Hi Everyone...
Well.... Today I feel a little bit stronger!
The weekend was plain horrible and between periods of crying and then just being plain emotionless I somehow managed to laugh for the first time. I nknew then that i could laugh again and that I would be able to get through this.
Last Monday ( the day our baby died) I was so stressed out at work. It was probably the most horrible day i had had at work ever. I don't know if this was the reason but stress can do things you never imagine. I am trying not to think why know but to just be thankful for those 3months I had with our baby.
I happened to stumbel across my clomid scipt whic started all of this. I had thought i threw it out( I don't 'O' very wells on my own maybe twice a year if I'm lucky!!). DH and I actually conceived our last baby on our own drug free. We were very proud of ourselves!!
I also came to the conlucsion that I do know I wnat another go at trying. I am not going to wiat till 16 weeks like we planned with our last baby but shout it from the roof and just plain enjoy it!!!!!!!!
I started taking my Blackmores conception vitamins yesterday, So now its just about trying to get my and DH healthy again and then try. ( not straight away but in a few months anyhow). There is oone thing playing on my mind and that is DH said that we would have one more go and if we are unfortunate that we not continue to try anymore...... He is completely shattered.
EM
