Hi. Ttc for 2 years.

I have been ttc for 2 years. I have a 7 year old son and last night I cried myself to sleep. It's been really hard, I have never been on any birth control at all. In all my life.

I have a chemical imbalance in my pituitary gland in my brain which secretes 6 times the normal level of prolactin so my body always thinks it's pregnant which makes it impossible for me to conceive without some form of medication. I have been having blood tests for the last year every 2 weeks to monitor the hormone levels closely and will have to continue having these.

On the 24th of May I had a Laparoscopy, Hysteroscopy, D & C and the dye injected into my falopian tubes to check for blockages.

The recovery was a lot worse than I thought but a lot of people have had pretty good recoveries after these procedures so I guess I am just a little unlucky. I got an infection in my belly button after the surgery and the pains from the CO2 were awful.

This sounds really stupid but the reason I cried myself to sleep last night was because a girl at work told me she was pregnant after her and hubby had only been trying for 2 months. Usually I just expect this kind of news.. Im kind of used to everyone else having children around me. Since tying to concieve there have been 5 babies born at my work. Its only now that there wasn't anyone pregnant at work so at least it wasn't always being flaunted in my face but now its all happening again.

I like this girl at work and I am genuinely happy for her and hubby but on the inside I am really hurting and feel like a failure.

So I have decided to join a forum as of today, to maybe help with the emotional side of things. I'm hoping that maybe someone on here will be able to help us all get though it. I feel for everyone especially those who have been trying for longer or aren't already a parent. My heart goes out to you all.

I talked to the ob specialist a couple of weeks ago and he has given me clomid to take for the next 10 cycles hopefully that helps. Have any of you had any success with clomid. I sure hope so... I guess I just have my good days and bad days.

Me and my partner have been together for over 10 years and have a wonderful relationship. We feel like we would have so much to offer another child and can't wait to be blessed with the pitter patter of little feet.

Goodluck to all. XoX my thoughts are with you.

*massive hugs*

welcome to BB. TTC journey is so unfair!! you will find heaps of people here who are going through the same thing, and more who have gotten through it and are on the other side. most of all you will feel so much love and support.

really hope the clomid works for you!!!

hi and welcome to belly belly, i have a lot of the same problems you have, i have high prolactin levels too and have had a pituitary tumour, are you on medication to keep your prolactin low so you can ovulate ? it won't help taking clomid unless your prolactin is low.

i have had 2 children with clomid but since then have had 3 miscarriages with natural pregnancies.

:hug: for you, it is so hard seeing people get pregnant after a short time when you have been trying for so long, a lot of girls here understand that

:hug: Welcome to BB! I was exactly where you were - overwhelmed and sick of TTC, so I decided to join a forum for support. It was the best decision ever. BB is such a big, lovely community. I was also TTC for two years...and I gave birth to my daughter two weeks ago :) I hope the clomid works for you, good luck!

Welcome Starflyy!

DOn't be too hard on yourself it sounds like you've been through a lot and have a lot to deal with. Love the forum so much it is great to chat with others in similar situations and hope you find lots of support here. Good luck hun!

Welcome Starfly,

You will find lots of wonderful support here on BB, good luck with your journey xo.

Hi Starfly & welcome to BB!

You will find tons of information and support here. Join one of the LTTTC threads, where you can gain support with others who are in a similar situation to you.

Hey there Starflyy, sounds like you have had a rough journey. TTC is so hard, but having the friendship and advice of the lovely ladies on here is a real blessing. I'm taking Clomid too, come hang out in the 12+ and LTTC/Clomid threads.

Best of luck x

Hi Starfly,
Joining Belly Belly was the best thing i ever did for TTC! I got all the support I needed here, without it I don't know how I would have coped. You feel so alone when you run into problems while ttc, so it's nice to know there are others going through the same thing.
Good luck with your ttc journey xx

Thank you all, I am overwhelmed by the amount of support and responses. I feel better already through just reading your kind words. I am on meds to help with my prolactin, I had my head checked for a pituitary tumour but it looks a little enlarged but no tumour that was just a ct scan though.

I feel a lot better this week, sometimes it's a bit like a wave.. ups and downs. Congrats on your beautiful daughter pumpkinzulu. That is the most wonderful news. I hope you are feeling well and enjoying your special moment with all those who love you.

Baby dust to everyone! xxx