Pregnancy After Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss September 2009

Beata - can't believe Cameron is a week old already. Laney was right, time flies. I am so happy for you. You must just love nursing and gazing at your little miracle. How is DF going with it all?

Nicspeedy - congrats on your pregnancy, but sorry you had such heartbreak first. Hopefully this is a happy and healthy pregnancy with an extra sticky bub. good luck.

Starbright - wow 24 weeks. That is awesome. How is it all going for you?

Berry - congrats on the arrivial of your little man.

AngelLuke'sMum - I am going for a cerclage on Thursday, no clear diagnosis for me of CI but a history of extremely prem labour. Hoping this helps get me over the line. Any tips on how best to recover from the procedure? And how best to take care of myself after? Glad that it worked out for you. Bet you can't beleive your little miracle is now 11 months!

dory, goodluck on Thursday. I really hope that it works a miracle for you.

hey ladies,
can i join in?? i just got my BFP this morning!
I am pretty scared! But soooo happy! any tips on making it thru the next 8 and a bit months with a small amout of sanity left???
lol

Morning ladies,

Yes, I have been up since 5.30 this morning, gee I miss sleeping in!!!!

Dory, GL on Thursday hun. I haven't had a clerage done but I think it's a small price to pay to get your miracle. I would do it if it meant a healthy beautiful bub at the end. Will be thinking of you!!
DF is going OK, very protective I've noticed to the point of giving my poor mum a bit of a hard time ATM. She lives 5 minutes away and drops in every second day or so (it's her first grandson) so naturally she's very excited, but DF hogs the baby all to himself and she can't even get a cuddle, lol. I have told him to relax a bit and I think he got my point across!

Mummyof4, welcome! I have just had my bub but still drop in to see what my wonderful friends are up to!! Firstly, I'm sorry for the loss of your precious angel, but also very excited for your BFP!! It is tough with subsequent pg, after a late loss especially, but you'll get throuh it. Just take each day at a time, and focus on everything positive with this pg and the beautiful bub growing inside you. I found my pg with Cameron tough in the begining, but passing the milestones was a mini celebration for me each time, and after 30 weeks I relaxed a little. Now I have a beautiful baby boy sleeping next door and I can't beieve he's mine and he's safely here! Gl hun, will be checking on you!

Nicnspeedy, I'm so sorry you've lost your little angel, big hugs darling. I am excited though about your new pg, but be gentle to yourself hun, and don't be afraid to be excited about the new life inside you. I am sure your little son in heaven has send you a precius gift.

Jlk, you'll be fine hun. Brings back memories for me when I used to get really paranoid when my little guy was lazy in my belly!! I used to poke him so he'd move, lol! Just enjoy your pg hun, you'll miss your bub in your belly when he/she is here!!

Megan, hope you're enjoying your little guy :)

Jo, what have you got planned for Kaitlyn's 1st Birthday?

Laney, we're FB buddies, yay!!!

Big hugs to everyone else, maybe I'll go and try to catch up on some sleep........what is that again??????? ha ha.

B xxx

hey all, how is everyone going :) be back later for some personals.

p.s - anyone who wants to add me on facebook, just send me a pm :)

Mo4 - I just read your post! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!! It is such good news. Oh course you are scared, but hopefully in time that passes. Try not to focus on being scared, right now, right at this moment, you are nuturing a miracle life inside you, and that my friend, is truly the most wonderous and amazing thing.

B - you'll be getting more sleep before you know it and looking wistfully back on this crazy, beautiful time. Thanks for your words of encouragement, they always have the desired effect. Give beautiful Cameron a big hug, if you can wrestle him away from Dh for long enough for a gratititous BB'er hug.

Hi to everyone else. LIke JLK, I'll be back later.

Thanks for the welcome guys and dory .. you still got it ROFL always know what to say to make someone feel at ease!

