Coming to terms with the universe...

...hopefully this makes sense, as I feel really confused at the moment and am fining it hard to come to terms with the universe.

I believe that things happen for a reason and as such I'm becoming angry with the universe, which I understand is not a healthy or good thing.

What I don't understand, why is the universe not allowing me to be a Mum? We've been TTC for almost a year now and nothing is happening. This morning I felt what have I done to the universe, to not be allowed the opportunity to be a Mum?

I think that in my mind if I had an ETA of when I'll be pregnant, I could be happy with that knowledge.

For now, I just want to :cry:

What strategies can anyone suggest to cope with this better?

(on a side note I've been seeing a kinesiologist, who has been good on some aspects of my life but not in the TTC area, saying that my body isn't ready and adding personal views to sessions such as 'what is the rush? My mum had me in her late 30s' 'there is so much pain in this world, why bring a child into that?')

*sigh*

Oh babe :( I don't know, I am so so far away from knowing any of the answers but I know that sometimes you have to just throw your hands up and accept that the universe knows and sometimes we may never know why things happen, just try and accept that it is for our own best and highest good x

Hugs hun, I think you have every right to question and be frustrated though - we'd be robots if we didn't x

My friend who is teaching me lots about Angels told me that she used to be very sick. Actually had a very bad cancerous growth removed, and the like. She always wondered "why was this happening" to her? And "how much more can I take?" Then she realised, she was 'asking' for more by the how much more can I take question.She figured that she had to turn it around, and start saying that she wasn't going to be sick anymore, wasn't going to be that person anymore who just sat back and let all the bad things come to her.

I guess what I'm trying to say is to turn around your thoughts of negativity, and try to think of the positives. I *am* ready to be a Mum. Something like that. I have been struggling with the universe lately too, and have started thinking about what it is that I myself am putting out there for me. I do understand how you feel about the TTC though, we were trying for about a year too, then pretty much gave up and it happened.

I hope it does come through for you, and that you will soon have an due date to tell us all about.

I'm not sure its right for your kines. to be adding personal opinions, the only thing I can offer there is perhaps they are trying to reassure you that its okay not to be getting pg, and a reason for it (cruel world).

:hug:

Thank you CQ and Netix for your replies.

Netix your posts makes sense, I need to turn my woe me's into positives. If anything I'm being taught the lesson of patience.

Another two pregnancies have been announced in the office this week, that makes a total of 3 people pregnant currently in the office with another 3 already on Mat Leave. I guess it's just a matter of time for me (statistically speaking).

Thank you again :hug:

no advice just :hug:

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:)

That's what faith is...

Maybe Motherhood is waiting until you learn to be at peace.

Have you tried mediation? That can help with learning to accept.

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Thanks Netti,
Everyone's replies are helping to direct my attention else where i.e away from the negative.

I was asked this arvo "there is a rumour going around the office that you or another person is UTD. Is it you?"

Took all my strength to say no. Instead I retreated to the toilets and had a moment.

Given that another lady approached me on Wednesday asking if I know of anyone that is pregnant in the office cause she had her predicted dream.

I can take these two situations as:
1. I'm the source of office info; or
2. There is a strong pull/energy towards me to cause people to question if I am UTD.
I'm hoping it's the latter :)

:dunno:

Thank you again for your replies and time it is greatly appreciated.

Clear your inbox!!!!!

Dr Demartini says that the universe is all about balance and when you have one sided perceptions you will draw to yourself things that will show you the other side to bring you back to balance. So...maybe (and this is a big maybe because I am still learning and I don't really know your situation) you're thinking about how wonderful your life would be if you had a baby - thats a fantasy and believing your fantasy is really detrimental.

Here's a couple of things from his book that might help...

"Why can't we be happy all the time? The answer is simple - because the one sided mask called happiness by itself is a fantasy and an illusion. The addiction to this one tiny illusion gives rise to a whole realm of social concerns - stress, heartache, hopelessness, anger, resentment, blame, depression and even suicide.

How can we be grateful for life when in our fantasy world we know exactly how life is supposed to be? I'm going to let you in on a big secret. Life is the way it is. If we want it to correspond to our fantasies, we are setting ourselves up for self-defeat, anger, frustration, negativity and ingratitude.

I am convinced that we cannot achieve fulfillment by running away from half of our life into the world of fantasies. I personally gave up happiness because it made me too sad."

So what i'm getting at is maybe you think your life will be better with a baby but until you realise the balance of your life as it is...the (perceived) good and bad things about NOT having a baby and also the positive and negative OF having a baby then maybe it will happen??

Again, I don't know and if this is totally wrong then i'm sorry but Dr D makes a lot of sense to me and I try and apply his ideas to most areas in my life.

Huge hugs hun xxxx

Ladies,
I was at the shops today and came across a Budda quote that hit home for me, it went something along the lines of "success does not create happiness, happiness creates success..." It had me thinking throughout the day.

Also your advice and suggestions allowed me to walk past a new born without having a woe me moment, instead I just thought "it'll happen"

Feeling much calmer today (tho not working and shopping could also result in this calmness)

Thank you again :)