1 month to go..

Until my angel baby's due date.

I just cant get it out of my head that i'm supposed to be having a baby next month.

I had a massive break down the other night. It was over the kitten we got a couple of weeks ago. As soon as my BFF asked if somebody wanted a kitten i said yes straight away. As soon as i saw him i just became attached. He filled that empty hole inside me. I'm overly maternal at the moment, mothering everything. so when i asked for some advice on how to get my DD to be nice to that cat a few people were telling me to get rid of him. DP chimed in saying its what we should do and it felt like i was losing my baby all over again. I broke down. Its why i said i was leaving BB it all just became too much.

My mum is also begging me to go back to Vic to see my sister and her baby but i can't i know ill just break down when i see the baby.

Next month is going to be a huge month for me. I have my first midwife appointment, my babys birthday and then our 20 week scan which i am very nervous about.

I miss my baby :crying: But i also feel bad because i am growing another and i know people think i should be over it.

:hug: hun and don't worry about what other people think, your emotions are yours and they are real.

Regards,
Dianne

stuff "people"! I still have times where i'm upset (by upset i mean full on break down) about my angel and it's been 5 years! There's no time frame for grieving. If you want to cry, cry. No one can dictate how you feel. :hug:

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Hugs. Due dates are really hard. I find the month leading up to it is the worst.

Go easy on yourself sweety.

:hug: What your feeling is normal. I think it's awful for people to say 'get over it'. You never get over it. It's a part of who you are now and people need to accept it.

:hug: It's your baby. Of course you feel sad. The pain will ease in time, but you will never be able to replace that loss. :hug: