Thank you for you generosity
Beautiful Entreat,
I can’t thank you enough for your words… you are so generous for sharing your time with me. I started crying as I read them! It is a very emotional time…. And every morning brings on more trepidation. I know I just have to keep the faith, and honestly I am trying, I really am… but this cloud of ‘this is too good to be true’ – ‘we were told we could never have children naturally’, ‘this pregnancy is progressing with any normal symptoms’ kicks in.
And while I know I am over analyzing my body…. I cant help but feel frustrated that there isn’t some way of knowing (forecasting) what our fate will be...
Perhaps my negativity is just a protective mechanism in case of the worst…We have wanted our darling Baby for sooooooo long…
My first scan is on the 15th of Feb. I should be 7 weeks by then. Until then I am obsessed with going for a bi-weekly Hcg tests…. My doctor has already told me to relax, however I have no other means of self-preservation OR means to SLEEP at night (as the worry is keeping me awake).
Thankfully your experience may rest my mind somewhat to realize how unique each woman and their pregnancy is. My rational self knows this… However, something needs to tell my harpy.
Heres hoping our next communication sees me in better spirits…. Have a fabulous holiday…. Sending much love to you and your Poppy. :pray:
Thank you for your generosity
