Pregnancy after Long Term TTC - February 2009

Hi girls,

I'm a bit in limbo land and not ready for the big league of this preg thread just yet. I got my BFP exactly 7 days ago and I've been in shock. I know it's so early (5 weeks) but I just had to let myself feel that first ever pregnant feeling. Leaving the house feeling pg is just bizarre. The ecstasy is wearing off and the panic is setting in so I have DH bringing back another test from town today and I'm booked for bloods later in the week to see if it's all still going on for me.

Greenslw, I'm really sorry to hear your sad news. I hope you can take small comfort that you got pg after your first FET so you will be back with a better chance next time. My pg was after my first FET too. Were you on all the pesseries and suppports? take care and give yourself the time you need to move through:hug:

Bel, I haven't read your blog (I haven't caught up with this thread really), but i can see that you are having a really rough time and I'm hoping you get to all those milestones safely and without further incident. I hope you've got that hospital menu sussed but what I want to know ...are there any cute male nurses who can smuggle you in pizza??

I hope i get to be a regular on this thread but just wanted to say hi for now.

:welcome: stay postive and your baby will feel it

Good morning girls,

Greenslw - very sorry to hear your news. Sending you hugs.

Murph - Welcome. Let me know when you are ready and I'll add you to the PALTTTC list.

AFM - Carpet is finally being installed in baby's room and our room today. Glass splashbacks are being installed and then the kitchen will be complete (it's only taken 3 months).

We should be able to build our cot and move the baby's drawers into the nursery this evening. The house is a bomb site at the moment with all the bedroom furniture in the lounge and dining rooms. I can't think in the mess. But once I can get the baby's things where they should be then the rest will follow.

The baby has been super active lately, but will then have a quiet day every now and then. Not sure if we sometimes get our routines out of synch or something.

We had our first baby class at the hospital on Saturday - the one where they tell you all about labour - ouch. But having done the calm birth class I felt I was more prepared and open to the information they had to share with us. It also aleviated a lot of my concerns about the post-birth processes and it also have me a bit of an insight into the attitude and open-mindedness of the hospital and the midwives. So, I'm really gald we went. Next one is Saturday and it is more about the parenting side of things.

Hope all is well with everyone. Ciao for now ladies and have a great day.
X

Greenslw - I'm so sorry. We are all thinking of you and sending you much love. As the other girls have said, be kind and gentle with yourself.

Murph01 - Welcome! I think we all understand the early panic. It's like you can't believe it's finally really happening, and you feel like you have to prepare yourself for another disappointment. Sending lots of :stickyvibesgirl:

AFM, all that concern about no m/s etc has gone. I am definitely getting it. urgh. disgusting :)

Still in shock about the twins too. Went looking at prams on the weekend (yes, too early, I know), but they are HUGE (I am not). I couldn't even lift the things off the ground. hmmm. This is going to be a problem.

Still losing weight too - about 200g per day. I am keeping an eye on it. My FS said not to worry too much - apparently babies are the perfect parasite - they take what they need, at your expense if necessary. I'm just trying to eat enough to keep the nausea at bay but it's hard.

Nic, well done on your first class..one day...how many to go?
Sounds very exciting finally getting the kitchen finished and starting on setting up bubs room.

Murph, I agree with TL, stay positive as I'm sure bubs feel's it.
Remember everyone was once in the same boat as you in the early stages of pregnancy and once you start reaching milestones you will feel more relaxed.

Jen, it's never too early to start window shopping ;) We are women after all and it is very exciting thinking of all the things you want to buy.

AFM, like Nic bubs seems to be active some days and quiet others.
It really hit me last night that we will have a little baby in 3 months time, I felt so warm and fuzzy on the inside and it's probably been the first time I have felt like this during pregnancy.
Have my glucose test this Wednesday...so yuck on that thought but on the upside seeing OB on Friday which means we get to see June Bug again....

Hope everyone is having a nice start to the week.

Thank you all for your kind words. I hope to see you in a forum soon with some good news to share. :) :goodluck: to all BFP's

Hey girls - I missed my 100 days to go, but remembered my 60 days. Wow - 60 days. It all seems so long ago.

Hope you are all going well today.

M-wha
Nix

Hi girls,
thanks for welcoming me on board and for your wise comments. I hope it's me in your shoes giving advice to newbies one day. for now though I feel I have more in common with the girls in the trying to conceive thread. Is that common? Like a bit of a self-preservation strategy?

I had to go back to my clinic last week for more drugs and I nearly fell to pieces. I have a two hour drive to get there and you'd think I could have fallen apart in my own time and space, but no, instead it all crept up on me while I was in the waiting area at my clinic. I suppose every clinic has a brag wall with all the babies and thankyou cards. Well I was reading them and I could feel the tears and I couldn't stop them, I left the room and could only find a staff lunch room. It wasn't just a sniffle, I wanted to howl! I tried splashing my face and straightening up but it was my first sense of being totally overwhelmed by the journey and the other things that have been going on lately. I'd been pregnant for three days and hadn't cried or felt anything other than happiness and I should have expected that I was due to drop my bundle. Anyway, the nurses and receptionists were great about me crashing their lunchroom and crying on their tea towel!

I haven't had any bleeding, but it's 5 weeks and 2 days and I don't really feel anything. I don't want to wish m/s by any means but it would be great to have some way of knowing along the way. I'm having a blood test today to see if my levels are rising, so I hope I feel a bit more confident by tomorrow.

