wat to do/say?

please move mods if this isnt in the right spot.

i just wrote a huge post and it got lost so ill try to shorten it this time.

i went ot my doc a few months ago mainly for my weight and all the issues it brings up.
it took along time for me to do this cause i was so scared to say it out alot wat i was dealing with. even writin this now i feel so stupid for wat i am writing.

my weight has been a big thing in my life and i have always had huge issues with it.
I have been picked on so much and it has been my family too.
i am 168cm and i used to sit around 62kg to 65kg and lookin back now i would give anythign to be there again but i used to get my mum tellin me i seriously needed to loose weight.
i have never had many friends most people would pretend to be my friend then turn on me and think it was funny or get boys that i liked to ask me out then laugh in my face.
in about yr 8 i got my first bf but he constantly made me feel **** about myself and would constantly dump me if he thought someone better would go out with him. this lasted on and off for nearly 3 yrs and i got ot the point i woudlnt eat infront of anyone and started throwing up.
then i met DH and he never said anythgin and i become very happy with him and let myself go. i got the weight off just b4 i had DD and ended up being 100kgs after having her and got down to about 84 got PND and got back up to 98kg.
so i went to see my doc adn she gave me duromine which i took on for a bit then we went away and i ended up so busy after coming back i didnt take them. the doc told me i coudl think about seeing a psycologist and to come see her for a referal if i needed one.
so i went to seea botu some personal training yesterday adn there is a psycologist in the smae building. when i went to see about the pyscologist teh receptionist told me i can only see her if i am on a mental health plan. my doc said that havign a referal only makes it cheaper and i dont have to have one if i am willing to pay all the out of pocket expenses.
the problem is i would be fine to go back to the doc and get the referal but she has left and i dont knwo wat to do or sya to a new doc. i really dont feel comfy sayign any of this to anyone unless i really trust them and i feel so stupid liek it isnt a real prob and they will just laugh at me.

all this effects everythign i do i cant go out without feelign liek i am constantly being judged and i freak otu if i get asked to go out with friends and say i am busy.

please help wat do i do/say

Please go to another doctor, the sooner you fix yourself up, the sooner you will be happy about yourself and your life.
I've always struggled with my weight and had the same propblems at school as you have said so I know how you feel. I managed to get a bit of weight off so that I am happy. I think being happy is one of the most important things you can have in life!
Just tell the new doctor that you were seeing another doctor and you were up to the stage of discussing seeing a physcologist. Tell the new doctor that you have found one, but you just need a referal. The doctor should have the details on file which will say why you have been to the doctors the last few times. I'm sure they will understand. And the doctor wont laugh at you!
Fix yourself, take care of yourself! :D:p:D:pAnd be HAPPY!:p:D:p:D
HTH
Tally.

Oh sweetie... I can relate to almost everything you wrote. I have been through almost identical circumstances growing up and even now.

If you're worried about telling a new Dr, why don't you print off your post and show it to them. You really opened your heart and told us all how you're feeling and what you've been through and it may be easier to show that to a Dr rather than vocalise it if you're not feeling comfortable.
All the best hun. I hope you get the support you're after.

Hey hun,

I know what you are going through. I have always been a big kid. It ain't fun. And now i know the reason why. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2006. I can gain weight really, really easily and find it extremely hard to lose. The weight sticks.

Are you sure you have no underlying medical reason for your weight? Thyroid etc...

You need the motivation to lose weight. You need to exercise and cut out some of the junk which you might be eating. Don't cut all of it out initially, but do it gradually as you will then have a tendency to binge.

Are you able to go on walks or join a gym? I joined a gym and when i saw the numbers on the scales get smaller and smaller, the motivation increases. It made me feel great when i went to the gym. It is my happiness pill. When i am in a bad mood and haven't been to the gym for awhile, my DH can immediately tell, that i need to go to the gym and gain some confidence back. He told me that i am the happiest when i go to the gym. And it is true.

I am struggling with weight now. I was 64kgs, and ballooned to 69kgs in about 3 months. I don't go to the gym anymore and i feel like sh*t. I got duromine 15mg on Sunday and have been on them for a few days now. I can't feel any effect. I really need to drag my big a&se to the gym. That is the solution. If you find that Duromine helped, start taking them again, once you shed a few kgs and your pants feel that little bit looser, your motivation will increase.

If you need a psych, go to one, definitely. A happy you = happy family.

GL hun.:hug:

thanks for the replies.

td: i am gogin to see a personal trainer that way i have to do something if someone is watchign me. i am slowly cuttin out bad foods aswell and cutting down my meal sizes.
My doc did all blood tests and stuff to check that there wasnt anything stopping my weight loss.

I will make a appt wit a new doc soon. i just hate that when i start talkin about all this i get emotional and end up cryign but i guess if i do he will see that i do need the help lol.

Don't worry if you cry. The dr. isn't going to judge you just because you cried. It means that this problem is causing you a lot of pain emotionally. I've cried on numerous ocassions at the dr. Make a list of all the thins you want to say to him/her before you leave home.

A PT is a great idea.