Forgot my EBM

Okay I know this is stupid, but I can't think to post anywhere that will understand.

I'm so tired with sleep deprivation being a single mama that after five months I asked a friend to take DS for the day - 8 whole hours.

I pack everything he needs for the day, drive 30 mins through peak hour to drop him off and discover I forgot his four bottle of EBM that were still in the fridge.

I cried when I found out, but I was just so tired and so needing a break I couldn't find the energy for a 1 hr round trip to go get them, so I handed her money and just said to find a chemist, talk to them about what brands/how much and give him formula for the day. I've never even had it in the house before so no idea about how to make it up or whatever, but she babysits formula fed kids all the time so didn't bother her.

I know I shouldn't feel guilty. It's only ONE day. But because breast feeding was so hard for me, and still is sometimes, I was determined to make it to one year so I could announce to everyone how proud I was he'd never even tasted formula. Stupid I know, but it was my goal. But faced with that one hour drive I just caved.

Has anyone else done anything similar? I know it's not a big deal, but to me it feels like a big deal!!

Aww :hug: it sucks to have to give up on that goal.

I understand why it feels like a big deal, in a way it is (because you've fallen short of your ideals), but at the same time it really isn't (because you've actually done really well and this choice was pretty reasonable under the circumstances).

Now, I hope you're having a good day on your break. Put your feet up and take some time out for yourself. I think you've earned it :hug:

Oh hun :hug: I hope you got the break you deserved today, regardless of what your little man drank. One day does not make you a bfing failure, or a failure in any sense of the world. It doesn't diminish your bfing achievement in any way!