I am doing ok today bit tired but not freaking out as much... the only thing that is bugging me is that every other time i have been pregnant i automaticaly say we are having a baby and i assume that we are going to be bringing a baby home in 9 months... i havent been ale to say that this time... like we are not having a baby yet, im just pregnant... i know it sounds stupid but i figure someone must understand what i am trying to say... i hope ROFL

Anyway i am sure yous are all going to get sick of me soon!

oh one more thing... did you tell people you were pregnant straight away? a massive part of me wants to wait till after my 20 week scan ROFL i know that with my belly it probably wont work but i am just so scared of telling people...

mo4! Woo!! :hug:

Beata, where is your birth story woman?! XD Just joking... give your little dude snuggles for me, and yep, they lose the newborn look superfast, it's a little depressing. And I must say, i'm impressed with the perssies... I still don't get into them anymore and I've been at it for 9 weeks and a bit weeks... laaazzyyyy :redface:

Laney and ALM, it's good to see you 2 still lurking... how are your 2 cherubs doin?

Well, best be off.. i got a new printer today and as any proud mumma I'm busy printing off photo's of jackson ^^;

:bellyrub:

Mo4 - sweeite thanks. It's good you have "escaped" from our other thread..... althouh I still drop in from time to time.

Hmm about telling people? I told some people like my parents and parents in law straight away. I then told a few special friends at work. I selected who I told carefully based on whether I thought they would be able to support me. It's a very tough journey, and it's nice to be able to lean on people when you need it.

Then it was taken out of my hands when I had a threatened miscarriage at work and left under a family emergency excuse and didn't return for a week. Then the ob told me to consider quitting work to rest to give the pregnancy every chance. I then toughed it out for a week at work and it was terrible, so I decided at 7 weeks to give up work, so everyone at work then knew. After that I gradually told people, and felt surprisingly more comfortable telling people after 12 weeks.

I am glad I told some people at work because they really supported me with teh threatened miscarriage, I really wasn't thinking properly that day and they just made sure I was ok.

Teagz - good to see you are printing out all those photos of your boy!

A big and slightly late congratulations to Berry and Beata on the safe arrival of your precious boys! Enjoy every precious moment as they grow up so quickly! Lovely names too. I am sure your angels are very proud of their mummies.

mo4 - very sorry to read about your angel daughter. Congratulations on your bfp. Feel free to be paranoid, anxious, happy and crazy here! I didn't tell people about my pregnancy with Anna until at least 15 weeks (apart from our parents and a couple of close friends). This time around I did pretty much the same. Tell people when you feel ready. I also asked people not to make too much of a fuss around me as I found it too confronting.

I am 32 weeks! I can't believe I have 8 weeks to go. I have my scared moments but overall I am feeling quite well....hoping it lasts.

Sorry I have been MIA. We have been in Brisbane and then I had an old friend staying for a few days.

I hope everyone is well and sending you all bellly rubs.

Katiegirl, I am so glad that you are still feeling great. I remember you were very comfortable right up to DD's birth. Hope you had a nice visit with your friend.

Teagz, I think that I have 3 books of pictures filled already :redface: Grayson is doing great! Crawling all over the place. We are keeping our fingers crossed that we will be bringing a healthy baby home in November. First scan is Friday.

mo4, I am so sorry about your little angel. It is very hard after a loss to feel positive about a pregnancy. Ask for some extra office visits or scans. Whatever you need to get past those hard weeks.
It is very hard to tell people early. I always hated the congratulations. I will only tell a few close family and friends that I am pregnant. I guess if I would tell them that I had another loss I will also tell them that I am expecting. I haven't told anyone yet. Maybe after Friday.

jlk, I hope that you are doing well and keeping the crazy lady away.

Dory, I hope that you are relaxing and not too worried about tomorrow.

AngelLukesmum, how is everything?

beata, I forgot to ask. How are you recovering after your c-section?

Morning lovely mummas!

I've got a spare few minutes so I'd thought I'd jump on...little man is sleeping after a boobie feed at 7 am but I reckon he'll be up shortly for another feed.....

Jlk, hope you're hanging in there hun!

Dory, I'm thinking of you today when you go for your scan. Everything will be just fine, have faith my beautiful friend!

