LT TTC Two Week Wait 2012 #8

N2L - It is totally Effed!!! Only you will know when your done. Its so hard at our age as time is definately against us. We did look at donar eggs and it was expensive but not over $20K. Look up Flinders Medical Centre in Adelaide. What about PGD? Andie would be able to vouch for PGD. Or you could be like me and just have tough embies that cant get out the shell. They say women older than 37 and women with PCOS have hard shells. Maybe try assisted hatching with a pipelle. Sorry if this post is inappropriate at this time :( It just sounded like your not quite ready to give up yet. It must be so hard and crap that you have waited the 4 months, done all the hard work, paid all the extra $$$ and you got one emby. And your right, it is definately meant to be your turn.

Myturn - Again Effed! And I dont see why your FS should not try different things just because your too young. It should go by how many cycles you have been through. And you have done more than enough to qualify.

I am like Joeve. I guess AC LTTTC know exactly how you are both feeling. Its a very scary place and one neither of you should be in. It sucks :(

Myturn I'm so sorry just sucks this ride. Sending u big hug X

N2L what too say there is nothing I'm so sad for u.. I know how u feel and its such
a heartbreaking place to be in. I too thought I'd get my BFP this year not too be. Just sucks so badly. Don't give up and def don't tell your partner to get new girlfriend. Look after yourself and don't give up have a break and try to enjoy Xmas break.
Take care and keep smiling xx
hug::hug:

Thanks girls. Vic I agree that 6 cycles and 7 failed embryos (including one near miss) is now about time that something else should be tried. I think I need a break though - I HAVE to lose weight. There's no more excuses. But I might just grieve for a week or two first. I'm so so tired. Somehow this one hurts more because if the miscarriage I think.

myturn - I'm so sorry it's just not fair ttc should not be so hard and heartbreaking, thinking of you :hug:

Myturn I am so so sorry you are feeling the pain so bad this time. Definitely make them look at something different for you next time but give yourself a rest and recoup. Good luck with the weight loss, you can do it you are strong and determined xo

I am so confused with my body, normally I would have had af by now even on the meds.....still nothing and this afternoon there was a line I had to squint to see again, either I have a huge bad batch of tests or something weird is going on in my body...i cant work it out this time.....I just want the answer and can't believe I have another 5 days till BT to get through cause unless af arrives its the only way I will get my answer for sure.
I have my family Xmas Saturday and am not really looking forward to it as it is my new nieces first Xmas and the second time I will have seen her. I have no doubt it will be a tough day for me.

N2l and mytrun i hope our hugs have helped you feel loved and comforted through this xo

couldn't agree with you more joeve, well said. im so sorry n2l - you are right, it was your turn. i don't know who's in charge of this ttc stuff, but they've really dropped the ball on this one. xx

myturn - im sorry for you too... it never gets any easier to take. xx

kerbear - hugs, hope saturday goes ok for you. xx

Kerbear I'm so glad you're still in the running xox

Big hugs for Myturn and N2L - Am so sorry to hear the bad news :( Thinking of you..

Myturn I don't feel in the running it's 2weeks tomorrow I had my day 2 transfer, shouldn't something be showing up by now ??????

Still negative test on a digital today, still no af, guess Monday BT is the only way I am ever going to get the final answer but I have no doubt it over for me. When I say over I mean over for good, this was it, our last chance :-(
The bank account can't do anymore and I am not sure we can. If we do ever decide to do another round of ivf there will have to be some serious tests done as I can't keep putting us through this to lose our embies at day 3 and no transfers work.
How do I move on from here and not be bitter and twisted that I will never be a mum. This world is so unfair and I hope I can overcome this and not be the bitter and twisted person I am at the moment. I can't be happy for anyone else in my life having babies ATM but I have to suck it up and put the brave face on.
I was meant to be a mum god damn it. How can I finally find my soul mate and best friend a few years ago and now be punished to not be able to have a family with him????????? This sucks and my heart hurts so much :-(

kerbear: :hug: i don't have the answers im afraid, its just not fair :(

kerbear, it's so unfair. I hope there's a miracle baby in your future. :hug:

i so understand what you are saying Kerbear BIG HUGS :comfort: i know it is no constellation but we all wish it so much for you and its just not fair any of this LTTTC :shakehead:.
i beg and plead with the universe every day and every cycle i think like u exactly and wonder how not to be bitter and twisted.

My Turn and N2L i wish i could give u a big hug too!!
This is why i ony pop in and out these days... its hard xoxoxo

myturn, n2l & kerbear I am so very sorry that you lovely ladies haven't been given a Christmas miracle. nothing but lots and lots of :hug: x

Oh beautiful kerbear. So so so so sorry. I guess there's still a chance... But it sucks you have to wait until Monday for BT.

I had mine today - as expected :bfn: :( of course the blood dripping outta me was a bit of a give away. Sorry I know it's :tmi:

i don't know what else to say kerbear except :hug: so sorry for both you and n2l would have sacrificed my own BFP for either one of you.... Unfortunatly it appears not a single one of us was in the running. It seems like such a waste :(

off to the weight loss journey for me now... Bah humbug. Ill pop in and out of here and be stalking. But for now I'm having a break and don't know when I'll be back. :( :( :( good luck everyone xox

Myturn good luck with the weight loss, my body is getting punished next year for letting me down. I am going to get the next 30kgs off if it kills me in 2013. i want to just eat myself into oblivion but I am not going to give in to it!!!!
If I can't give my husband a baby I can give him a hot sexy wifey.

Hugs for all of us xo

So I did my blood test early today and levels are 14, positive but not viable, another bt Monday just to make sure it goes down. They told me to stop pessaries and patches but I just can't do it till I know it's 0 or dropped, I know it's probably silly but can't do any harm since I shouldn't have had bt till Monday and would be using them anyway,

Kerbear :( I hate chems :( :hug:

Official BFN for me too. No idea if there was any hcg because DP took the call. My phone was on silent so they rang him.

Feel lost.