Doesnt feel like Christmas

Its not cause im getting older either :(

Every year, we spend Christmas eve with my parents and have a traditional German Christmas....have a huge meal, sit and laugh, have a glass of wine, more food, unwrap pressies, have fun with the kids.....

This year my parents are over 1000km's away, celebrating Christmas with my turd of a sister and brother...celebrating our Christmas with them!!!

Im sitting here in my lounge room, alone cause J has taken the kids to get some milk and stuff, wondering what to make for tea as normally we have either a traditional knackwaust and pototoe salad tea with nibblies.

Instead of grinning like a dope at my mum and my daughter giggling together like best friends im looking at an empty seat.

I really feel like crying right now :( I dont want to grow up *stomp* I want my mummy home for Christmas :crying:

Aww Maz!! Sad :( great big hugs.

Maz totally know how you feel hun!! Christmas with my family is usually a huge deal and we make present wrapping and things last the whole day, everyone is happy and enjoying themselves. We have our own little traditions and I just love it, from getting up early just like we were when we were kids. But this year i'm not even going to get to see them, any of them! And haven't seen them for the last almost 3mths!

Sorry didn't mean to make it sound about me, just wanted to let you know I know how you feel and your feelings are definitely valid! I had a sook about it to DH last night so i'll join you in the not wanting to grow up group!

ive had 2 chrissys without my mum and it does suck
:( :hug: but i do get to see her later on which is ok too :)

:( hugs hon I understand how it would be bad :( I hope next year she will be at your place for Xmas eve for your beautiful Eve German Xmas.... thinking of you xxxx

That sounds horrible! I've invited all the in laws around tonight for a christmas eve dinner, that's how I get in the mood for Christmas.
Definitely sucks when Christmas is like any other day. :hug:

Aww, hugs! I understand what you're saying.
By now I would normally be at mums having a yummy Chrissy eve baked dinner. We usually open our pressies after dinner with the kids and christmas eve is a big deal. Instead, I am here alone with the kids whist DH is at work until 4am tomorrow. Dinner will be toasted sandwiches. The kids are in fine form, sooking and whining and I am so not in the mindframe to be dealing with them constructively.
Tomorrow should be a bit better, we're going to a friends for breaky, and we will have our baked dinner tomorrow just us together. But it won't be the same. I won't be seeing extended family, I won't be sleeping at my mums with my babies opening their santa pressies all together. I won't see mum, my bro's or neice and nephew open thier pressies. It will be DH me and the kids, which is lovely we have each other and I am trying to be spirited and christmassy, trying to make new traditions and things, but right now, I just want to go to bed til it's all over.

Sorry for the poor me, but I know the feeling. It just doesn't feel quite right.

Hugs Maz, I am not seeing my mum because my brother refuses to have Christmas dinner only lunch when we can't go and he isn't talking to my dad so he won't go when we are there, so my girls miss out on their nanna, uncle and aunty.

Awww Maz, I feel your pain. My family is all interstate and it's very quiet without them. We usually have a really chilled day with too much food. It will just be DD, DP and I this year and it's actually really an odd feeling! :hug: hun!

aww maz you poor thing..silly brothers and sisters hey hun :)

You know though, although it feels like crap Im luck deep down....cause I know that mum will be home next month and I can see her again.

I know so many wonderful woman out there who are unable to hold let alone ring to say Merry Christmas their loved ones. My little whinge is nothing to be honest....these woman feel pain that is 1000 times more in depth then what im feeling.

Merry Christmas to all those who are missing a loved one this year. I hope that although its painful, that you can remember how much you ment to them.

xxx

that may be true maz, but your pain is significant to you :(
we all understand.
and we all have little things which break us, and letting them out allows us to stay strong and reflect on everything we DO have.
so don't be sorry or dismiss your OP.

You miss your mum and I know how that feels, yes you will hold her next month and you could ring, but it doesn't make those things you hold ever so dear and give you a spark of love and hope each year appear.

huge hugs..

sorry you're christmas isn't very christmassy.. mine either, i've just had my first teary of the weekend. we usually do a massive day at my grandmas', with all the cousins etc, this year grandma is in India. if that wasn't bad enough, my mum and step dad are in Afghanistan. it frigging sucks, i want all my family together.

Hope you still have a good day tomorrow xoxo

I'm sorry your mum is so far away this year and you're missing your Christmas traditions Maz :hug:

I'm spending Christmas Eve cleaning my bathroom and washing my floors. I'm trying to get psyched about tomorrow as it's DD's first real Christmas, but all I want is my mummy. She loved Christmas and would go all out to make it special for everyone. I want to honour that but it's all I can do to not bury myself under my doona until 2011. Sorry, I don't mean to hijack, just wanted to join in the pity party.