Not sure what I'm asking, but can you help?

Ok this is going to seem all over the place and it kind of is. I am not really sure what I'm asking, but hopefully someone is able to help. I'm opening myself up to you all and really really hoping someone has something for me. Like I said I'm not sure what you'll have but hopefully its something.

My grandfather, who I was very close with and lived with for 15 years, passed away the afternoon I went into labour. it was a real shock for us all. He had been given a diagnosis of blood cancer just after his 80th birthday (3 months before he died), but didn't tell us. Then two weeks before he died he had a fall which caused a blood clot which travelled to his brain and caused a stroke. He seemed to get better, but then got worse and deteriorated very quickly. A few days before he passed Shel and I were with him, and we had just told him that we were going to use the name Jasmine Ray. His name was Raymond, and we thought it would mean a lot to him (my youngest brother shares his middle name and he was always very proud).

He then said something. I don't know what he said exactly as his speech was slurred, and he had just had a stroke. It sounded like 'carry her' or 'marry her'. Three syllables, with the really distinct sounds " *rry *er ". But the * were sounds that we couldn't make out.

I think about this daily. It's been 18, almost 19, months now. It has been a long drawn out process regarding his will and wishes. His home has just been sold, and in 13 days it will be settled and the whole thing will be over. Physically anyway.

Emotionally it's sitting there.

Does anyone have anything for me?

Leesha, this phrase just popped into my head while I was reading your post:

"Cherish Her"

I hope this helps you.
xxx

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Thank you darl. I never even thought of that, but it really fits.

I hope I can get some sign or feeling that this is right. I got tears and a shiver when I read it, because it fits with some other funny things that have happened, things that started when we came home from hospital after Jazz was born. It was his last words to us, I know I'll never know for sure but thank you, it means a lot that you replied xxxxx

When I read 'Cherish her' I got lots of shivers. Don't know what it means but got more feeling from that than the other two phrases.

My first thought was cherish her as well and when i read it i got chills.

Oh yes, definately. It fits so well. Ask him about it and maybe it will come to you in a dream. Just relax and be receptive to it.

awww i also got alot of chills and felt a cold wind (which is odd becos its very hot in my house!)

it could be anything and u will never no 100% but i agree keep your mind open..
i once wrote a letter to my grandfather because i wanted to say goodbye and i didnt really say goodbye because i didnt want him to die (the nurses were telling us to tell him its ok to go but i refused)
then a few nights later i had a dream about him and believe it or not it was about saying goodbye to him!!
whether it was because i was subconsiously thinking about it i dont no and i dont really care because i finally got to say goodbye in my own way...

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Not sure how practical it is for you now working and studying etc, but I would go and see a hypnotherapist. Because you did hear him, and your brain did understand it. You just need to recall and compute it. A hypno will be able to help you with that.
Will also help with the other thing too. xox :hug:

I think there is def something in it, it was quite cold in here last night so i thought i would come back and check my chills weren't from that... nope got them again in my nice warm comfy PJ's.