Katiegirl, thanks hun. Congrats on 32 weeks, woohoo! Wow, before you know it your bubbie will be here. Catch up on that precious sleep!! ;)

Teagz, I haven't had time to scrach my wee butt let alone write my BS!!!!! hehehe. Remember how I used to hassle you for yours?? Guess it's my turn now! You know, I haven't taken many photos of Cameron on my camera, my family and friends have plenty on theirs, so I better take some on mine! Haven't even had the chance to print any...:redface: Enjoy printing your pics and give Jackson a big hug from me!

Laney, my c/s recovery is going OK. I'm so busy right now with bub that I forget to take my pain killers sometimes and then I feel the pain!!! ouch! Apart from that I think I'm doing OK, just have to remember not to pick up anything heavy..but OB said I can drive in 2 weeks time!! Woohoo!

Hi to mummyof4, Bec, Megan, starbright & Jo and anyone else I missed. I'm going to jump for a shower before wee man wakes up.

Big hugs
B xxx

Hi ladies

Sorry I haven't been on for a couple of days so I missed your question Dory about the cerclage - hope the procedure goes okay today!
I don't really have any major tips for you other than just take it easy for a couple of days. If you are anything like me, you won't really feel like doing much anyway as you may have some cramping and just feel a bit uncomfortable in general. I think it took me about 4 or 5 days to really feel normal. I had only a tiny bit of spotting but some of the cramps were pretty ouchie. Oh actually one tip, (sorry tmi people!) but you might want to have some benefibre or similar on hand :redface:
Other than that, all good and I was back at work the next week until my cervix shortened at 21 weeks and I ended up in hospital on BR for 3 weeks and then rested at home for the rest of the pg.

Laney - good luck for your scan tomorrow! I will make sure to pop back on and check for some good news ;)

Hi to everyone else! I keep lurking for the good news stories :)

Hi Ladies!

I am feeling a bit nervous. First scan jitters. I am also really really dizzy and lightheaded, it started yesterday. I don't think that it is the clexane. I have been taking it for 2 weeks and I have felt okay. I never had this issue with Grayson. I feel better when I am sitting. I don't know what is going on. I am a bit glad that I will be in my doctor's office tomorrow. It will probably be Saturday AM before I post...time difference and all.

double post

Hi everyone- sorry i have been MIA... busy week- getting home from being away and getting ready to head off to canberra again for the wedding!

Dory... i hope things go ok for you- you do what you have to xxoo

Laney... Everything crossed for some great news for you today!!!

Welcome Mo4... welcome to crazy town!!

Hi to everyone!! Sorry this is so short- but off to do some house work and pay some bills!!

Take care!!
xoxoxo

Hi ladies, just popping in too

Beata – congrats on precious Cameron
Berry – beautiful news on the arrival of liam,

So happy for you both, such beautiful news hearing the safe arrival of some precious bubbas, hoping your boys are filling your hearts with joy

Mo4 – welcome hon, I'm so sorry for your loss of precious miss k, I hope this pg, delivers you a healthy earth angel. Maybe if you don't feel comfortable saying your having a baby, word it different, you know maybe make a bit of a joke of it to help relax you, maybe by saying your in the family way, or up the duff, still saying it like that doesn't say having a baby, if that makes sense, just that your carrying extra cargo ;). As for telling people, you just tell those you feel comfortable with who have supported you, and for the rest of them, I see it as they don't need to know, they can hear the news when you deliver your precious bundle. I only told people as I saw them cause I figured if they weren't interested in calling me or supporting me, then they really didn't deserve to know.
Dory – hope the cerclage went well and your resting up. Let us know how your feeling
Laney – light headedness and dizziness could just be a first trimester symptom, hoping that’s all it is for you hon, let us know how you go.
Katiegirl – hope you had a nice relaxing trip away
Teagz – look at that beautiful smile from Jackson, so heartlifting 
Jlk – look at you girl, look at that ticker go, how you feeling?
Starbright – off to canberrra again, wow you jetsetter, how is your butt feeling with all that travel? I know sitting for more than half an hour sets my pains off. Don't do any housework come chat to us please
Mummabec – hows it all going? Hoping that no news is good news and your just resting up
Angellukesmum – wow how exciting your little girl turns 1 soon , wow

