Have I Gone Mad?

Maybe it's something to do with recently turning 40, but I've recently done a bit of a turnabout.

I'm usually very much a 'make do' sort of person, even though financially we're quite comfortable. I came from a very NOT comfortable financial background, so this is why I'm still very cautious and conservative when it comes to money matters. Usually, my thinking goes, "we MUST pay off the mortgage asap, after that you can live your dreams."

Anyhoo, the past two years has been very difficult from a physical and emotional point of view and now I'm tending towards the, "bugger it, you only live once" kind of thinking.

Examples:

Thinking of selling the house and renting somewhere big and lovely, then buying somewhere out of town once DSD leaves home.

Thinking of going on a cruise for a couple of months. Or a long overseas holiday. This from someone who rarely goes on holiday, let alone overseas.

Thinking of trying to work something out so that DP and I can both chuck our jobs in until DD goes to school.

We won't do all those things but thinking this way is UNHEARD OF for me.