Riding another wave of grief..

In short, I feel like crap :( Emotional, sad, longing for my babies, angry that I'll soon be going through my 3rd Easter without them. Sad that I would rather work on Easter because it's too painful to do anything else. Sad that Mothers day is following soon after. I thought it would get easier. It has on a day to day basis, but events are still so hard! I'm angry with myself that I haven't closed my wardrobe door for days do the 1st thing I see when I wake up is a box of unused baby stuff :( (might go close that door now!)

Angry that (unrelated to baby loss) I'm broke and because I am working C'link has cut my payments, so between work and TAFE I'm doing 6 days and it's hardly worth it, but I don't want to quit work. Angry that my neck is in pain, so every day I wake up with a headache. I just don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life, but nothing will ever bring my babies back. There are always going to be periods where I feel like this. I just hate it and it's unfair! :(

Whinge over for now..

:hug: :hug: whinge away as much as you want, thinking of you xoxox

Hugs hun I am so sorry you are feeling like this, I wish I had something to take your pain away but unfortunatly I can't offer more than a hug or 100. :hug::hug::hug::hug:

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:hug::hug: hun, thinking of you.

Regards,
Dianne

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:hug: Babe I understand the anger more than I ever wanted to :hug:

I'm so sorry x

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oh sweetie been there done that I had 3 easters 3 bdays 4 xmas 2 fathers day after we lost Katy till we had Jack and yep each and everyone of them sucked .. even today when I look at my boys and thinking of things to odo for easter that little part of me wants to curl and up and forget it cause Katy isn't here

I pray this is you last easter without a babe in arms many many many :comfort: