nothing to freeze :-(

just got my letter saying "unfortuantely none of your embryos were suitable for freezing"
crap, crap and double crap.

stood stationary and read if over and over trying to make sense of it. was really expecting to have two left overs.

Strangly enought I'm not crying, and that feels weird. Perhaps it's because I'm still quietly positive that the little blob inside me is sticking - I'm too scared to think about how I'll feel if the Blood test next wednesday comes back with a :bfn:

oh I really wish DH wasn't going overseas on saturday :-(

:hug: thats a tough one. I really hope you get a bfp babe x

:hug::hug: sending sticky vibes your way xx


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thanks Saffy.

There really is nothing anyone can say, but it's nice to know that someone, somewhere, gets it.

ahh... there are the tears....

Gunna go and cook some dinner to stay occupied till DH gets home.

FX for a sticky bubba in your tums right now. FWIW, my gf had nothing to freeze & fell pg with her one little embie & has a son now.

Just want you to know you aren't alone. I hope for you a nice BFP and a big hug of support :)

Thanks Lairdoz,

Thanks Rhi, somehow that is comforting.
Unfortuntely as we're all connecting here because we've had trouble for a long time and it's hard to find stories of those who were successful first go - it's so much easier to notice and dwell on the negatives - human nature really.

and I'm feeling so emotional about it all at the moment anyway - and he is leaving on saturday, and there hasn't been much 'action' in the bedroom due to the EPU, ET and subsequent crinone 'deposits' I'm feeling so distanced from DH - but I do have trouble talking to him about how I feel so I haven't really said anything, but I'm missing him already, and he hasn't even left yet!

maybe a cuddle on the couch is required tonight. :inlove:

Oh bum! I hope you get your BFP anyway
Good idea about cuddles on the couch

Myturn,

Sending you lots of hugs. I hope it all works out the way you dream of.
My story is very similar & our one n only lil embyie on the last cycle we were going to do( financial & sanity reasons) is now happily growing in my belly. Hang on to hope xx

Ooh! Congrats Bex, and thanks.

Oh poo bum :( sorry hun.

Just in addition I should have thought of this before but was just reminded as my cousin just then called me on Skype.

On her first cycle, my cousin who has PCOS only had one make it to transfer, with nothing to freeze - so only one chance (I think she had five embryos fertilise. This little embryo just turned two and was chatting to me on Skype. My cousin is now pregnant with her second IVF baby due in early January with exactly the same scenario. It does happen - it DOES happen! :)

okay, feeling much better with all the support from you guys. thanks heaps.

DH came home and also seemed disappointed - for me more than himself I think - but kinda nice. I left the letter where he couldn't miss it by the front door so he'd just read it and I wouldn't have to say anything (and TBH (to be honest) maybe I was testing him a little :redface:

anyway.... said his boss had asked him how things were going the other day. Boss used to work on machines and equipment used for IVF (they are engineers - DH services and installs pathology equipment), and apparently he said that frozen embryos are often less successful than fresh.

dk if that is true or not. anyone know?

We had one lonely emby - and nothing to freeze and now have a happy, healthy 2yo - it really only takes one :) Hang in there babe, you may just have a sticky one making a comfy home in there right now

Re Fresh v Frozen - Embryo Freezing Technologies have really improved in recent years, I have many IVF friends have have had babies from fresh and frozen emby's - it really is a lottery sometimes

It really does only take one, and you are PUPO.

Re fresh vs frozen I think the stats overall still favour fresh.

Good luck honey. Sending you loads of sticky vibes.

Janie xxx

just sending thanks to those I missed.... Ash, Maruschke, Mad B and MummyNaomi

am feeling okay with the whole thing, and much better - really appreciate the support - I didn't think I'd get as much out of this as I have. So thankyou all so much.

7 days to go.......

if I POAS would it show up yet??? I'm not a POAS addict.... and don't want it to be -ve so probably won't.... just wondering..... maybe I will early next week -- especially if AF doesn't show....
ET last wednesday - D22, and I'm due anytime now (D29), till saturday..... but have been as late as D35 before...

just wait hun, bfns are just depressing

I'm another success story, so don't lose hope. From our 2 IVF cycles we had 17 embryos and only one of them was chromosomally normal. That one precious embryo was transferred and she's my gorgeous 10 month old daughter :)

Best of luck!