I am so depressed......

Hey ladies,
[TMI warning]

I don't know where this goes, but I am really really depressed tonight. Managed to DTD last Thursday and I don't think it worked- again! I think we missed by 2 days!

The hard part is that sometimes I have 30 days cycles, others shorter. My last 2 cycles have been 30 dayers. Last monday (sorry TMI) I woke up and there was so much EWCM I had to get up before it got all over the sheets. I felt what I think I get and nick named the 'post ovulatory burn' across my abdo about either Tuesday or Wednesday, but my CM was still thin and stretchy and clear. Thursday my man had to come into town from the farm. Up until yesterday (4th) its been u.know how it goes- 'is that him or me'... and last night there was still some of that with this big clump of snotty jelly in it. Today I am 100% dry except at lunch time came a desperate need to run to the loo and wipe, it was the same snotty colour.

Being dry and that kind of CM is usually normal when I will continue toward a period.

How can it be so heart breaking I feel like its never going to happen, wasn't meant to be and my heart is bleeding more than A.F !:shakehead:
I can't describe this ache in my heart. I know you all have been there too, butwhen you are 40 and have no children at all it hurts just a bit more.

sorry ladies, I just need a good cry I think.

Mejane:cry:

:hug: TTC is a really painful and heartbreaking journey. How long have you been TTC? My mum is 41, and she just had a baby a week ago....it will happen darl :hug:

I'm sorry I have no advice. I just couldn't read and not post.
The TTC rollercoaster is a very hard one and can take time. It sux when our bodies decide to change and completely confuse us!
All I can say is, where possible, go at it like rabbits.... Well thats all I did.

Wishing you all the very best for BFP really soon. :comfort:

I'm sorry to hear you are having a crappy time ttc. It really is hard work - I remember the sex-ed chat at school and was terrified of falling pg by accident - well I know now that is rubbish!

It sounds like you roughly can pinpoint O day, so like Tiff said, try to do it as often as you can - sperm can live in a fertile environment for up to five days.

Just remember - you aren't out until AF shows. GL

Sorry you're struggling at the moment :hug: Go have a cry, it's always good to acknowledge your feelings, and sometimes self-induldge in them a little. Have you thought of DTD every 2nd day when you don't have AF? It might be worth a shot, and would take a little of the pressure off trying to catch the right time...

Oh, mejane :hug: TTC can be so heartbreaking. I'm sorry you're feeling so down.

Longer cycles are a pain in the butt. I agree with the others though, maybe DTD every couple of days during your fertile time so you don't put so much pressure on to perfectly time it to O? Easier said than done - but perhaps worth a try...?

You're not doing anything wrong. Be kind to yourself - lots and lots of hugs.

Cry all you need hun, My OH is an 'out of towner' too so I know how hard it is for them to be there at the 'right time'.
:hug: