Feeling so sick, tired and nervous about my scan tomorrow.

Oh DaintreeDream, :hug: I really hope the news is better than expected and no matter what, that you find the courage and strength to go through this second mothering journey.

Oh hunny im so sorry. All the best for Friday :hug:

:hug: I'm so sorry that you are going through this.

Thinking of you and your family. Hoping the time passes quickly until you get some answers. :hug:

:hug: Deanne

Thinking of you, hope you get a good result on Friday

Big :hug: DD...thinking of you and I hope everything goes ok on Friday. xox

DD, So sorry this is happening to you and your family! I will be thinking of you and praying for the health of your baby. I hope and pray everything turns out ok andf you get some good results on friday.

I don;t know just what to say but you are so lovely and I want you to know I really will be thinking and praying for you xo

I am so sorry you are going through all this again. I don't know what happened with your amnio but please try to be calm about the CVS. Not all amnio/CVS experiences are bad, my amnio did not hurt at all, no cramping, nothing out of the ordinary at all. I think you need to think of it like pregnancy - one pregnancy can be completely different to the next one- same goes with amnios & CVS. This time around it could be a far better experience for you, particularly if someone different is performing it.

:hug: :hug: praying for you and thinking of you, goodluck if you decide to go ahead with the testing and hope you get some definite answers too

Oh D, i am so sorry you have all this ahead of you again. Your babies sure are lucky to have you as their Mum. As hard as things get you always seem to be so loving, giving and positive. You inspire me, i think your strength is amazing. We'll be here to help you through. Hope the amnio goes ok. :comfort: xxxxxxxxx

Big :grouphug: DD, I am so sorry you are going through such a stressful time, sending you all the big squishy cuddles I can for Friday and the wait ahead.
xxoo

DaintreeDream, I just want you to know that I'm sending all my hopes and best wishes to you, your little baby and your family. Thinking of you :comfort:

That little bit of pressure you can feel is me holding your hand...

:comfort:

Oh DD :hug:
So sorry to hear this, I hope you get better news...

:hug: Thinking and praying for you and your family. I hope everything goes okay on Friday. Your babies are so lucky to have you. :hug:

Oh DD - i was so hoping and praying that u would get better news! :hug:

DD - Sorry to hear about the news you recieved yesterday. Thinking of you and wishing you calmness and strength as you wait until Friday.

Thankyou so much everyone, I cannot believe the support I have behind me, I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people here on BB to turn to during this time :grouphug:.

I didn't sleep much last night, things were just playing over in my head. It is all just to familiar.
I said to Feeb last night (thankyou for the chat) that it is not the long term that worries me, or even the short term actually, it is the delivery and first few months, Matildas delivery was hard, meaning she was not breathing and was rushed to NICU she spent 3 months there (over an hour away in the city) and had horrible surgery where she had to be put to sleep for 3 days otherwise the pain would be so bad for her, no baby should have to go through that and I truly thought I would only have to go through it once.
I know that this may not happen again and I really pray it doesn't but when you have lived it before it is hard not to look back and worry.
Short term, I know my pregnancy was great with Matilda so I am not worried.
Long term, once Matilda got out of hospital my worries went away, yes she still has special needs but I have her with me and she is perfect.
I think I need to just need to work through my feelings, at least this time I kind of know what to expect, and the poor doctors are going to know about it because I am not going to take a back seat this time and get walked all over.

Sorry for the babble... thankyou again :grouphug:.

DD :comfort: I don't think I am the only one here who is completely in awe of your strength. You are an amazing woman and an awesome Mother. I think it was Maz who said that God only sends special babies to special mums and in your case that is 100% true. Still hoping for a miracle for you, but no matter what I know you will handle it all with dignity, strength and grace. If there is any power in prayers and positive thoughts there is a tidal wave of love behind you.
:grouphug: