Pregnant again after stillbirth
On 15 December 2010 our lives changed when we got the news that our unborn son wasn't going to make it. We were told that he had a 1 in a million combination of conditions meaning his heart would never beat for itself and if he lived to be born which was only a 50% chance, he would be hooked up to machines for the majority of his lifr which at the most, could only be 10 years.
On 24 December 2010 I gave birth to our son, Chase when i was 22 weeks and 2 days pregnant. We held our beautiful liuttle boy and said our goodbyes. I didn't think I could handle being pregnant again... that was until we scattered Chase's ashes on 14 January 2011. That was a huge letting go for me and my Husband. By that time it had been a month of grieving as we began grieving before labour was induced.
Today I have discovered I am pregnant again. We are so hopeful. I am so delighted it hasn't taken long. We have been told we are 3-4% chance of another baby having a heart condition, but still 1:1,000,000 for the same problem happening.
Surprisingly, I am more concerned about getting to 12 weeks... then i can become concerned about that 18 week scan.
I am not religious, but i am starting to pray... the universe took our son away and it has killed us but now we have a chance to have the baby we so longed for... I don't know why Chase couldn't have made it... i would be on maternity leave from work right now... his due date is only 5.5 weeks away... that day will be a tough one... please let this baby be ok.
