help! i can't take my own body seriously!!

hi everyone (sorry if this ends up being too long! but PLEASE read it.. i could really do with some feedback..)

i posted another thread a few days ago titled "a little concerned.. looking for advice". this is a lead on from that but i decided to put it in a new thread because the problem this time is a bit different.

originally i was concerned because i was getting sharp bb pains which is really unusual for me, even when AF is due. but that has eased a little- bb are still sensitive but not painful anymore thank god. at that point in time AF still wasn't due for a few days.

well AF is officially late now. i'm waiting until Monday to make any doctor's appointments or anything just incase, because she's showed up a day or two late before. but she was due on the 5th and still no sign of her yet. haven't done a HPT yet mainly because if it's a BFN i'll be disappointed but still not 100% convinced that it's not a false neg.

i've had nausea over the past 2 or 3 days and it's still coming and going and i'm feeling very bloated. also i've realised that i've been suffering from major tiredness without even connecting it to maybe being pregnant! over the last 2 weeks i have slept till after midday almost every day (i'm studying, but am on a break at the moment). i never connected the two, just figured i must be staying up too late or something!

it's been about 4 or 5 days that i've had absolutely no interest in BD.. and i know this is going to sound very bad but that's unusual for me.. it's not like i'm up for it any old time of the day or night or anything like that, but i don't usually feel like the thought of it is so unappealing.

i've been experiencing cramping different to AF cramping over the last couple days in odd places, (for example, right now i've got cramping on the right side of my abdomen), and it's kind of played in with the nausea. not to mention i've been getting indigestion regularly.because of the bloating, it's really been feeling like AF is around the corner, just taking her time. i've also have had a lot of EWCM lately which is unusual for me around the time AF is due (sorry for tmi). i only usually get EWCM around O time.

really not sure what's going on. at the moment, i'm just feeling like it's all in my head because whenever i get myself worked up and excited thinking i might be pregnant, i end up getting a BFN on the HPT. i know i should just go buy myself a HPT and get it over with since i haven't even tested yet but i know that if it's a BFN and the "symptoms" don't go away, it won't ease my mind at all. on the other hand if it's a BFP there will be the huge mix of emotions- i'll be overjoyed because a baby is always a wonderful thing and DP and i definitely want to have children but it will be stressful as well as i'm still living at home (with my mum) while attending university so this is a little ahead of schedule. DP and i weren't planning on moving in together until we'd finished our degrees- so we're not very well prepared. i know it sounds terrible.
so in light of all that, i still haven't decided which way i want that HPT to go!

i'm just feeling really overwhelmed and confused at the moment. hence the title of this post- i really don't feel like i can take my body seriously because i keep wondering if it's all in my head because i THINK i'm pregnant. but even before i was thinking about it much, i was getting some of these symptoms. my mum got sick even before she found out she was pregnant and she had difficult pregnancies with me and my brother, i've taken after her when it comes to AF tendencies etc so i'm guessing that when i am pregnant, i'll probably feel the effects earlier than expected.

anyway- does anybody have any feedback on this? have any of you experienced the same symptoms? am i stupid to not really want to do a HPT yet? i'd LOVE to hear from some of you- even if it's just a "hang in there".

thanks girls.xx

I'd do the HPT too. If you get a BFN, then ok, you might still be left wondering for a little while (until you do a BT or til AF finally comes along), but if you get a BFP you could start to plan and work things out with your DP, like what you're going to do about living arrangements, etc.
JMO. I really hope you get your answer soon. And, LOL, hang in there...

Carrie,

If I were you there's no way I'd be able to wait until Monday for a BT... I'd be straight out buying a HPT. It won't do you any harm to do a HPT. Your AF is late so the test should be accurate (especially if you get a sensitive one). Waiting is only going to stress you out more. You can still see the doc on Monday and have the results confirmed.

Good luck :goodluck:

just did a HPT with a Crystal Clear Midstream test that claims you can take it up to 4 days before AF is due. not sure how accurate that would be though!
anyway, it was a BFN. hasn't really resolved anything in my mind except making me a little less confident in trusting my body, since my mind seems to be making it all up!

