House

I don't know if this is the right place to post this...

Anyway... last night, I watched an episode of House... and it was really, really upsetting to me, as the baby on there had everything that Noah had.
The baby on the show survived because it's kidneys were fine.
I didn't expect to get so upset over a TV show... but, things lately have been making me think a lot about Noah... it was the 1 year anniversary of his due date the other day... then, I bumped into the midwife who delivered Noah... I haven't seen her since I delivered Noah... and then this.

Sometimes I think it never gets better... I miss my little baby every single minute of every single day... but some days, it is like I am deliberately reminded that Noah isn't here and that is so upsetting to me.

Oh Lisa, big :hug: for you - it does seem that there are those days when we cant stop thinking of our babies, more so than usual. And everywhere you turn something reminds you of them - I sometimes think that is the cross we bear in life for eternity :( It is proof of the bond and love we have with our babies and that can never be broken.

Noah is around your and watching over his beautiful baby brother every day :hugs:

sending huge :grouphug: your way. I watched that episode and it was very emotional.
I too believe Noah is looking down on you & your family each day.

Lisa - I sobbed too. The little hand reminded me of Caitlyn's - only hers wasn't moving :(
It does get more manageable but having a baby reminds you what you missed out on with the loss of your baby. And sometimes there is just something that triggers a memory or a feeling and the pain comes flooding back. Big hugs :hug:

Lisa I'm so sorry hon. I found it distressing and I haven't been experienced the loss of a child, I can only imagine how it was for you especially being so similar.

:hug:

*mwa*
Cailin

Thanks everyone :grouphug:
I really just needed to vent... as I said, there have been so many reminders of Noah over the last week or so... this episode was the thing that broke me.

Thanks so much to everyone for understanding.

Lisa I didn't see the show but I can understand how you feel. There are so many things that remind us our of bubs and it is difficult. Noah will always be with you, in your heart and your dreams :hug:

Definitely sending you big hugs! :grouphug:
I'm exactly the same, but it's with one certain song - Robbie Williams 'Angels'
Makes me tear up lately every time I hear it

sending you big hugs