How i have managed to royally screw up motherhood
i have posted in the past hoping for a smidge of reassurance or maybe guidance i'm not quite sure why but here goes again i am truly nearly at my wits end i don't know how to fix what i have helped create i have a 15 year DD who thinks that she is 18 and speaks to me like i am dirt apon her feet yet not her father i have a 12 year that has anger issues and it feels like living in the swirling pits of hell and i have a almost 4 year old who was the sweetest little boy until 6 months ago now he won't sleep in his bed we have had one night in 6 months of unbroken sleep he wakes up screaming to come to our bed his overall behavour is absolutley disgusting and is becoming down right naughty and distructive he has been going to day care since he was a baby yet he crys every single day when you drop him off that i nearly got used too but now he has resorted to punching the day care staff as they try to console him i am so embarassed we don't hit in our house as a general rule though the 12 year old and and the 4 year old have altercations daily lately and i can't seem to get it through the bigger ones head that every thing he does and says at the moment is being absorbed the 4year old has been swearing throwing things and thats all if you don't get him what he wants straight away :( it is a 1000 times worse if you put him in time out or take some thing from him as punishment ...... i know this is all over the place but if you got this far well done any advice greatly appreciated i'm actully dreading going to pick him today i feel broken and extremely sad for feeling this way in the first place