REALLY confused and scared, not sure what is wrong with me.. and have surgery coming!

Hi everyone,

This might seem ridiculous, but I need help.

I am 29, I have put on quite a bit of weight recently, I was 71kgs, and I am now 110kgs a year later... due to my own fault, and stressful things happening...

I was trying to get pregnant with my partner, who is also 29, and I stopped getting my period in December 2009, then I found out via an ultrasound that I actually had big lumps in my uterus... and a lump on my ovary. Then with more scans, found out I have an 8cm fibroid, and some smaller fibriods, and a cyst on my right ovary.

I was promptly booked in for a myomectomy by my gyno, Martin Healey in Melbourne.

I was shocked and scared and didn't really ask at the time, and now I am worried...

Did this all happen due to my weight gain?! Surely, it must have had an impact.

The reason I ask is because I have an awfully bad feeling about surgery. At this weight I am frightened I am too unhealthy to cope with it, and on top of that, what if I have to have a hysterectomy.

The reason I wrote in this forum too is because I don't know much about PCOS and Endo, and maybe I have one?!?

I have thin thin thin hair, I have hair on my chin and side burn areas, which is getting worse, I haven't had a period since December, only spotting once in around May.... I have gained all this weight sooo quickly, I struggle to lose it, I have these fibroids, I get cysts all over my body, I just also found out through a blood test that I may have a fatty liver, which I still haven't followed up on, and I recently found a lump in my left breast, which turned out to be a swollen lymph node, but I am still frightened.

Can anyone help me? I don't have a lot of money, so I don't want to go and spend the money on a specialist appointment with Dr Healey again when he will just tell me to have surgery, and I don't know who to see or how to even go about finding out what the heck is wrong with me?

I know it has to be weight related, as I am not in the dark about how bad my eating habits have been recently, but how can I see the right person to help me, or tell me what I have?

If I have any chance of making my fibroids smaller via healthy lifestyle, or losing weight via a PCOS program if that is what I also have.. then I will.... I just don't know where to start... :(

Oh darl! I have no advice but just wanted to give you great big hugs!!! Now i know nothing at all about PCOS, but i THINK, dont quote me on this that the pcos makes you put on weight? Oh honey, your in my prayers, were all here for you here on BB. It sounds like you havent been told much about side effects of pcos and endo, i think you need to speak to a doctor about it, get some print outs and do some research. Big hugs darl x

thanks Emma, i am so lost.. i don't even know what to do.. i am very much overwhelmed by the internet too, i mean, the amount of stuff online that is only making me feel more confused!!!

Mizzi37- Hey hun, sounds like you are having a tough time at the moment. I have some of an idea how you're feeling. I have PCOS and endo, and it was a tough ride to get diagnosed and to accept it myself!
Just a couple of points for you. I was 95kg when I had my surgery (I had hysteroscopy, laproscopy and ovarian drilling) and came through it safely. If you do end up having surgery I'm sure it will be perfectly safe.
Some of the symptoms you describe sound like PCOS to me. They are symptoms I have also (hair on my chin/sideburns, weight gain, ovarian cysts...) Maybe talk to your GP, they should be able to diagnose you with an ultrasound if that is what you have.
You'll notice I had IVF to fall pregnant but don't let that scare you. I have other issues (blocked tubes etc) that meant i needed IVF, I know lots of PCOS sufferers who have fallen naturally.
The best eating plan if you do have PCOS is a high protein, low carb, low GI diet.
Hope I've given you a couple of starting points and a little hope.
xxx