I have anxiety...

Okay, its official...
I decided to speak up to my midwife and be honest about the panic attacks and heart racing ive been having lately...
she put it down to good old anxiety...

She put my name and number down for a local councillor at my hospital, and im going to book in for a session with him. It is all free which is great, as its through the hospital.

Ive been laying in bed at night worrying and stressing over every little noise, and when i do hear noises, my heart starts racing, and i get angry and frustrated at the noises.

I also get so worked up when dp says something, or if he even does the slightest thing different, i start stewing over it in my head, til my heart starts aching and pumping really fast.

I also have been having bad dreams that dp is cheating on me, or leaving me...i wake up stressed and worrying...

every little thing is worrying me or causing me to panic...
Even a knock at the door sends my heart racing, and i wont answer it if im home alone..

And the most recent worry attacks are over whether or not ive made the right choice to have a baby..i start worrying if ill get post natal depression, or wont be able to cope with looking after a child for the rest of my life...

Its really worrying me, and i felt embarrassed to mention it to my midwife, but i guess im glad i did, cause it would be great to leave it all behind me, and get some help.

any opinions, ideas?

you did the right thing talking about it with your midwife, anxiety can be very debiliatating and it's great you got to it quickly.

goodluck, i hope things calm down for you

thankyou, me too.
Its so terrible, cause every slightest thing makes me worry and panic....
And ive been very on edge, and if i hear a noise, or anything, i start panicing, or if its the animals, ie the cat outside meowing at 3am...i get so furious i just want to punch it lol...thats not normal lol

Hang in there sweetie. It's a horrible thing to have to suffer through, but take heart in the fact that you've done the right thing.
I have suffered pregnancy related anxiety through both pregnancies. I had never suffered anything like it before Darcy's preg. Talking to someone about it definitely helps, and kudos to you for asking for help. I know how hard it is. With Darcy even though I knew what it was at 10ish weeks I kept it hidden from even my DH until about 30 when he made me tell my ob.
This time as soon as it frightened me, I told my midwife who was fantastic.
Make sure next time you have a doc's visit at the hossy you mention it too.
Good luck hun :hug: you have made the right decision, and you'll get plenty of support here, all you need to do is speak up.

thankyou....

I suffered from anxiety attacks while tackling a bad bout of depression a few years ago. I was medicated in the end and they helped a lot.

My sister had depression (but not really PND) with her first bubs so she was put on anti depression/anxiety meds prior to having her second almost a year ago. They were a HUGE help for her.

One of my best friends was also suffering from anxiety attacks about a month before having her bubs (only a few months ago now) and after chatting with the hospital shrink, she too was medicated and was so much better for it.

I know medication is not for everyone but I can speak from experience when it comes to anxiety attacks and depression (and they often go hand in hand) and I can highly recommend meds if your doctor/midwife does too. It was the best thing I ever did and I know my sister and my friend feel the same way.

Chat to your midwife again and see if you can have a consult with a pyschologist who specialises in pregnancy related anxiety.

What you're going through is very normal so just get the help you need :hug:

yeah, im a little worried a si was speaking to my sister, an she told me she suffered anxiety and depression, really bdly with her first daughter. Her husband had to take 4 months off to help her, because the baby just wouldnt sleep or eat.
My sister said she got to a point where she just wanted to give the baby away...

Im like...yiikes...i hope this doesnt happen to me :(

I hear you!! i have had an anxiety disorder for about 18 years!! My anxiety has sky rocketed with my third (although Most would say I've beenjust as bad with the other two)!! I ended up telling the midwife with my last pregnancy and I saw the hospital counsellor and was referred to a woman who ran a calmbirthing class. It was fantastic and was more about before and after the birth for me rather than the actual birth as I knew I'd be anxious after.
Anyway, I highly recommend it and if it's too expensive, find some good meditation tapes. I have been extra anxious lately with all my kids sick, so have found a good book on meditation and am starting that. I still use my breathing daily from the calmbirthing, but am going to become more knowledgeable in all of mediation and the book is easy to follow and has a cd come with it. It's called "Mental resilence the power of clarity" by Kamal Sarma. He writes all about the benefits and explains alot about our mind etc and it's all easy to read no jargon or hype (as he says).
Also something I learnt in preg number three was that I was pregnant, no point worrying about that, and I just had to let go. Sounds easy, but really I had to just let go and let the universe do the worrying for me. It really helped, I guess acceptance was the key . good luck xo