Hi Carrie

I'm assuming you didnt use first morning urine whch could make a (sometimes big) difference as non-FMU isnt as concentrated. Try using your FMU tomorrow morning.

Good luck!

Good luck! Hope it's a :bfp: for you!!!

Carrie,

There's still hope for a BFP. Try the FMU tomorrow morning. Also is it possible you O'd late? If you O'd late then its possible that you may not be 2 days late for AF yet.... you're definitely still in with a chance. That being said it is amazing the pregnancy symptoms we can conjure up for ourselves - we all do it.

Wishing you a :bfp:

Tonydayl- no i didn't use FMU, i know you're usually supposed to. it was driving me mad and i couldn't be bothered waiting once i'd bought the HPTs so i just did one. This particular test said if you're late for AF you can test any time of the day as long as you haven't had excessive liquids... mind you i had about 3 glasses of apple juice this morning because i was craving it like crazy! hehe. suppose i can add cravings and excessive thirst to my ever increasing list of "pregnancy symptoms"! :rolleyes:
i did buy two tests (they came in packs of 1, they used to come in packs of 2- i wanted 4 so i had plenty, but turns out i've just got the 2. can always go buy more if need be) so i'm going to try again tomorrow morning with FMU.

principessa76- It's definitely possible that i O'd late as i don't temp or anything. since we're not actively TTC, i basically just guess that it's O time when EWCM starts showing up, since it USUALLY only shows up then.. apart from having it now as a "symptom" of course! (i'm going to be kicking myself if i actually am pregnant and i've been making fun of real symptoms! :doh:)

Nessa, Snacks and Renstar- thanks for all your replies, it helps so much to be able to talk about it all! at the moment i don't want to tell anybody until i'm certain either way- gossip spreads like wild-fire around my family and friends, so i'm keeping my mouth shut for now.

i'll come back on tomorrow and let you all know how the HPT goes! :D

Where are you Carrie?????????? How did you go?

Sorry everyone! I've been busy all day and this is the first chance i've had to come on. I tested this morning and it didn't work (the control line didn't come up) so lucky girl that I am- since i didn't want to wait till tomorrow morning for a more accurate result, i had to keep today's FMU in a plastic cup (with a lid of course), run down to the chemist and buy 2 new HPTs and then test again when i got back. it was a BFN.
i might see how i'm feeling wednesday/thursday and whether AF has shown up cos at the moment there's still no trace of her. i've had AF-like cramping but that's not something that i usually get when she's on her way. the only signal i usually have of her being around the corner is being a bit grumpy the week before, i usually don't get cramps until she actually gets here. i've had a few mood swings so that could be a sign she's on her way but i suppose it could also be a sign of pregnancy. it's so frustrating how similar the symptoms for AF and pregnancy are!!
i'm a little worried because a few months ago i skipped a cycle and my GP warned me it could be PCOS. he wanted me to go in for an u/s but i ignored it since AF turned up a couple days later and has been fine and fairly regular until now.
anyway i figure i'll wait till around wednesday/thursday (that will be CD 32/33) and see how i'm feeling physically and emotionally, and if AF hasn't shown up yet and i'm not feeling any different, i'll take another HPT and if that shows up negative, i'll book myself a doctor's appointment. (of course i'll book a doctor's appt if it's positive too! hehe)
i was going to book in tomorrow (Monday) but i still have a suspicion AF may just be coming a little late- so i'll try to wait a little while longer and see.
sorry to go back to this- but does anyone have any information on PCOS? i don't know much about it except that it can make it very difficult to conceive as you dont ovulate properly or something?? i'm really hoping it's not that.

Hi Carrie,

I am TTC and have PCOS. I was diagnosed 13 years ago and have had it for about 20 years, so if you have any questions just fire away!!

