Jesse- James 14/05/2010

Jesse- James Harold ******

13/5/2010

On the way to the hospital to be induced, i was surprisingly relaxed, wasnt thinking at all that the next time i leave this place ill have a baby. I was excited for what was to come! We find our way to the birthing suite, 10 minutes late because dad wouldnt hurry up! We get shown to our room and dad wants to play a game on his phone! I got up him and he came and laid on the bed with me waiting for the midwife. She didnt come for the next half hour so we just sat there waiting, while we were waiting the obstetrican came in and wanted to try out the new ultrasound machine, we said yes and were excied to see you for the last time in my tummy but we couldnt see anything because he wasnt very good at the ultrasound. The midwife came in to put the cervidil in and it hurt like heck! She also done a stretch and sweep, then we were off to the maternity ward. Once i put my bags down we went for a walk because dad wasnt allowed to stay the night with me, i cried a little because i havent spent a night away from dad the whole time weve been together let alone be in labour! I was contiunally being told nothing would happen overnight and the most the cervidil would do was dialte me enough for them to break my waters. I did not want that because i'd have to have a drip that makes contraction really hard and fast. We walked outside and i was getting pains, nothing serious, just period pain type cramping i ignored them but secretly wanted to be in labour so daddy could stay. Dad walked me back to the maternity ward and i gave him lots of kisses and told him i hope he'd get to come back really soon. I tried to lie down and go to sleep, i was watching paramatta play on t.v when i couldnt lie down any longer as i had this intense feeling in my back and had to sit up, i think i got out of that bed quicker than i'd moved in the last 41 weeks! I thought a shower might help, i also needed to go to the toilet, so i tried to go but couldnt so hopped in the shower with the shower head moving from my back to my tummy mainly my back, i started to think i was in labour. My waters had broken at this point so i put on a pad and buzzed the midwife, dad went to school with the midwife that was looking after me, so i felt very comfortable with her. She wanted to put me on the machine that monitors contractions, i hopped on the bed and the pains got worse, i told her i cant lie down but she insisted, once it was hooked up properly i was fighting so hard to stay on the bed but i couldnt i got out of bed and buzzed the midwife, told her i cant go on that and that i needed to go to the toilet, i noticed the cervidil had fallen out after only an hour of it going in. While i was in the toilet 3 midwives came in to tell me i wasnt in labour and panadiene would take the pain away, and i should take sleeping tablets because im in for a long haul. I knew i was in labour but i kept thinking, there the experts so i took them. The panadiene done nothing and the sleeping tablets made me all drowzy, i could barely even talk. The midwife that went to school with dad came back in and felt my tummy for 5 minutes and said im taking you to birthing suite, i was glad she believed me. I had to be in a wheelchair which i didnt like but it probobly would of taken 10 minutes for me to walk because i had to keep stopping to stamp my foot when i got a contraction. The midwife that met us at birthing suite stayed with me the whole labour, i felt like i couldnt of done it without her! She done an internal to find i was 5cm dilated after only 2 hours of being induced, i was wrapped! Dad came in now, i was so glad to see him there because i'd had the pethediene injection and wasnt allowed in the shower without him. I said take me for a shower and he whinged that he didnt have any change of clothes, so he just stood in asking me what was going on haha I started to feel a bit dizzy from the sleeping tablets and wanted to lie down and go to sleep but i couldnt! I started to think about an epidural at this point because i was sooo tierd i needed to sleep, i waited about an hour and then i asked for it. Im not sure how long it took for the doctor to come, but dad was very scared because it was a big needle. I finally got to lie down and sleep, although i could only nap in between contractions because i could still feel them and move my legs but the pain in my back had gone and was just feeling the contractions at the front now which was fine by me! I had no idea of the time, i think it was midnight by now and i was feeling a bit sick. Then i realized that with the pethediene they give you maxalon and that actually makes me sick!

14/05/2010

Dad was asleep in the chair next to me and i was wondering if i should call my sister to come up or not. At about 4 30 am the midwife done another internal to find i was fully dilated, and she could feel your head! I was called the dilating queen :-) It was time to push and i felt sick again so we waited about half an hour until i felt ready, dad went to go and call nonna and aunty toni rang to see how i was going, i asked her if she wanted to come up, she got there in 10 minutes flat. I'd had my drink of water, i kissed dad, i asked toni if shes ready and then it was time. I was pushing and pushing with each contraction. All i kept thinking was you better be out before my midwives shift is over at 7am. I kept looking out the window waiting for the sun to come up, praying you would be here before 7am. Before i knew it, i'd been pushing for 2 hours, the midwife rang the doctor to come and do an episoiotmy and use the vacuum because you were stuck. I instantly said yes because i was sooo tierd. At this point i was glad i had an epidural because the doctor put his hand up to turn your head the right way. The episiotomy was already done and it was time for the vacuum. Daddy didnt like this because the suction kept coming off, aunty toni and dad kept looking at your head. Your head was out and i felt myself tear a little bit, i didnt mind too much because the preassure from your head was unreal! You were starting to get distressed but i dont remember this, all of a sudden there were 3 doctors and 3 midwives in with me setting up the resus bag. With 2 more big pushes you were out and put on my belly, dad says i let out a huge sigh of relief. I couldnt see you just yet, but i knew you were there and safe with me. I was very happy. The midwife came over and took you, and i asked why are you taking him. The midwife told me that you were having a bit of trouble breathing and that you would be ok in a minute. I couldnt see what they were doing but dad says they were using the resus bag. After 2 minutes of that, i heard you cry, that feeling is indescribable. You were put back on my chest and you attempted to breastfeed, i held you for what felt like was only 5 minutes, dad said it was 30 and they had to take you again because you were breathing too fast. I didnt cry, i just laid there waiting until i could go and see you. Dad went with you and told me he'd be back really soon. He had already cut the cord and taken photo's. Then grandma, aunty erin and uncle billy came in and i was angry that she thought it would be ok. It wasnt, i didnt want visitors at all, i just wanted you. Grandma didnt leave, i had to make her so i could have a shower. She told me she'd be back up really soon, i had a shower but still felt a bit funny on my feet so i sat on the chair. Once i got dressed, i had to wait for the midwife to take me to see you but then anita came in and i started crying because i had to wait and it had already been 2 hours, and it was nice to not be on my own again. I cant tell you how wierd it felt to have just given birth but be without baby. Finally the wheelchair was bought in and i was allowed to see you, i dont remember who took me there, i think it was anita. You were on oxygen but you were allowed to try and breastfeed, you didnt do very well and had to stop because you got too worked up but boy did you try! I was so proud of you. Sadly an hour later you had to go over to intensive care because your breathing wasnt getting any better and put on the CPAP machine. At day 4 you were allowed your first feed, by tube, and it settled you alot. You hadnt lost any weight at all yet, but i was very scared because you werent fed for 4 days but out of the entire time you were in hospital you only lost 10 grams :-)

Apgar 1 minute : 4
5 minutes- 9
Time: 7.22am Luckily the midwife stayed with me past her shift :-)
Weight- 3680, 8 pound 2
Length: 53cm
Head: 34cm