So so so frustrated!!

Well I am due for my pregnancy blood test on Thursday and i have woken up this morning and the soreness I was feeling in my breasts is gone. I can 't help thinking this is a bad sign.

I tell you the way that IVF plays with your mind is the worst, this is our 5th attempt after a 12 month break and I thought it would be a bit easier. In some ways it is but in another ways it is still just as stressful. Why is something that others find soooo easy soo difficult for some.

I also have to go to the hospital tonight to congratulate my stepsister on her baby, yeah :( Hate feeling so negative but celebrating someones else child at the moment is not my idea of a good time. We have been ttc for nearly 6 years now and nearly all of my friends have 2 or 3 children now and they started trying after us!! Even the friends I knew that struggled to have a baby (ie tried for 2-3years to conceive) have now had children!!!!!!

I do not want to be that one person who does not have children, aaaarrrrggghhh

Thanks for listening, venting done, now to get on with my life, still hopeful for Thursday but sad.

I'm so sorry, it seems so unfair sometimes!

Big hugs, be nice to yourself, sounds like it's gonna be a tough night :(

Bronze...I hope it is just the meds playing tricks and that you get your BFP. Will be thinking of you and keeping everything crossed for you *HUGS*