The odd skipped cycle does not necessarily mean PCOS. You could have been a bit stressed. It is not that unusual. Most women have an odd or an anovulatory cycle some time. You need other symptoms to have PCOS. Some women (about 25%) have PCO, which is not PCOS, and does not necessarily mean there is a problem, it is just part of being on the scale of "normal". A u/s is not enough for a diagnoses of PCOS.

I had an OB who said that PCOS is way over diagnosed and credited with far to many fertility problems. It affects women so differently!!

Me, I have so far not had a problem concieving naturally and have fingers crossed for pregnancy #3 turning up soon.

All the best,
TICKLISH

ticklish- thank you so much, that really puts my mind at ease. it was a different doctor than my regular one who suggested it could be PCOS a few months ago and i brushed it off since he didn't know me very well, but after this cycle being irregular, it got me thinking about it again. it's so good to know that even if it were PCOS it doesn't mean i wouldn't be able to conceive. good luck with TTC#3!! :D

an update on my situation:
i have just woken up today at 1p.m. which is INSANE. and i'm STILL feeling tired. felt quite damp down there (Sorry TMI) and thought AF might be here, but turns out she's not, there's still no sign of her, not even spotting. not feeling too flash today really- got a bit of a headache and stomach's a bit off. still just waiting...... :dunno:

p.s. i just found this little face- how cute is it?! :doctor:

Geez Carrie, i could sleep in til lunch time every day!!! :lol: i am always tired when I wake up! Not a morning person!
How much sleep did you get? Perhaps you got TOO much sleep?? That can make you tired also. if i get more than 10hrs sleep i'm buggered the next day. 8-10hrs is ideal for me
i hope you get your BFP soon matey!!!!! fingers crossed for you
yep how cute is that smiley!

to be honest Renstar, i can't even remember when i got to sleep!! too busy tossing and turning, thinking about everything!
i used to love sleeping in, but now i find it takes up too much of my day. not that i'm having to do much since i'm on a break from studying at the moment, but still :lol:

i'm confusing myself because i was unsure of which way i wanted the HPT to go, i was thinking how stressful it would be because a baby now would be way ahead of our plans, and we'd have to sort a lot of stuff out, but this morning when i thought AF was on her way, i felt really disappointed... so now i don't know!

oh carrie, i'm sure what ever happens will happen for the right reasons and that you will be able to handle the situation... i hope it all works out for the best for you. perhaps if you are worried about PCOS go see a doc and get some tests? Try not to self-diagnose yourself or worry you may have it because chances are you don't and you are healthy but if worried, go see someone? Have a read about it on the internet too there are quite a few reputable sources when you google the medical term so you will find some help with it on the net... good luck i hope you dont have it but if you did, i'm sure it would be manageable anyway.. :)
Take another test in few days and see how you go? Keep us updated anyway...

this morning woke up at about 7:40a.m with TERRIBLE nausea. really, really bad. woke mum up to let her know (still living with mum while studying incase anybody doesn't know this). she came in and said she thinks i am pregnant cos no AF, AF-like cramping for over a week and now the nausea. had a cold drink of water and that settled it a little, enough that i could fall back asleep. have just woken up now and gone to the loo and tried to do a HPT which didn't work, then saw a little bit of blood on the paper. wiped a few times to be sure and there was a small amount of blood each time- red/brown in colour. not sure if this is AF, implantation bleeding (very late for it i would have thought?) or something else. i suppose if it gets heavier through the day then i'll know it's AF. but i have no idea what the hell has been going on then, because i never get cramping like i have over the last week and the nausea this morning was so strong. when AF comes and i notice blood on the paper, i usually get REALLY strong cramps coming in a few minutes after that (could be my mind i don't know) but i haven't had that today.
pretty upset at the moment because after hearing mum say she thinks i'm pregnant, i was almost certain i was (and happy about it!), because she recognised all the things i was feeling as things she felt. so i don't know anymore. just feeling really disappointed. (and confused!) and not knowing how the hell i'm supposed to understand what my body is doing, if things like this keep happening :(

pretty sure it's AF now. it's gotten heavier. oh well.. at least this way DP and i will have more time to prepare!

and on the up side... i got a ticker! hehe :D