Our little one...lost in 6 weeks, but thought i was 9 weeks
I've just come home after a d&c in hospital.
I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks, but I thought I was 9 weeks. Our little one's heartbeat could not be found on the ultrasound, and according to measurements of the grow of the foetus, it was only 6weeks, but I had reached 9weeks.
I've asked my gynae dr if I can miscarriage naturally rather than have my body go through a traumatic procedure. He said that I could and had been spotting for 6 days with having no pain, no blood, no clotts. Just the spotting. Till Friday 2:30am came and was in severe pain. I always have period pains, but this pain was just unbearable and I kept praying that this is all I would feel and wouldn't go through a d&c. After 30mins, my pains worsened and when I was in position like giving bith, i pushed and something felt odd. It was a clott, and never stopped. After a change in pad, I had filled one pad in less than 5min.
I find myself asking my husband to bring me into hospital as this wasn't normal, and the bleeding was just nonstop. The clots kept coming when contractions came. I find myself in the emergency hospital in bed, being constantly changed as the bleeding became heavier and heavier. I clott so much that I thought I had passed the foetus.
It is now 530am, and the pains worsen and find myself feeling dizzy cuz of too much blood loss. My sweat is cold and lose my hearing for a short moment. Contractions come again. I get hooked onto a drip as I am dehydrating.
I have emergency doctors conducting a ductile. Which is not painful but very uncomfortable. They open my vaginal way to remove more clots. I'm crying of such discomfort. I have my husband who holds me and keeps me calm. It is then that i start to feel traumatized physicaly and emotionally.
I know I will get through this but Im so upset and feel lonelier than ever. My husband has been wonderful and I thank God that I have him. But I need to grieve, and I feel that I will not cope in time...I know I will overcome this, but I am so upset and traumatized.
This was our first pregnancy. We're just newlyweds who got married in June 2007. I miss our little one and this little one gave me no grief during that 6 weeks I had him/her in me. No morning sickness. I had felt the healthiest with him/her than I was before. And now, i only feel loneliness and heartache with my little one...
Our little one...lost in 6 weeks, but thought i was 9 weeks
Thank You to those who replied. It does help me by discussing how I feel with my husband, family and friends. And also to you all who have experienced this before.
I do believe that I will get through...it's just a matter of when and how long. But I hope it will be soon :redface:
I've cried abit as I got home from hospital, and cried again after. I just need to let this out as it helps me better.
I'm not so much in physical pain after the d&c, but again, emotionally its upsetting me.
Thank You again. and to those that have just experienced this, it is hard but be brave and focus that you will get through this. That's how I see it, and I know i will get through it....but it will take time for us all.
recovering after the loss of ourlittleone..
It's day 5 after my miscarriage. So far, I have coped well. My husband has been absolutely wonderful. He has now returned to work as I know the workload is difficult to catch up on myself. On the weekend my husband bought me a nintendo ds to cheer me up and to keep myself busy while I am resting/recovering in bed.
Honestly, it has kept me busy and has cheered me up A LOT. But I do speak about how I feel should I go back to the hours of miscarrying. It hurts, but I have learnt that as days go by, my tears no longer flow. It is not the accepting that I have miscarried that hurts, but the loss that ourlittleone is now a star up the heavens above.
I know ourlittleone will bring us happiness again. There are reasons why good and even bad things happen to us, but I do not question or punish God as to why it has happened to me? I do wonder, but I do not punish God why he had to let it happpen to me.
I tell my husband that I would like to wait 1 year till God brings us another littleone, just to give my body the time to recover from the experience of miscarrying. But should it happen, then let it be. But I can see that this experience has made it stronger for me. I have such a wonderful husband who has been a great support to me. Family who have helped me through with positive words. But deep inside I am hurt and upset, but I feel as each day goes by, I am getting there....Tomorrow, I will return to work. My body is ready for it. And I am ready to face the world again looking positive and to come away from the hurt and suffering that I have lost.
Thank You to everyone here in BB. We have gone through similar even more traumatic experiences, but if it wasn't for people who understood what we all went through, the days for me to get by would have not happened. Thank You. My thoughts and prayers are with every mother-to-be who has experienced an upsetting, traumatic painful ordeal. It is hard to face that it will get better. BUT it will get better in time..
