I just cant do it anymore :(
Im 36 weeks pregnant with bubba number 5. My previous 4 pregnancies were a dream. Absolutely nothing to complain about. Only this time round its been the pregnancy from hell!!
In the first trimester I had bad morning sickness (why anyone would go through more than one pregnancy after that is beyond me...hats off ladies to those of you who have), then that dissapated. Yippee!! Only as soon as the morning sickness left at about 16 weeks, I ended up with debilitating headaches and extreme fatigue. This went on until well into the second trimester. At about 25 weeks I was wondering where this "energy and alive feeling" i was supposed to be having. I must have skipped it, because no sooner had I gotten the headaches under control from painkillers from the doc, I came down with SPD. Fan bloody tastic!! And the pain, geebuz, just got worse. I could sit, stand, walk, sleep, nothing. :wall:
Ok so I had to learn to live with feeling like my hips and groin were splitting in half. Not easy, but I got through it. A referral to physio diagnosed SPD. Then at about 30 weeks, (after finally learning how to manage some sleep time of a night time) I started waking up with the most dreadful pain in both my arms. And it was the whole arms that were affected. Seriously?!?!?!
So off to the docs I trundle again, and was told that it was just fluid retention, nothing he could do and to deal with it. :( Thanks for nothing doc. My midwife suggested some wrist splints and referred me again to the physio, who diagnosed it as severe pregnancy induced carple tunnel syndrome. Oh goody, just what I always wanted!! Anyways after teaching me massage together with the splints I reckon I had a week maybe where I finally slept. I have never been as exhausted in my life as I was at this stage. Weeks of not sleeping and living on a mere few hours of sleep a night has not been a game I want to play again.
But my relief was very short lived. The splints and the massage stopped working so now im back to waking up from 2pm onwards and having to get up for the day because the pain is so intense.
But wait, theres more!! After some high blood pressure (which Ive never had before) a bladder infection which kept my temps raised at 38 - 39.0, I find out that my little mr is breach. Ok so now we are talking C Section. Yippeee this pregnancy will end before its supposed to - hallelujah!! (I know that sounds bad, but somethings just gotta give!!).
Only problem is next visit to my midwife indicated that bubba was head down. Back to full term we go. I have a scan on thursday just to confirm positioning (I really hope he is still breach as horrid as that sounds).
But Im at a stage where I just cant do it anymore. I am so mentally and physically exhausted. I want to sleep. I want some pain free moments through out the day. I just want my body back. I spend too much time being emotional and crying because nothing is resolving these pains and symptoms and Ive been told that only delivery will. Thats still 4 weeks away!! Im seriously not going to make it another 4 weeks. Im so down and worried that the way im feeling will effect the way I bond with my new bundle of snuggles but no ones listening to me. I know you guys cant do anything either, but seriously this nightmare seems it will never be over! :(
