the nightmare continues.....

Oh Meredith, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Words cannot express how deeply saddenned I am yet again for you and Chris :(

I will pray and pray for your other little fighter xx

Oh my goodness Meredith. :comfort:

I am sorry your little one couldn't stay with you. Fly safely little one... :hug:

Words are failing me with what you are going through. Just know I am loving and supporting you from afar. Do what you need to get through this time - & know that we are here for you... :hug:

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Meredith I am so very sorry you have lost one of your precious babies :(

I am praying that this little one will hold on nice and tight :hug:

Meredith - how terrifying for you and your DH. I'm so sorry that one little baby didn't make it - it's terribly sad. I am :pray: that the other twin sticks and makes it. This one seems to be such a fighter!

Just sending your a massive cyber hugs and prayers Meredith...:hug: knowing that my thoughts are with you...

Thankyou once again girls for the endless support. I am in real need right now.
The initial shock etc of the past 48hrs has passed now and today I just feel incredibly sad and empty.
I still feel hope that our little one is ok in there but the grief of what was we have lost has hit me hard. Even if this one somehow (please, please) makes it all the way, how do I ever get over the loss with constant reminders at every milestone (12wks, 20wks etc). I will be faced with scans showing only the one every time. I know, I know that I am extremely lucky to even have the chance with this one but I can still see our little angel with heart beating happily only hrs before we lost him/her. I just can't take this emotional strain to much longer.

I am so sorry you are going through this, I can only imagine how hard this is, and I am sorry I have no words of wisdom for you... I can only offer a huge :hug: and let you know you are not alone. Hang in there little Meredith and little bubba... xo

Oh my goodness Meredith, I am so sorry that you have had to go through this, what a terrifying ordeal it must of been for you. Words cannot express what I am feeling for you right now, just remember that we are all here for you - lean on us for whatever support you need. Take care my sweet and I will :pray: that your other little bub will stick and make it. Thinking of you :hug:

Meredith - I have PM'ed you, but again, I am so sorry :comfort: Please summon any energy you can to focus on that precious heart still beating so strongly for you xx

Meredith,

I am so sorry, there are no right words, just wanted to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you

Stay strong Meredith. You are doing so well to hang in there for your little one. Seek activities which will nourish your spirit. I will keep you both in my prayers.

XX

Meredith - the thing is, you don't get over the loss :( Even if you have a baby, you still have lost a baby and you are entitled to grieve and to feel saddened at the milestones. Still one day closer and with you all the way :hug:

Oh Meredith, I'm so very sorry. I hate the people that say 'At least you've still got one' It's just horrible.. I'll be praying very hard that the remaining one is a sticky little miracle for you

Meredith - I am so very sorry to hear of your loss, I`m thinking of you. As you know Adrian was my surviving twin and each milestone was so hard, I needed up hating my u/s`s as it was a constant reminder that there should have been two babies, it took me a very long time to adgust, that feeling continued for a good 12 - 18 months after Adrian was born but now I know Adrian`s angel will always be looking after him and Mummy.

I wish you all the best hun, and hope your little miracle hungs on for this ride :hug:

I have been thinking of you a lot today Meredith. I lit a candle today for your little Soul who grew wings... Just pop in and let us know how you are travelling - we are all here with a giant big blanket to wrap around you. Big hugs my luv... :hug:

Oh Meredith, I don't know what to say, just sending :hug: :hug: :hug:

Thinking of you, Chris and your little fighter, this must be so hard. I was just wondering, it's competely natural that you can't really give support to your DH just now, you need to survive through all this yourself. Can you perhaps encourage him to open up to some of his close friends or get some counselling. He needs to get some support so that he can be strong for you.

Sara

I am not really ok but coping to a degree. Another visit with OB yesterday - baby still alive which is something. OB still not overly optimisstic but did pressure me to book in my 12w scan which I am still not happy about ( feel its like a jinx).
Still having light bleeding which worries me but I guess to be expected given an entire baby/placenta etc came out. Also just can't shake the feeling of utter devastation at the loss of what looked like such a healthy bub. I got a peek at u/s report from the arvo just before disaster struck and the summary was "normal 8wk twin pregnancy"..... guess no one can predict anything in pg which only adds to my fear. It doesn't matter that baby was ok yesterday, he/she could be gone tomorrow with no warning!
DH doesn't get it at all how sad I am about losing twin 1 nor that the entire pg will be tinged with sadness even if things go ok. He got a bit cranky about it this morning and decided maybe it would be better to just lose remaining twin and start over. NOT what I want at all, I just want him to understand that having one remaining doesn't mean I am not deeply affected nor entitled to grieve over the baby we have lost. I know he can never feel the same way as me but he truly doesn't feel anything nor think I "should" be feeling like this either. And no, he is not just being a man and not showing true emotion, he admits he truly doesn't feel much. His thought is only that this actual pregnancy is still going so we haven't really "lost" it as a proper m/c yet.
No one close to me will ever get it either. I know i will only get the comments of "at least you still have one", "it must be for the best", "twins would have been to hard anyway, you're much better off".