So it feels a bit like an AA meeting to confess my due date and I haven't felt ready to think about it yet but here goes.....I think it is November 6. Maybe you can help. My FET with a three day embryo (2 actually!)was Feb 18.

Cheers guys

Murph - don't stress - I still have days like that. Days where I'm actually crying on the bus and it is all I can do to keep that crying silent until I get in my front door and then it is bone-shaking, glass-shattering, cat-scaring howls of despair. Like a life time of sadness needs to come out thru my tears and my chest all in one go or I'll explode. Some times I feel better after, sometimes it takes a day or two to feel happy again.

You will get there. I think some of us have the blinkers on and push it all down into a tiny ball just to be able to get thru IVF and the TTC journey. I think maybe in a way it is our subconscious letting us know that we have made it and it is time to let go of all that fear, anxiety, stress that has built up over time. I never cried like that when I was going thru injections, TWW, etc - only after I got my BFP. There is now a whole new world of things to worry about - I won't lie - it took me ages to feel good about this pregnancy. I distanced myself and felt no real connection to the baby until around 16 - 20 weeks. I even still have days where I feel very disconnected. Those are the days I cry.

BUT....let yourself heal from your AC journey so that you can regain your strength for your pregnancy. Talk about it when you feel happy and good about the pregnancy, but don't be afraid to talk about the sadness not so good days too. They are equally important.

X

Oh Murph we all have days like that and hey I was stressing this morning beacuse she was slow to start moving. You are just entering the world of worry sweetie :hug: Hope all goes well

:bellyrubs: to everyone so sorry I have not been very supportive have been busy with the jewellery getting it listed.

Charlotte is a wigglepot and 2 weeks and 6 days till we see her now

TL, that's so close now!! I'm getting excited for you :)

Murph, all those feelings are completely normal. Nixon's post was spot on. :hug:

Thanks so much for your words Nixon. Yes I suppose I feel like I could really let go of everything I've bottled up for so long. You must be right though that your survival mode kicks in and doesn't let you feel it until you're in a better place to deal with it and you don't need so much of your strength for the fight ahead. I 'm not quite in that safe place that you are but I'm glad you're feeling better after so long. Thanks for sharing.

i had an awesome accupuncture session today after my bloods and I'm due to call about the results but I'm fairly okay with it all, so not in any hurry to call. Gotta go pee but:redface:

Hi All,

Murph- Biggest of congrats to you and welcome to the pregnancy thread. And I agree, Nixon's post totally sums up what I would have said to you too. I just hope that you get to a point soon, where your fear and anxiety is overpowered by your excitement and happiness. So happy to see you here though xxx

TL- I just can't believe Miss Charlotte is going to be here so soon. I'm so excited for you.

All my other lovely, wonderful and supportive friends...sending you all a big hug and thankyou as always for our amazing support.

AFM, still here in hospital with my legs up!! All is going good. Babies are very busy and very happy hanging out in my tummy now so I couldn't ask for more. Will post to my blog tomorrow. My Sis is coming to pinch her computer back for the night so I have to get off it now!!

Hugs Bel
xxxxx

Hi everyone, checking in on you all

TL- so close! yay

Nixon- countdown is on :D

Murph- it's natural to feel all those things ..big hugs and another big congrats

Bel- hooray that all is going well for you...you are in my thoughts xx

Murph: Welcome to the club. I know what it's like with having no symptoms early on. If I hadn't got the postive BT results I wouldn't have thought it was true either. At 6 weeks I started feeling the nausea, but to date no vomiting (only feeling really hung over) and my BB's haven't grown or become very sore.

Bel: So good to see that you are still nicely tucked up in hospital and that your little ones are enjoying staying put.

AFM: Well, had our first scan yesterday and we are only expecting 1 little bubble from our 2 that were transferred. It was so exciting to see the little blob on screen and it's heartbeat. Even though we know the exact transfer dates and everything our bubble measured 1 day older than expected so our due date has been brought forward by a day to the 23rd November.

Only disappointment is that when I was booked in for my scan with the FS, I wasn't put on the delivery list for the OB in the office (who I have seen many times before) and was told that he is fully booked with patients for Oct. Bummer... So I've now been referred to another OB and have my first appt in 2 weeks, it will be a bit tedious to start with as I will have to spend so much time going through our whole TTC journey again, but a least I know we will get to see our bubble again in only 2 weeks time, which will be 10 weeks...

Hey girls,
I'm happy today!! Just got my results...yes they did make me wait another day and no I wasn't that casual about it after all. So it's up to you wise women to let me know how things are looking. 5 weeks and 4 days and my hcg is 4500. I'm at uni and will only be on the computer for another 10 mins or so. If anyone is around I'd love to hear from you.

cheers.xo

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Hey girls,
I'm happy today!! Just got my results...yes they did make me wait another day and no I wasn't that casual about it after all. So it's up to you wise women to let me know how things are looking. 5 weeks and 4 days and my hcg is 4500. I'm at uni and will only be on the computer for another 10 mins or so. If anyone is around I'd love to hear from you.

cheers.xo

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murph - what were your last BT results - the number isn't so important in itself - it's important to see the pattern of them climbing - can you post them all together? so day and hcg level

Hi Briggsys girl,

my first levels taken on the 2/3 were 41 and 90 (but not sure which was hcg!). Then tested yesterday and they only gave me the hcg reading as 4500 so yep it's gone up. I was pretty surprised.