feeling scared

God this pregnacy thing toys with your emotions. One day I'm so excited and then next I'm freaking out. I've been spotting for about 2 1/2 weeks now. Some days nothing at all and others very minor clots - nothing bright red. I've had positive u/s and blood tests and so my ob was very positive things would be okay. He's booked me in for another u/s Monday and I'm soooooooo scared it will showed a missed miscarriage. I've been unwell for about 3 weeks but because I don't feel as sick today I feel like that's a bad sign. After reading so many different threads and things on the Internet it's so hard to know what to think. I know I should be positive blah blah blah but honestly I'm freaking out right now.

HI JordieC, I completely sympathise and understand where you are coming from but if possible try to remain positive as alot of women bleed and perhaps (fingers crosssed) it is nothing to worry about. I'll tell you my story and hopefully it will help you stay positive until u/s. I woke up on morning when I was 6 weeks, had a shower and when drying off noticed a fair bit of bright red blood. The night before I had had a few cramps so as you can imagine I freaked out. Went to local dr cause OB was on leave who advised me he was 95% confident i'd miscarried but gave me an u/s form to book in anyway just to confirm it had all passed. Pretty upset so home I go, drink a few glasses of red, smoke a few ciggies and do everything that I had stopped completely when discovering I was pg 3 weeks prior! The next morning I still felt pg (sore breasts etc) so booked in for an early u/s a day later. U/s showed not only had I not miscarried but that I was carrying twins! Hbs were good in the u/s and they were a good size. Anyway spotting continued for the next few weeks every day. Not alot, and dark in colour but continuous. Then one night I passed a couple of small clots..So again I freaked out and OB sent me for another u/s. He said because I was still feeling sick it seemed a good thing. But then I stopped feeling sick completely and was really worried and bleeding had stopped. U/s showed everything was fine, hbs fine and B1 and B2 good in length. That was 2 weeks ago.

So I know how scary it can be and i've got my fingers crossed for you that everything is ok. Quick question though, do you have any other symptions of pg still, ie sore breasts, hungry etc etc?

Thanks - that is reassuring. I still feel hungry but get full quickly and still tired but the queasy feeling has settled in past couple of days. Right now I'm feeling so low that I've pretty much written this pregnancy off so that when I go for the u/s on MOn I won't be too shocked. I know that's negative but I've had one m/c and even though the circumstances are different this time I sitll have that awful feeling that it's not going to be okay.

Oh sweet, I really feel for you and hope that everything is alright when you go for your u/s on Monday. I really hope its positive news.

Wow I guess I must have been feeling pretty low because now I feel great! I had an u/s today and it's all fantastic. Bubs has grown 2 weeks and has even stronger h/b. Guess I better stop worrying. Thanks for your support!

Jordie - So pleased to hear it hun! :)

Great news Jordie :)

My symptoms have eased off this week so i've been stressing a bit. I haven't had any spotting - but this whole journey certainly is a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I guess it's the feeling of not having any control that freaks me out the most.

We would all do anything to keep the little being inside us safe, but there seems to be so little we can do (other than trying to be healthy and protect ourselves).

All the best

Great news Jordie, i'm really happy for you. It is so hard to relax at this early stage and I know how you feel. I have my 12 week u/s(nuchal fold) next wednesday and i'm really hoping to see two healthy, strong heartbeats but then I freak out and start worrying again. Phew i'll be glad when the twelve weeks has passed and I feel a bit more confident.