To all the beautiful LTTTC Assisted Conception women....

To my darling friends,

I know that for many of us Christmas can be a particularly difficult time. It can be a time when we are faced with the babies, children or pregnancies of family and friends. A time when we are faced with awkward questions from well meaning relatives - "So when are you going to start a family?". A time when it seems like everywhere we turn are stark reminders of what we don't have; the emptiness in our hearts which we keep hoping, praying will one day be filled with a child.

It is a pain that no one could even begin to understand, unless they have felt it themselves.

I know for me, each and every year I say to myself that this Christmas will be the last before I have a baby or are pregnant. Tomorrow will be hard for me because I am finally having to face the fact that this is it for us. The one thing I want to give my gorgeous, perfect DP, I will never be able to give him.

I know I am not alone though.

I wanted to say to you all that if things start to feel overwhelming or confronting tomorrow and you feel alone and like no one understands, to remember that you are not alone either. It is hard, but take a deep breath, ignore the nosy people, the gushingly pregnant, the cute newborns. Hold your head high and smile even though your heart is breaking. You are a beautiful, capable woman and you are not defined by your struggle with fertility. Enjoy the day, have a couple of drinks, eat some soft cheese and seafood and give your other half a hug. Take the day off from your journey and enjoy being you. You deserve it.

I pray that 2013 is a much better year for all of us, a year wherein either our dreams finally come true or we are blessed with strength and acceptance to move forward with peace.

May you all have a wonderful and happy Christmas. Thank you for all of your amazing support this year.

Take care xxx

Beautifully said :hug:

Agree with MadB. n2l, may tomorrow be a day of love and happiness for you and your family :hug:

Beautiful x

Your beautiful words brought tears to my eyes, Merry Christmas N2L. Here's hoping for a Christmas miracle.

Oh n2l, you made me cry. That was so beautifully written, thank you hun. I do hope though, that your wish comes true in 2013. Big hugs xoxoxox

I am crying too :hug:

I so badly wanted this for you and I am so so sorry beautiful xox

thankyou for being there for me, I hope I have offered something in return, and I will appreciate you always xox

well said N2L xxx

beautiful post n2l. lots of love to you and everyone else. xoxo

Huge hugs to you all.

Huge thank you huni. You made me cry. Huge hugs ladies. Pray we get our BFPs in 2013 xxx

Beautiful nothing2lose, :hug: to all this applies too :hug:

Very well said n2l, wishing you and your family a very merry Christmas! Xxx

Just lovely N2L and I wish I'd read something like this for those xmas's where I was really struggling. Huge hugs to those still on the journey xxx

I want to add that your signature is beautiful too. Reading your post again and following it with your signature is a good reminder for me to treasure what I do have rather than continuing to lament what I do not.

I totally agree myturn :hug:

None of us are ever alone... :grouphug:

no never alone :grouphug: .... thanks for this N2L xoxo i for one am so glad christmas and new years are over and all the beautiful babies & preggo friends and relos are not in my immediate space even if they are lovely!!
be kind to yourselves ladies xoxo