Afm – just keeping busy, our house goes on market from next week, you'd think we could have organised a better time to sell, but I guess keeping busy at this stage is the best thing, cause this is the part where I get the craziest lol. Its going to be a sad thing to let go, we did this house up when we were pg with ph, so there is a lot of emotion in this house, but if it means a bigger house for hopefully our two boys to grow up in then I guess its worth it, she will be with us wherever we go. Other than that we are all good this week, just counting down the week to seeing reuben again at our scan next week. Sorry enough babbling

Belly rubs to all

Klee, thanks sweetheart. I know what you mean about selling a house with so many memories. We'll be moving within the next 12 month hopefully, and leaving behind my little unit which has been my home for the last 16 years. I've been pg twice here, and have had my furbaby Pooky since I pretty much moved in, and she died only 3 weeks ago. I will miss this unit when I go, I know I will be very emotional to leave such nice memories behind.

Dory, I'm so sorry sweets, I meant to wish you all the best with your stitch not a scan!!1 It's the lack of sleep hun!!!! I hope all went well for you and that is wasn't too bad.

Big hello to all you lovely mummas in here, I will come back for some more personals later, I will try and catch an hour of sleep now befoe the wee one wakes up again :asleep:

B xxx

Hi girls - thankyou so much for your thoughts and encouragement. Yesterday went well. I recovered well, wasn't sick from not eating ( for over 12 hours in the end!) or the anaesthetic! Felt quite euphoric yesterday, down to earth today. Insomnia last night was werid. I thought anaesthetic made you tired? Well I am tired but not sleepy. Am very light headed - common side effect apparently - so Laney I empathise with you. Although I used to get lightheaded before and during pregnancy. I hope yours is just a first tri symptom that you are UTD. Good luck at your scan. Am feeling pretty good really. Not much bleeding and not as much cramping as I was expecting. Having some flushes, but no temperatures or other symptoms. So not worried. Dr was really happy about how the procedure went, and even better said it was ok to eat chocolate as it was good for me. Yipee bring on easter. Beata, I knew what you meant :) Angelic Lukes Mum - I have some "bulking agents" on hand, I use them anyway. But thanks for reassuring me that I am going ok. I agree, it usually takes a while to feel normal again after a procedure.

Hi to everyone else. Will be more intersted in persies soon.

Hi Ladies,
some good news and some soso news. There was a bub in the correct location. A tiny heart was moving. Big cyst on the right like I thought it would be :( Bub was also measuring 3 days smaller than I expected. I guess that it is possible I had a bfp 9 days after ovulation but I doubt it. I am just keeping my fingers crossed that the measurements were just off a bit. Bub was very high in my uterus and my uterus was very high in my abdomen, making it hard to see things. It is just a waiting game now I guess. I couldn't see my doctor today because he had to run to the hospital for a birth. I refused to see a nurse, no real point. I will have to go back Monday to talk to him. sigh

Laney.... That all sounds good to me- early scan can be very hard to get the exact measurement- the most important thing there is that there was a little heartbeat!!!! I know how scared you were that your egg came from your right side- please dont let that cause you worry!! I am listening to my own advice here... if i can have a baby with an anterior placenta- then you can make a baby from your right side!!! :hug: Hoping for all good things when you see your dr!!!

klee.... I think your crazy selling your house now lol but good crazy!! You are right- a nice distraction will be good for you!! And in some ways a fresh start is nice- we rent- and i have always managed to move after every loss (and live baby- so i must be crazy too!!) and while it is sad to say goodbye to the memories- like you say- she will be with you where ever you go- and a change of scenery will be fun too.. :hug:especially a bigger and better house!!! I am doing ok with the traveling actually- i am ok til i go to get up lol!! This will be our last trip for a bit (have to organise a melb holiday but i am thinking of waiting for more babies to visit!! ;)) then i really need to knuckle down and save some cash for some furniture and things for bubs.. DS needs a new bed, (ok A BED!!! LOL He is still on the cot matress on the floor!! :p) new carseat so we can use his reversable for bubs- and some winter clothes!! It gets cold early down here, and he is growing quick!!! Oh and i have been house cleaning crazy!!!!!! The nesting has most definately begun here for me!!!

dory... So happy to hear that all went well for you!!! I hope the good things continue and your back to your usual self soon!!!

sorry everyone- i will be back later for some more personals.. i am being summonded!!!! Cant refuse a "pease" from my boy!!!

be back at nap time!!!! :)

Hey guys!

