I was the one studying every night, not going out with my mates, and it was the ones who didn't study, who partied all the time, who seemed to pass the exmans without trying. I wanted a result for all the heartache I was going through. It's not fair that you don't get a reward for your hardship.
And that's what is so unfair about this rollercoaster, is that there's no guarantee of a BFP at the end. That's the cruelest thing about it.
And that's why it takes a strong woman to bear with it. It's a difficult, unfair, heartache-fraught journey, and all you ladies should be applauded for still staying strong and positive and able to move forward.
But it's also okay to be upset and unhappy and angry. This means so much to all of us, and we would surely be inhuman not to be upset when we are not 'rewarded'...yet.
love
sushee
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=D> Sushee, you've drawn the perfect parallel there. Likening this journey to studying hard and not getting the results while others cruise along and always seem to achieve the reward. Particularly in light of Amanda's post. And, unless people have been through it, although they try, they really can never understand properly. That's why we have each other.
Amanda, it all makes complete sense. And, no, you're not a selfish cow. You're not a selfish anything. :smt018 Your feelings are yours and you're entitled to be unhappy atm. Does your friend know about you TTC for so long and the problems you're having? If so, then I would tell her exactly what you posted about not being in the right place emotionally atm to share the joy. If she doesn't know, then, you might just have to explain. If she's a good friend, she'll understand. :hug:
Hi to everyone else.
Love
Sue
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Thanks Sue...yep, she knows...I've been giving her a shoulder to cry on while she's been bemoaning the length of time it's taken them to get pregnant (I was very good at resisting the urge to tell her that getting worked up when it hadn't even been six months was bloody ridiculous)...so she's aware of how long it's been and of every disappointment...I guess she just doesn't understand how her luck could be a further disappointment...
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That is a perfect analogy Sush, I will use that in the future. Feel better today, trying to shift focus. Or was.
My SIL called me this morning. She miscarried their first angel a year ago this week - she called today in tears saying "I'm pregnant and bleeding again" - she is 7 weeks and they hadn't told anyone because of what happened this time last year when she was 10 weeks. Life is so cruel and awful. She has a scan this afternoon and I am hoping like hell that she and my baby brother see a heartbeat. I swear, if I can make it so I didnt get my BFP this month so she can hang onto her baby, and I'll do the bleeding with AF for us both I would. And I swear I wont complain about my BFN for this month again as a result. Surely it cant be this cruel to be the same week and all for them?
She has been trying since a year ago to fall again with no luck til this, she has severe endo. and I guess this could be why? I just desperately do not want this to happen to them again. Its not fair. I really am not handling this weel today, after my own news yesterday :(
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Oh Kelly that is very sad news i cried all the way through your post. It is hard enough to cope with disapointment month after month but to finally get a result after a m/c and then another year of trying and now this must be devestating!
She must really love and trust in you to call and tell you and know that she can share her pain.
I will be [-o< for a good result from her scan this afternoon.
Take Care Of Each Other
Racheal
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Sometimes it all seems so HARD! And never Fair! on the roller coaster ride.
And love the analogy Sushee. Seems to just say it all, explaining it in a non-emotional sense like that would probably make it easier to explain to other people.
I had my BT & scan today, waiting for BT results but my scan showed lining as only 7mm so had a Primogyn shot & will have another tomorrow. At least it seems to be found that it's my hormone levels that are stuffed up. Makes me feel better for why we haven't been successful yet!
Next important date will be BT & scan 7/10
Take care
