FET in a few weeks. Feeling kinda down

My husband and i are due to do a FET in a few weeks. This is pretty hard this time around, after a BFN. I will need to go onto injections again which, to be honest, I didn't think I would have to do. I've totally stuffed my vitamin routine, am smoking again and feel so **** about it all. I took it pretty hard after the first transfer didn't work. Slipped back into my old habits and am feeling tonnes of guilt for it. I have moved into a management role at work and, to be honest, this is my focus at the moment.
Am finding it so hard to concentrate on what I 'should' be doing right now.
My husband, I'm sure, thinks I've abandoned the idea but I haven't. It's as if I just want to carry on like this wasn't an issues so that when I am dissapointed again, I can just pick up where I left off.
How do I get my mind focussed again? Just thinking about it brings back so many awful memories of that time and I just can't bear to go there right now ;-( any words of wisdom?

Hi
It's hard to keep up the relentless momentum of it all. I know how you feel. Is there any reason why you need to do the FET in a few weeks? Would you be better putting it off a month or two to get your body and mind into the right space, as well as get work under control. Sometimes, waiting is better...

In the meantime, join us in the LTTTC Assisted Conception thread. Maybe chatting to others going through the same thing might help.

Best of luck :)

I was going to say the same thing as n2l..... I don't have advice about keeping the momentum going but some if the others over there might. I've had a bit of a break this cycle (my second) cause we've changed from antagonist to down reg and I DO think it has helped. Just knowing I'm NOT going to get UTD and am not trying has been a nice break. It means I'm def ready to start again now!!!

But it still feels crappy some days and as such - allow yourself to be miserable sometimes too - in the knowledge that you'll be okay - starting again tomorrow

xx it's busy over in LTTTC & AC - come join us xxx

Like the other ladies have suggested, sometimes a break is beneficial. I know we did this a few times last year when I was too overwhelmed and it did really help me to get excited about doing IVF again.