LTTTC & Assisted Conception - November 2005 #2

thanks Leis - I keep talking to them and :bellyrub: in anticipation

I do want a BFP for Christmas -

Thanks again guys!

Today I have sat and found myself thinking why me? why does all of this always happen to me?

But then I though about that question.................

Why is it you only ask 'why me?' when something goes wrong in your life?

Does that make it a fair question?

I never asked 'why me?' when I met the most wonderful man in the world who became my beautiful husband.
I never asked 'why me?' when I had a wonderful wedding.
I never asked 'why me?' for the really special times we have had together since we met
I dont ask 'why me?' when he puts his arms around me.
I dont ask 'why me' when I get a hug from a friend or a card in the mail from a friend or a phone call.


Things are put on only those who can handle it and although I really dont like the way I have seemingly been tested I know I will come out of this stronger than I was before I went into it. I will have more patience and determination.
I will love my child(which I will have) fiercely and protectively knowing what I have survived to have him or her or them in my life and they will be all the better for it. they will grow up on my confidence and strength and determination.

This is one battle I am going to win!
So though I may not be on the IVF trail for the next few months I will be here to support you guys through it. To celebrate with you or to commiserate and to hopefully lend you all some of my strength and determination when you need it.

thanks again for your support

Cazz

That is so true Cazz. But like you say obviously they don't dish out what we can't handle but you have to wonder sometimes don't you how much more they think we can handle and why.

Positive thinking the power of the people.

You girls are amazing!! I have been reading up over the past few days to get to know each of your stories just a little so that I can say something meaningful to you but you almost bring me to tears with the wonderful things you say to each other & the support that you all show.

So here's just a little from me....

Trish ~ hope those blasts (not that I'm 100% sure what a blast is exactly??) are doing what they are meant too so that you get your BFP for Christmas.

Chele ~ hope that there is still a chance for you to get your BFP & that you are just too early at this stage.

Cazz ~ your last post almost had me in tears. It is so true that usually we only see the bad instead of focussing on the great things that are happening in our lives every day. Wishing you every success.

Shez ~ I am sorry that AF has shown up for you.

Leis ~ I hope that all is well with you.

Suzie ~ I hope you enjoy your mini break & a BFP is coming your way soon.

thanks Kirsty

Blasts are IVF lingo they are embryos at day 5 after fertilisation.Mine were day 6 called hatched blasts - a further stage of development and almost ready to burrow in for 8.5 months if I am lucky

Cazz - you have a mighty spirit and I do believe we become stronger and better people knowing what we have gone through and not become bitter. Our future children will be very precious.
We do need to appreciate our blessings today -as you say. =D>

Keep reaching out as you are doing - It is very hard. No one can ever tell you when the end date is that you must "get over" losing a baby (ies)(no matter what stage of pg you were) and lost chances in failed IVF cycles. That will come in time. The healing time and the ways you seek to do it are up to you though. You will find your peace. It's what you choose to do with your experience that makes all the difference. You are well on the way with your positive fighting spirit.

To make a conscious effort to seek new positive activities in which to focus your energy. We didn't have a choice in losing our babies or ttc struggles and infertility, but we do have choices in how it affects the rest of our life. It takes energy, but our choices can be positive, healthy ones.

BFN for me. I have my period. I had forgotten what a bad combination a bfn and pms is.

I guess I'll start preparing for the next insemination in about 14 days.

Teegan So sorry matey take care and stay positive for next cycle.

So very sorry for your BFN Teagan

:hugs: Sorry AF reared her head Teagan..

Chele :crossfingers: for Monday

Thanks for the kind thoughts guys but AF was a definate due to my cancelled ET, it means a new start for us not foul ending.

I think I forgot to mention earlier that we ended up with 5 frosties!!

Love and luck to all

Yay for your 5 frosties Shez.

:hugs: So sorry Teagan.
Take care, you know where I am.
Love
Sue

Oh well =D> then hey Congrats on 5 frosties

so sorry Teagan - :hugs:

Shezabelle - good you have 5 frosties

Thanks Bec,
I had no idea that they were such busy little bees down at MIVF!
Cheers,
Didge

Cazz, that is a great insight, it made me feel very lucky to actually be alive. Also my DD is the one thing for me that keeps me going (and sane)

Teagan, bugger for you. take care.

Shez, yah on 5 frosties, did you go to blast? Are you able to start a FET now? what kind?

Chele, it is only early, keep that hope alive

Keep well ladies

I'm so sorry to hear your news Teagan.

Shez - congratulations on the 5 frosties!!

Im sorry Teagan.

Cazz you are a special woman.

Shez, 5 frosties is great!

Sue, how are you doing darlin?

Just letting you all know, my blog address has been taken out of my sig. Apparently its now in my WWW link or something. :evil: