Will I ever stop stressing?
Just need a bit of a vent...I am 29 weeks with my second and this pregnancy was not planned. I struggled to get my head around it for a long time as myself and my hubby had pretty much agreed we only wanted the one child.
My daughter is amazing but like a lot of kids has never slept well (she is 3 now and still doesn't sleep through the night) and on top of that she has been hard work food-wise too...anyway we love her to bits and are so glad we have her but we decided to have a break from babies for a long time, or more likely, for good.
SO this pregnancy was a shock to me - we had to go through fertility treatment to get pregnant last time so it was a big surprise when I got pregnant on holiday last year!
I had started to get a little excited about the baby but now the excitement has gone away and I can't stop worrying. When I have a bad day for whatever reason, if I'm not well, or tired or my daughter has been a handful I just keep thinking that I am never going to be able to cope with another baby. I was always anxious with my daughter, hated hearing her crying and I am really worried I am going to struggle with this new baby.
I know most women would have some level of anxiety about adding to their family but I seriously cannot feel excited about it, in fact I am kind of dreading it. Of course the baby will be loved when he/she is here but I don't know how I will handle it all...I had recently gone back to studying and was enjoying focusing on my own goals now that my daughter isn't a baby anymore...we have also just moved in to our first home and are only just making ends meet now that we have a mortgage...aarrggghhh the list goes on about what I am stressing about!
I realise I am very lucky in many ways but I just can't see it like that at the moment, I keep thinking that my world is going to fall apart!
