I'm at the end of my tether with looking!
I'm so over looking for work. I've been looking for 6 months and still nothing. I've been flat out told I'm too old for jobs in stores and places like McD's, and all the jobs I'm actually qualified for are asking for a minimum experience level of 3 years! For entry level jobs! How the **** are people supposed to get experience if nobody is willing to give them a damn chance?!?!?! And the government jobs take MONTHS to get back to you - I dont have months! We've been living on damper and two minute noodles for the last week because we haven't had enough money for food! Centrelink arent giving me any help as DH earns like $100p.a more than he's allowed to and its just so frustrating:wall::wall::wall:
I feel like there's something wrong with me, or someone is blackballing me or something! It's killing my self esteem, every time I get another "Unfortunately you have been unsuccessful" email I burst into tears! I've never had this much trouble finding a job before - I've been working since I was 12 and still nobody wants me! I've worked in hospitality, retail, government, and finance, and am a fully qualified environmental scientist who graduated with honours! This shouldn't be happening! I did the right thing! I slugged out 4 years at uni and worked at least 2 jobs the whole time for what? A cosmic ***** slap it seems.
And now that I've started getting pregnancy symptoms I'm scared I wont be able to get a job anywhere if I get a BFP when I test either tomorrow or Friday. I just feel so defeated :(
Sorry for writing war and peace but I'm just so frustrated and I feel bad because DH gets upset when I'm upset and I don't want to pull him down with me :(
/end rant.