How is everyone this morning? i am trying my hardest not to freak out., i had HCG levels done yesterday and they are only 167. I have read everywhere that that is in the normal range for 4 weeks but it just seems to low to me.. I am having a follow up one done on monday just to make sure... arghhh i hate this!
sorry for such a me post lol

Good news Laney! A heartbeat! That is wonderful :D I know it is so much easier to say it than feel it, but please try not to worry too much about the measurements - it is so easy to get the dates out at this early stage when they are soooo small. Can you get another scan in a week or so just to get some more reassurance? I hope your chat with your doc on Monday helps.

Mo4 -try not to focus too much on the HCG levels, from what I have heard, its the doubling rate that counts so hope your repeat test on Monday brings you some good news :pray:

Dory, so good to hear your cerclage went okay! The important thing is that its there now, whether you need it or not, at least it being there is a bit of extra reassurance. They are sooo strong (mine is still stuck in me, cut but had grown into me so he couldn't get it out at delivery), so hoping it helps keep your sweet babe in there till the end :)

Hi everyone. Sorry to go missing in action. I didn't get an email saying there were any posts and thought everyone was just quiet. But when I went looking there were heaps. Including baby news!

Congratulations Beata and Berry!! I'm so happy for both of you.

Klee, I would feel mixed feelings if we left this house. Even though Luca never came home alive, we had his funeral here, he spent his pregnancy here, and I grieved him here. This home was also a place of joy after Eliana's birth. But you will take Phoebe with you, no doubt about that. They are always on our minds and in our hearts.

Dory, great to hear everything went well. Hope it helps you relax a bit. LOL I just read the reason for you editing your post as Addiction, not Addition. I was thinking isn't that funny, wonder what she means. I think I need more sleep!

Laney, that sounds promising. Hope you get some more good news soon, and no more so so news. Light headedness is commonly caused by low blood pressure (low in iron maybe?). Hope it just passes.

Starbright, you sound very organised! I don't seem to do nesting. I do stuff but only because I have to. No extra energy or motivation happening.

Mummy of 4, I have my fingers crossed for you. It's so hard waiting at first to see if everything's ok.


AFM, I've been feeling a bit more positive the last few days. Before that I had a couple of days when I was sure our baby had died every time I didn't feel her - that's most of the time, as she is a quiet one. It was just awful. So glad I'm less panicky now - I was worried it would get worse and worse.

I'm hopefully getting induced on Good Friday, so less than a week to go. I think that worrying about whether bubs will be engaged enough is stopping me from worrying about whether she will be alive. Something else to focus on iykwim? Anyway, she can't come soon enough for me. Wish she'd come earlier spontaneously.

We've been clearing out the nursery. We never finished getting it ready for Luca and then when he died it became the junk room (which it never was before I was pregnant with him) so it's been a big job. I wasn't really ready to do it any earlier. I guess I've been able to do some things once I got further and further into this pregnancy without getting the cholestasis. Anyway, it feels good preparing a place for our baby.

I have an ob appointment on Wednesday so we'll find out if Friday is a goer then. I have a spare fetal monitoring slip so I think I'll go in on monday too if I can find someone to look after Eliana. It would make me feel so much better.

xx Bec.

Jo... Hugs to you and your family for Finns 2nd Angelversary the other day xxoo I'm sorry some people in your family didnt remember him, it makes a very sad day sting even more :hug: It was already a big day for you too- you had an ob appt that day didnt you? Did it all go well????? Have you booked your next appt?? We really should co-ordinate our days so we are in town the same day. I had to reschedual my last one for the 19th of April.. is that any good? Have you booked into the hospital yet? I still havent done that yet, i probably should have by now. Oooops!!

klee... Good luck with the house stuff!!! What day is your growth scan this week????

katiegirl.... Wow your moving along quick!!!! I forget- are you going for inducement or waiting for spontanious labour???

