ivf rollercoater

Hi guys,

Ive started ivf. My first cycle was cancelled due to OHSS, had over 50 eggs per ovary, wasnt well!! crap time. Started my second cycle and currently at cd18, been on injections for 17 days (have to go slow because of my body is whacked up).
Over the ast two days i have been a mess, crying and just being miserable. I honestly thought i had ovulated as i hadn't been on orgaultran. I went in for a scan this morning and i still have little follies!!! i balled my eyes out when i saw them. I cant believe i have gone from complete misery to happiness, what a rollercoaster!!
I have another scan on thursday in the morning. Today i had 2 dominant follies in either ovary about 15mm in size, but heaps of others around 10mm. I just hope they grow!!!
Thanks guys for listening. My husband is away with work at the moment, and i have been stewing on this by myself. I'd prefer the people close to me dont know each step, they either dont understand or dont really care.
I have been reading the forums on this site for awhile and its helped me. I hope you dont mind if i join in, its good to read what other things you strong ladies are going through.
Thanks :)

me 27 hubby 49
i have pcos/insulin resistant/healthy weight
hubby (sperm is fine)

Ivf cycle 1 - cancelled
ivf cycle 2 - 75ui puregon cd 19

Welcome Rollercoaster. Oh how I remember being emotional when doing my stim cycle, those hormones sure know how to mess with your mind.

I hope you get that BFP very soon.

Janie xxx

Hi and welcome.
You certainly aren't the only one who preferred to keep your step by step journey quiet from those close to you. I think we all find the comments and questions too much to bear on top of the actual process itself. My DH was a shift worker too and i spent many hours alone with my PC and a very special group of TTCers who held my hand through all my ups and downs.

OHSS is awful, i hope this cycle turns out much better for you.

Jo

Hi welcome to BB! Come and join us in the LTTCAC forum. There are a few of us in there atm. Best of luck for this cycle

Oh thanks guys, :) Its funny, you think your alone in this whole whacked up process of injections, scans, worry and crap outcomes, then lovely strangers put a big smile on your face. Thank you all.
Ill keep you all updated and will look out for everyones updates.
Thanks again

:) xx

:welcome:

I've only just joined as well, and am finding it really helpful - total strangers, but there's a common ground to chat about things.


I have found it such an emotional journey, and my hubby goes away on saturday this week - I have my blood test next wednesday (16th) so I'll find out if it's a BFN or BFP without him!! so shattered! He'll be in Japan for training, and won't be back until 26th :crying:

10 days to wait for a cuddle....!!!

thank goodness I have a bunch of girlies on here to keep me company on the long nights

Good luck rollarcoaster2117

Hi Rollercoaster,

I too am only new :-0
How scary the OHSS must have been. I remember reading about that and was so worried.
I also remember seeing some dominant follicles with some smaller ones. Don't worry, they should all grow just fine. Mine were a little small but by egg collection they collected 6 eggs in total. Those smaller ones just needed a little more time.
I also have PCOS and insulin res. My weight isn't too bad, I always think that I could lose some though (Hehehe!).
I hope you find this forum useful, I certainly have. Its always comforting to know that there are other girls on here going through the exact same thing as you. :D

Veronica24
(In the TWW)

Welcome to the forum. There are some wonderful people here and I hope you feel comfortable and supported here :)

My daughter is a little IVF/ICSI/PGD princess. We went through IVF to conceive her due to genetic reasons (to have PGD) rather than fertility reasons (we are both proven fertile already) so my journey was a little different to many. I can certainly understand the rollercoaster of emotions though. Because I knew we were both fertile and I was able to fall pregnant I think I went into the IVF journey a little too optimistic and despite the "odds" I honestly believed that we would get our baby on our first cycle. It turned out that every single embryo from our first cycle had chromosomal abnormalities. Apparently the rate of abnormalities in 3 day old embryos is usually around 50% (I never knew it was that high!!!) so our rate was significantly higher. I was gutted! We were then sent for chromosomal testing on ourselves to make sure we weren't passing on any problems, but came the tests came back all clear. Just bad luck apparently.

Our second cycle our bad luck seemed to be continuing. With even more embryos this time, and yet only one single precious embryo was chromosomally perfect. We have a sweet little photo of her as a bundle of cell "hatching" on day 5 just before she was transferred to me. We were told the odds of falling pregnant were about 20%, but I was adamant that our odds were much higher than that. Luckily that precious little embryo was a strong fighter, and my sweet baby girl turns 10 months tomorrow.

Whilst the journey was certainly rough on the emotions at times, the outcome was more than worth it and I would do it a million times over when I look into my daughters eyes. I wish you all the best of luck because anyone that wants a child deserves to be able to feel that amazing love when you gaze into your child's eyes ♥

Hi Rollercoaster
There is great support here on BB. I like you have been on the IVF rollercoaster, and if oftens feels like a very lonely journey, which is why something like BB is an essential support tool. I am a really stong person emotionally, but I also didn't want to tell anyone (but work) because I found that having other people know added to the burden, even if they were supportive. It's like their dissappointment added to my own.

The only thing I would do differently if I had to do it again is take up the offer of counselling through my clinic. Some of the nurses have apalling people skills which can impact the journey far more than I think they will ever realise, so having a friendly and supportive voice to talk to would have been beneficial. I think all clincs in Australia have to provide it as part of your cycle. It would have been smart to have spoken to someone completely independant instead of talking (and crying at times) to myself!

I wish you all the strength in the world on a journey which can lead to a BFP much quicker than you might imagine :D