hopefully this rainbow will stick

i found out this week that i am four weeks pg with our rainbow...i am excited and i think in shock to be honest! we lost our DD at 39 weeks late last year, i then miscarried twins (well suspected twins - mc at 4.5 and 6.5 weeks in same pg and from my levels after the bleed i had at 4.5 weeks, they assume i probably lost a twin the first time) in Feb this year. I said to DH that i keep expecting to go to the toilet and see blood - i guess i am just expecting that something bad will go wrong again so if i just expect it to happen, the blow wont be so bad? i feel so numb to it. i have no desire to tell family or friends, even though i do feel excited from time to time. its a very strange feeling! my DD1 said to me today - you have a baby sister in your tummy - wt! we havent mentioned a word to her and havent been even talking about it in front of her! woah! anyway there is no purpose to this post, just need to get the feelings out - thanks for listening :pray:

Hugs I hope this bubba sticks for you, what a beautiful and intuitive little girl you have there.

Fingers crossed and good luck for a happy and healthy 9 months xoxo

Congratulations MumtoA! Wishing you a happy healthy sticky pregnancy and I hope the fear passes for you soon so you can really enjoy it :) How incredible is your DD! Kids can be so intuitive.

Congratulations MumtoA! I hope this rainbow is sticky and full of joy.

Congratulations! I hope your rainbow shines brightly & the next 9 months are happy & healthy.

Congrats and as many sticky vibes as possible coming your way x

Blessings to you mumtoA I hope this little one comes to earth safe and sound x

:hug: mumtoA

I hope this is a sticky bubs for you.

Always feel free to write down your feelings here. There is always an ear to listen x

Hugs mumtoa, really hoping for a sticky bub for you and family. Wishing you a h&h 9 months. Hope your dd knows something you don't, idk like kids intuition.

Thanks so much everyone. I hope in a few weeks reality will set in and I can enjoy it. I said to dh that as hard as it is, this baby should get all the excitement and fun that my other two did even if it is scary - I am really going to try xo

aww congratulations. hoping you have a sticky bean tucked away :)

I am wishing you a beautiful pregnancy and beyond :heartbeat:

And wow to your DD1s talk about baby!! that's very special xx

I had my first bloods drawn today - at 5 weeks 5 days they were 10900!!! Woohoo!! Here's hoping that they double on Friday!!!

Great news!

Wow, great levels!!

Congrats and good luck :)

Congratulations MumtoA, I missed your original post. Your daughter sounds incredible.