mummabec.... Im glad your feeling moments of being positive, good luck with clearing the room out!! My spare room is a huge mess of nappy boxes filled with baby clothes!! And other bits and peices!! We arnt sure what we will do with sleeping arrangements, we have a three bedroom house- but one of the bedrooms is on the other side of the house... so we have some thinking to do!!
I hope Good Friday turns out to be a wonderful friday for you and your family xxoo

Laney.... how are you feeling?? till a bit dizzy? i hope it settles for you soon.. lol unless its a good pregnancy sign for you - in which case i hope the dizzy-ness continues!!

mummyof4.... I also agree that doubling is the most important thing when it comes to hcg levels.. all the best for your next test on monday!!! :crossfingers:

dory... How are you doing? Has your cerclage helped your confidence a bit? I think sometimes it makes you feel better to know your actively doing something to help things along!! I hope your recovering well!

Ellie- How are you feeling? Not too long to go for you now!!!

beata and berry... I hope your both enjoying your boys!!! :D

AFM... I am doing good, lots of movement which is nice and comforting and lots of stuff to keep me busy!! We are off to canberra again this week for my cousins wedding and reception (being held on different days!! She is having a very small ceremony tuesday night then the reception sat afternoon) so i will get to catch up with mum and a few other relatives which will be fantastic!! My back is still killing me- but i am going to wait until we get back from canberra and then go see a massage lady- i cant wait!! :)

Well my darling son woke up reallllyyyy early this morning (which he has been doing alot lately, how i miss bfeeds in the morning- they always got him back to sleep!!!) i dont know how we are going to go with day lights savings finishing!!! Its going to be fun! But i am a bit of a zombie today- so i think i will have a nap when he does- DH is working today as he is having the week off, so i will make use of the nice quiet house and rest i think!!

Belly rubs to everyone!!!!
xxoo SB

Hey all,

SB - I should be used to my stupid family by now :( I had my OB appointment and everything went well, got another look at her (OB confirmed that it is definatly a girl). My next appointment is 23rd april.

Jlk, so glad that your appt. went well. your ticker is really moving along now.
So sorry that your family didn't remember Finn's angel day.

SB, sounds like you have been busy! You are making me tired just from reading everything you have been up to! Glad that you are feeling bub moving more.

mummabec, you ticker moved right along! Not long now! The nursery is always a big and emotional job :hug:

Mo4, I think your hcg levels sound okay. How did your follow up levels look?

dory, so glad that you are recovering well. How often will you get your cervical length checked?

klee, we are also thinking of selling our house. We do not have a playroom and toys are taking over the house. I think that will be a project for next spring. I am not brave enough to take that on while pregnant.

AngelLukesmum, thanks for checking on me! I hope that you decide to jump back on the roller coaster soon!

Ellie, did you have your 32 week scan? I hope you have been feeling better and that your placenta moved up nicely.

Beata, I set a timer so I knew when to take my pain meds. You really need to stay on top of that. It is easy to take a long nap with bub and forget all about it. I hope that you don't really need them this week.

AFM, still dizzy! I have been going for little walks and that has helped a bit. I think when I relax too much my BP goes too low. I see the doctor tomorrow so I will let him know what is going on. He probably wont let me have another scan for 2 or 3 weeks. He really tries hard to keep me from having one every week :)

Hi Everyone
Just got home from the trip to the big smoke for the scan...all is great :)
Placenta moved up and got to watch bub in 3D which was awesome. Feeling so much better!
Be back tomorrow to catch up.
Ex

sorry just a quick me post to let you all know how i went today!
My levels were 167 on friday and now today they were 701!!! so everything is going great and i am feeling pretty good about it all now!

Thanks for all your wishes girls!

Ellie, sooo happy that your scan is over and everything is great! :dance:

mo4, numbers sound great! when is your first scan?

