Feeling in limbo

Today I feel just a little lost. Its been 3 weeks since I started bleeding and subsequently miscarried. I am sick of the bleeding. I just want it finished. The dr said it isnt from the baby anymore, possibly a polyp. So i have to get that sorted too...on a waiting list. I just feel like I am waiting and waiting...for things to finish and things to start. So I just feel a bit lost when I come on here...I come to this thread and dont feel like I should be here, I go on the ttc thread....not there either and then I go looking in my due date buddies and not there either. I do have my baby buddies, but I dont want to really talk too much about it all...it makes me feel lost and pondering things, so dont want to make them feel that too. Its funny because I really didnt think I was too effected by the m/c, but in some other ways I am.....just lost.

Thanks for listening
Melissa x o

Oh darling Melissa, I'm so sorry to hear that your little baby has gone and that your body is taking a while to sort itself out and heal. :comfort: I'm hoping that you don't have to wait too much longer.

Thinking of you and sending you all my strength, warmth and love. :hug:

And please know, there is always a place for you here on BB.

Rachel.

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It's so hard right now but it will get a bit better over time.This is great place to talk though if you need to as there is lots of support here. I really hope you are feeling better soon.

Oh Melissa.
I am so, so sorry for your loss. Please know that you are welcome and able to share here on BB anytime. You do have a place in BB.
I am wishing that things sort itself out real soon.

just some :hug: :hug: :hug: for you

Thanks girls. I do know I have loads of support on here, thats why I come a million times a day! The beauty of BB is I can just spill the beans and I know someone will listen...even if they dont know me. Its very comforting. Just today though...I am a little lost. I hate that my body is taking ages to recover. I just want it to be all over with so I can start again...or at least get on with things. Am hoping this feeling will pass as fast as it has dawned on me this morning.

:hug: Wishing you healing and peace. xo

Just wanted to give you big hugs :hugs:
I am so very sorry for your loss
xxx

:hug: xx

minimatron, it must be hard having the bleeding going on so long after a miscarriage, I really feel for you. I'm waiting for it to start and feel like a ghost rattling around the house. I too have been going from one place to the other today - not sure where to post, what I want to say. I don't want to bring my belly buddies down by posting there, I found the pregnancy after LT TTC forum after losing track of it and felt sad I hadn't posted there more often, as they understand the different feelings you have after such a long journey toward pregnancy. I started to post in the miscarriage stories here but when I read how terribly sad they were, I felt like I didn't really have the right to - our loss seems so small in comparison, even though I know it isn't. So I posted here. I'm a bit of a mess today :redface: sorry. I hope the bleeding stops soon and you can move forward. Waiting is very hard.

Alice x

Oh Mel,
I know exactly how you are feeling! After we lost our first bub @ 8 weeks I was crushed, then numb, then ok, then not. Its a long process and it has recently re-surfaced for me as we head down the ttc road again. I know that some days I felt ok but then I would be thrown back into the feelings due to that fact that I was still bleeding - I wanted it to stop so I could try and move on - I tottally get you on that.
Please be kind to yourself and take a while to heal and know that I am eveyone on BB is here for you.

As for the bleeding - I bleed for 3 weeks after my m/c and then a week of not then I got AF as well so I know what you mean.

Hope that helped even a tiny bit, please know that you are welcome to speak in our babby buddies group as well - we are all here for you!

Kate xox

Thanks girls...am having a much better day today. The bleeding has finally stopped. yay is all I have to say. It was really getting me down. So am off to have bloods done tomorrow then to the clinic on Friday. Hopefully thats it. Thanks for all your support, it means so much to me.

Alice, massive huge hugs, you sound so lost. i dont have many words for you that will even start to make you feel better. Just huge hugs.

To know there are so many ladies here to listen and give support is in itself so wonderful.

Mel,
I have no words, just a big :hug: and ears/eyes if you need to talk.
Thinking of you, your angel baby and Tara xx
Take Care

Mel, BIIIG HUGS FOR YOU!!!! Hopefully that special thing I posted to you today will arrive quickly and that it will help make you feel better :)

If you ever want to talk on here via pm etc, txt me or call me, let me know! I'm here for you darl!

You're in my thoughts at least once a day! Usually more times than that :)

I'm in the same position, I don't really know where I fit. We lost our baby just recently as well so we're not TTC yet either. Feeling in limbo land here too, so I know what you mean :hug:

Melissa, How did you go at the clinic?

I started bleeding in earnest today and I'm finding it quite upsetting. I rang the nurse who said it is common for it to get heavier 7-10 days after the D&C and that it should ease off after that and, depending where you were in your cycle when the baby stopped growing, another two weeks or so before AF starts. Sigh...seems like a long time to be going through the whole miscarriage and all the sad feelings associated with it.

Monday, I'm so sorry you are feeling lost too but glad you posted here so we can send you hugs and listen. Take care.

Alice
x

Hi girls,
I am feeling much better now. Its been 12 days since i stopped bleeding. I had my bloods done and hcg last thursday was at 3. The clinic was ok. I was able to give them a speciman (soory if tmi) that I passed and had kept in the fridge. They have sent it off for testing. The u/s place that I went to thought that i had a polyp and no products of conception left. Then I passed this and the bleeding stopped in 2 days. The dr looked at it and said he thought it was the sac.....so was that the ?polyp thing? Anyway, the hospital has booked me in for an u/s on Wednesday to have a look. Its all quite...all over the place! Hopefully have some answers soon.
I have been having some really heavy aching/cramping down low. I am a bit terrified of what my next af will be like....is it usually painful after a m/c?

Alice, am sorry to hear you have started bleeding again after your d &c. It seems like it just doesnt end. Big hugs to you.

Monday, I am sorry for your loss. Hugs to you too.