how do you not think the worst

Hi guys,

Et was yesterday and all went well. Out of 5 eggs, 4 fertilised with icsi and suitable for freezing, one transferred, 3 lil frosties left. Im new to ivf, but feel like a veteran when it comes to ttc. How do you stay positive and not think the worst. Im trying to think rationally because at the end of the day, im holding hope for something that could have already "left my body"... or it could be thriving. Im getting bugger all support from my family, my dh is away interstate and comes home the day i am suppose to POAS. So, how do you not think the worst..
Also, im using crinone for support... is it suppose to leak out during the day?.. its awful stuff.
I put my hands on my belly last night when i was in bed and spoke to the little 4 cell dude and said " its ok, just hang on and everything will be ok".. i think i need to say that to myself. Its a hard road, im taking a week off from work just to myself, to come to terms with things..but, god this is hard.
Not sure how to drive this website, is there a 2ww forum and if so, how can i locate it. I think im going to be needing all you gorgeous women out there. Any advice would be great
xx

Welcome.

Here is the current LTTTC TWW thread.

https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...it-8-a-173099/

As for how to stay sane, I don't know, haven't been able to do that yet :). And yes it's usual for crinone to leak during the day, I had to wear a liner the whole time.

Fantastic news - 3 little frosties is great! No advice, you just have to try and keep your mind occupied! Sending you sticky vibes for your little blasty.

Oh, and yes, crinone is gross!

Thanks girls, i was started to wonder about crinone, awful awful stuff. Yay, ive joined the tww-ers forum. Thank you. Now somewhere to vent and it might stop me from googling so much!!
xx

Re the crinone - if it gets too bad you can always ask for progesterone suppositories. I used them in the *ahem* other hole and they were sooo much better.

And in relation to not thinking the worst - you know, in some ways I think that's what helped me through it. Because if I imagined the worst, and could work out in my mind how I would navigate the future if things didn't work out, then I felt less anxious. I feel I wasted so much time and energy feeling crap about infertility while I was doing IVF, and worrying about if it would work or not, that now I'm on the other side there is a big black hole where I should have been enjoying myself.

But the TWW - yeah the pitts. Chocolate chocolate chocolate!!

Even when thinking the worst, I found it helpful to remember that there was still a little bit of hope.... grabbing onto that little bit of hope... and remembering the 'cool' bits about the whole process... so for example
- Actually SEEING the embie on the screen before it's implanted... that was cool!!
- Actually knowing that the eggs fertilised this time... that was cool!
- Feeling the symptoms created by the medication and thinking.... Oh...that's what that will feel like when I'm actually preg..!
- Being connected to DH is a totally different way to usual and knowing that he will do anything for me at the moment... that was lovely!

It's about being rational about the whole thing really - but at the same time - not beating yourself up if you do have a couple of days meltdown. Remembering that it's your body and mind coming to terms with what this means for your TTC adventures.

and the main thing I have found helpful over the past month - my first IVF treatment - is finding people and places I can reach out and feel connected - cause it's such a lonesome experience and it's hard to share with people face to face... I have seriously found BB an amazing place for that. And the past week (which has been a rough BFN) my mum has been surprisingly amazing!! I should thank her for that.

there's a thread around here somewhere where people put their 'funny' stories about what the process was like... that was quite a cathartic process and i really enjoyed it....
if i knew how to link back to it I would... but I don't know how.... hang on.... I'll see if I can figure it out....
https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...-laugh-173123/... did that work...??

If you found a way to make the TWW easy you'd be a millionaire!

This forum kept me sane & my DH. I could've curled up & hibernated.

I felt the world was a cruel place for people who are long term TTC.

Try & do some nice things for yourself. Try to do something that makes you laugh & get a cuddle from a support person who will let you say anything in confidence xx

Best of luck :)