I just got home from seeing my OB. My MIL was supposed to watch Grayson for me but backed out last minute. Had to take him all by myself :o It was nap time and I had to wrestle with him the whole time I was there. Good thing everyone there is used to it :) so it is low BP making me dizzy. It was only 100/64 even with the wrestling match that went on for half an hour in the waiting room! I am also going to use some progesterone gel for a few weeks to help get rid of my cyst. I feel a bit better after seeing my OB. I do have to wait 3 weeks for my next scan :(

Laney - I love your new signature! Awesome news on your scan and seeing your ob. I am "scheduled" to have my cervical length checked every 2 weeks, but that scheduling is flexible depending on how anxious I am feeling.... Glad you got a reason for your dizziness, that BP is quite low. You did well with Grayson, and if your ob is like mine, they wouldn't have minded. My ob absolutely adores babies - in utero, newborn, older bubs and toddlers. Sometimes in an appointment if he hears them in the waiting room, he just stops, smiles and says something like, "just listen to that". I remember one of my scans, can't remember which pregnancy, we were looking for the fetal heartbeat - I was as nervous as anything, and then when I heard it, I went numb. I looked at my ob, and it was so evident that what he was hearing was just the greatest sound in the world. Seeing him revel in that magical moment, really helped me relax and enjoy it. You can do a 3 week wait!

M04 - awesome news on that HCG - I hope with those levels you feel just a little sick (but not too much)

Mummabec - OMG - I am just so amazed. You must seem like you are so close but so far away. I am sending you all my strength.

Ellie - good to hear that your scan and the trip to the big smoke went well.

JLK - congrats on the confirmation of your little girl. Well done! And of course on the good news from your scan. I am sorry you're family hurt you by not remembering. Family are weird sometimes. I was thinking yesterday that I am not sure if anyone in my family has actually asked me to talk about what happened and how I felt with each of my babies. Well except my brother who has an acquired brain injury, so he asks the same things repeatedly. It's so sweet that he asks and so hard to keep answering the same questions without getting annoyed. The rest of the fam don't refer to my babies by name or at all. They don't remember special dates. But, my mum calls me almost every day now I am not working and am at home resting. I suppose I can't have everything, and I am happy for the calls. One day when I am feeling stronger I will ask why. The aunt of mine who made such a beautiful memorial for my fur baby? Seems to be so distant with me now, but in part that's my doing because I know I have shut her out because she naggs me incessantly and won't listen to my answers and only stops nagging when she hears what she wants. So my strategy ( very mature) is to avoid her or to lie. I hate doing either. I have told her in the past how her badgering makes me feel, and it hasn't really changed her behaviour, but limiting her opporunities to do so seems to have worked. I don't know what else to do. I suppose really we are all stuck with family and friends, who we feel, could do things differently to help us on our journey. I wonder what things I could do differently to help my family and friends? Hmm food for thought.

Klee - amazing! I haven't moved in almost 10 years, and I never thought I would be in the one spot more than 12 months. I actually like it, perhaps its age? Or perhaps its just the accumulation of all sorts of memories within these 4 walls and surrounds? I know it became harder to contemplate a move after my darling furbaby died whilst we were away and my aunt set up a memorial garden for him in our back garden.

Starbright - hope you got some sleep and your bubba has stopped getting up at sparrow fart! Hopefully all goes well with the switch from day light savings. Enjoy the wedding. It sounds just right to have the celebrations over 2 days - might be less draining for you as well.

katiegirl - how are you doing?

AFM - apart from having plenty of time to ponder complex questions of relationships, I am feeling much better and my appetite and bowel function has returned. All of which is awesome. DH is away for work at the mo. Just a short trip, but it will be hard for me. I am pretty much alone here at home during the day - all my friends work or have toddlers, so they don't come over ( and I suppose I don't invite them either) Maybe I can work on that? Anyway, so it also means being alone at night , well not really alone, I have the 3 furbabies, but no human company planned. Anyway, see what I mean about too much time? Take care.

oh my god! where does it say Berry had her bub?! I think I have missed it... or i've seen it and it's completely been blown out of my mummy mind (it's not too flash these days... ) I'll have to go hunting.

Laney, quietly stalking you lovey. You're very inspirational, and might I say very calm looking from this angle XD Your little baked bean seems to be chugging away nicely in there with it's nice little hb. Gotta love low blood pressure huh? I've inherited that off my mum (although better than my dads high blood pressure) and there were a few dizzy moments for me early on but towards the end it seemed to even itself out.

Jackson's really getting into a routine now, we cruise along quite well together, he giggles at me now. I well up every time he does it, it's gorgeous. SAP MUCH?! The last few days I have been starting to think how I'd love another (not right away of course, but you know how the first few weeks are hard, and you think "crap, i'm never doing this again, one is enough!" (well that's what I thought anyway) Well that shock factor, its gone now that i've come out of it alive at the other end haha) But I'm not looking forward to the worry again, and the impact of that hit me when I watched a friend of the family take a small swig of wine, who is 12 weeks pregnant with her 2nd. It's made me feel a little teary the last couple of days and I really wish I'd had one shot of having a pregnancy were I could just be elated and excited and slightly careless all at once because I am ignorant to the fact that nothing could possibly happen to my baby. But then I wouldn't have my little Jackson. :heartbeat: You all know what I mean :)

Sorry to bring the thread down, girls. Woe is me!! :redface:

Hello

Just wanted to say a big Welcome to the world to Cameron, congratulations Beata. How amazing that our boys have the same birthday. You and I have been through so much around the same time. Your little guy was quite little, my boy was 8 pound 9 oz and 53cm. I hope you are doing really well.

Thanks to everyone for their well wishes, I haven't even had time to update my ticker, which I will do soon.

Laney great to see your new ticker, so excited for you.

Hi Teagz, yes bubby is here, I hijacked Beatas day!

Will catch up on everyone else soon.

Hi all, we are having a ball- we are still in canberra cleebrating the wedding week- well actually technically i am now in Sussex Inlet- my cousin and her husband got their wedding rings tattooed today!! So we have come here for the night- back to canberra tomorrow meeting up wuth mum and some other family for dinner tomorrow night then the reception on saturday then back home!! DS has been great- we have had a few later nights- whcih have thankfully resulted in some nice 8am wake ups!! Thank goodness!!!

I wont really get a chance for personals til i get home- i am pretty ready for bed right now lol but i wanted to pop in and wish mummabec good luck for tomorrow if things were still on the go ahead for then! KLee are you going to keep us posted??

And just quickly too :dance: mummyof4 on your great numbers!!

Nite all take care and big belly rubs!!
xxxxooooo

We're still on for tomorrow. I've been deemed favourable!!

xx Bec.

Bec, good luck for tomorrow. So happy that your pregnancy worry is going to be over. Now you will just have to spend every second worried about your bub, for the next 20 years :)

SB, sounds like you are having a blast! I think that I might need a few days away too.

Berry, congratulations again! You did have a big guy!

Teagz, I missed being pregnant as soon as Grayson was born. After a couple of months I was ready to think about TTC again. It was a bit strange because DH and I decided early on that my pregnancy with Grayson was our last. I think the desire for another child overtakes the worry at some point.

dory, sounds like you have a lovely doctor. The first thing out my my doctors mouth when Grayson was acting up was "it doesn't bother me, I hear it all day long" :) My doctor is great too I feel like we have been through a lot together. I feel comfortable in his office and I know that he knows my history without having to read my chart. He also tells me "whatever you need to feel more comfortable". I can ask for extra scans, office visits, just about anything and I get it. What more can a girl ask for :)

AFM, we decided to tell our close family and friends about this pregnancy. Well, I wasn't going to tell my mother right away because she has a big mouth but she called me on my way home from my doctor appt. She then asked me why I was there on Friday and Monday... My mother really doesn't understand why pregnancy is such a stressful time for us. My high risk OB got very upset with her early on in my pregnancy with Grayson. He actually said something to her about being insensitive and made her cry. I think that she just isn't good with emotional situations.

Introducing Arabella! Born 2 April at 3:46am before her scheduled induction. 3kg and 46cm long.

It's been a very emotional time and I neeeeed sleep but Arabella is adorable. We came home this morning and I'm looking forward to a sleep in my own bed.



xx Bec.

Bec, she is so beautiful!! Thank you for the pictures and congratulations.

New thread time everyone. And congratulations to Bec - what a gorgeous bubba :)